Uncontrolled anger

LegacyUser

Hi,

hoping someone can give me some advice??

I have been on anti depressants for a month now. Im on Zispin Soltab 15mg.

For the first 2 weeks I had really bad physical side effects from them, sickness etc...all very normal.

I then went on the have really high highs and really low lows. This went on for a couple of days and then about a week ago, i went completly numb - as in i couldnt feel anything except anger - hence the title of the post

I have so much anger in me at the moment that its quite scary for me. I think its cos i have never felt anger before.

I have had a lot of crap things happen to me in the past and i have never been anger at them.

The doctor had referred me to a counsellor but that could take up to the end of the summer to get an appointment.

Has anyone else had this feeling?

Is there anything i can do for the time being?

Beruthiel

Angrywoman wrote: »

The doctor had referred me to a counsellor but that could take up to the end of the summer to get an appointment.

Why is it taking so long?
Can you not try someone who will see you sooner?

LegacyUser

There is a practice where I live and they are the only ones who deal with the type of counselling i need.

DenMan

Hi OP

You may not have shown much anger in the past but obviously this has been building up for quite some time. People deal with problems differently, others show it openly while others can keep it to themselves. If you didn't get angry why are you now on medication? This could be a problem. Your body may be fighting back against this suppression.

Maybe there is something from your past you are trying to deal with. You did say you had a hard time recently and it's only now the anger is starting to show itself. I would suggest doing something that allows you to release plenty of stimulus. Go for a swim in the pool or do some boxing. It will allow you to get a good workout while at the same time make you feel better about yourself. If you don't need to be on medication, then don't. Try and face the problems yourself and allow yourself to heal. Hope this works out for you.

Aurora Borealis

Beruthiel wrote: »

Why is it taking so long?
Can you not try someone who will see you sooner?

It often takes this long with waiting lists. OP as Beruthiel suggests I would ring around or ask your GP for an emergency referral.

LegacyUser

Hi angrywoman,
I've had a similar situation to you, where I've had a lot of repressed anger coming up in me all of a sudden, and not a clue as to how to cope with it. I feel for you in your situation that you're on a waiting list for a counseller.

I'm fortunate to have found one quick enough.

I am not used to dealing with anger, it is not how I would describe myself, it is a horrible, horrible and inescapable feeling.

My counseller gave some advice on how to deal with it, and unfortunately the only way to get it to go away, and stop coming back is to get it out, and express it in some way.
She gave a few options, the first two which are totally not for me, but I found the third one
okay. But it'd be different for everyone I'm guessing.

First one was to draw what you're feeling, where you think the anger is (if you were to describe where you feel it in your body), what colours you'd associate with it etc.

Second one was to go and do some exercise, go for a run, or go to the gym and focus on the anger while exercising.

The last one, which I tried, was to write about it. She said to put at the top of the page, "I feel angry", and then start off, why you feel angry, perhaps what you would say to the person or persons that you're angry at, and why you deserve to be angry, and get it all off of your chest. She said that it doesn't have to make sense, because emotions are not always coherent. And just to keep writing.

Now I don't know your situation, but if there is guilt in there to do with the anger, like you feel guilty for being angry at a particular person, and you have difficulty justifying your anger because of this guilt, the counseller suggested getting a separate sheet of paper and writing that down on that.

When you're finished start ripping the sheets up into shreds, and burn them in a tin.

I am not certain if that has gotten rid of my anger, because it being repressed, it comes and goes quick as a shot, so I find it very difficult to pin it down, and even more so to express it. But I will tell you that I did this last week, and have not felt angry since then, so maybe it has done something.

Also if it is any help, I had spent a good few days dreading, absolutely dreading doing the exercise, but when I was actually doing it, it wasn't half as bad as I thought it would be.

Good luck with it.
I hope you find a counseller soon.

Victor

SimilarSit, can you keep you lines and paragraphs a little bit tidier, people need to be able to read your post.

/school teacher.

Overheal

DenMan wrote: »

Hi OP

You may not have shown much anger in the past but obviously this has been building up for quite some time. People deal with problems differently, others show it openly while others can keep it to themselves. If you didn't get angry why are you now on medication? This could be a problem. Your body may be fighting back against this suppression.

Maybe there is something from your past you are trying to deal with. You did say you had a hard time recently and it's only now the anger is starting to show itself. I would suggest doing something that allows you to release plenty of stimulus. Go for a swim in the pool or do some boxing. It will allow you to get a good workout while at the same time make you feel better about yourself. If you don't need to be on medication, then don't. Try and face the problems yourself and allow yourself to heal. Hope this works out for you.

This sums up the post I was about to write.

Let it all out: scream, cry, write, draw, talk, whatever it takes until you can come to terms with it all.

Victor

Angrywoman, if you feel out of control and think you might do something rash, you need to talk to someone.

You need to let out the anger, but in a safe manner. Talking and exercise are two important ways to do that.

DenMan wrote: »

If you don't need to be on medication, then don't. Try and face the problems yourself and allow yourself to heal.

That is for a doctor to decide, not DenMan. Facing problems alone can be very difficult and medication is there to help people until other treatments start working.

LegacyUser

well done for identifying it and wanting to deal with it,im the same i have inherited behavioural issues with anger from my family and it is very negative,ive done a lot of therapy and it helped me emensely,i refused to go on anti depressants because i believe they are just a plaster over the real problems...

if we are part of a dysfunctional family we are not taught how to handle emotions growing up-but the therapy teaches you new skills that can really help... i have very successful relationships now from doing this,as the skills become second nature..

it is going to be overwhelming for you at the beginning because you are like a pressure cooker but slowly you will release it.. heres some other techniques for you-

beating the bed with a stick/bat... its feels stupid but think about the person/situation you are angry with and just get it out-it could come in handy if your really feeling fierce..

also driving somewhere where there is nobody else and with the windows up-scream your f*cking head off!!! another idea for getting it out...

also while your waiting on the therapy buy yourself a note book or use your computer to write out how you are feeling-i use my my space blog- i find it great..

another thing to do is get some good books for some guidance.. my favourites are
toxic parents-susan foreward
you can heal your life-louise hay and her radio station-www.hayhouseradio.com
feal the fear and do it anyway-susan jeffers
the power of now-eckhart tolle


everyone has different preferences regarding books but i find them a great support when you really have no one to talk to ....

Overheal

im with victor on that. the meds seem to be helping things surface here: they need to.

DenMan

OK guys, fair point. I'm with you on that. I was just suggesting that in some cases (not all) medication can have side effects. OP you need to talk to an experienced professional who can instruct you properly towards your recovery. They will put a plan in place for you to follow and then you will have a proper road into finding yourself again. We are all with you.

Skinfull

Maybe ask your GP about trying a different Anti Dep. I know when I was on them a few years ago mine said to me that "we mightnt get it right first time" They all work differently on different people. Ask him about changing and see if you cant get rid of some of the side effects as they surely cant be helping. I was lucky enough to get a good one first time but a friend of mine had to try 4 different types before he found one that suited.

And I think it was posted here before...try exercise. If you can rugby is great for it! But running is a blessing too and its free! Something you can do on your own when you want for as long as you want. Plus you get runners high which is ALWAYS good!

Good Luck.

LegacyUser

Hi everyone,

thank you all for your replies. Similarsit thanks for your ideas i will certainly give them a try.

I called the counselling place yesterday and I am waiting on them to come back to me with an appointment.

DenMan

Well done Angrywoman. That's the way forward. Hope it works out for you. Then you can change your name.

Nevyn

I just to keep broken/chipped cups and plates in a box and then go hurl them at the shed wall, it helped at the time.

You have to find out where your angry and frustraton is coming from, what cuases it so that you can deal with that rahter then the reaction you are having to it.

Hopefully you will be able to do this and get the help you need to make the changes in yourself and in your life.

Victor

Thaedydal wrote: »

I just to keep broken/chipped cups and plates in a box and then go hurl them at the shed wall, it helped at the time.

You have to find out where your angry and frustraton is coming from, what cuases it so that you can deal with that rahter then the reaction you are having to it.

Hopefully you will be able to do this and get the help you need to make the changes in yourself and in your life.

Can I ask folks that when they do things like this, to do it safely! Broken / chipped crokery agaisnt plain walls only please.