anxiety

estar

has taken over my life.

i took on a new job, which stated I would be trained, and in the interview of which I was totally honest and now I live in total fear of being fired.

In my last job my probation period was extended, as i made one or two tiny errors. I don't think i was the person they wanted. However I was made permanent and tried my best.

i left, and was totally honest in the interview. Now I am being asked to do tasks way beyond my job description - and expected to know everything without training.

I have an excellent track record. However i did an interview yesterday and was ****e. I became over whelmed by anxiety sounded crap, and the job market isnt that great, so I am stuck.

The only job I can seem to get is one that involves travel - ie. leaving my boyfriend and travelling Europe 50% of the time.

I am constantly tense, nervous, tearful, make stupid mistakes I never normally would. All my previous skills and @balls@ seem to have deserted me.

I feel like giving up. I am creating the situations I fear with my nerves.

I don't know what I want or what advice I need. Just support from anyone who has ever overcome crippling anxiety.

thanks for reading.

abi2007

No job is worth that stress... could you survive if you just left with no job to go to?

estar

it would be something to explain forever

thats what F5cked me up at the interview

im working for a company that don't have a CLUE what they are doing

its difficult to explain how incompetant they are

and i dont have the expertise to fix them

and my boss who is competance personified

now has the yay or nay over me.

my nerves are shot, as their business model and the way they do
things is full of holes.

i pointed these things out and they now are questioning me,
which rattles me, and makes me lose all my confidence.

i now am a bag of nerves, which is my fault, not theirs.

its my weakness.

Cool_CM

estar wrote: »

it would be something to explain forever

Are you talking about the fact that if you leave then you'll have to explain it in every other interview you go to in the future?

It's not your fault that the people you work for are incompetant, and it's definately not your fault that they are delegating you work to do without you having the proper training or experience to do it.

I was in a situation like this once, thank god it was only a summer job though, where I was made do things that there was absolutely no way I should have been doing due to my qualifications, or lack of so to speak. I was made work on jobs that required me to have a safety pass, which I was told would be payed for by the company. Later the day before I was supposed to go and do the test, I was told I didn't actually need one and if anybody came and asked who I was, I was Mr X (an employee who they had sent to do the test previously who was then fired for actually standing up to their way of running things). This work involved knocking down walls, climbing in attics, ladder etc, and if somethink had happened then I would have been screwed because I shouldn't have been there in the first place. Thank God this company is no longer in business and providing a service to the public anymore. I have since gone on to mention this in every interview I have ever done as an example of a job that I didn't like and what was wrong with it.

You should try and take a day or two off to relay and think about it rationally. If a job is causing you this much stress you have to ask yourself is it really worth that much to you tormenting yourself everyday?