Is it just me or....?

LegacyUser

Has anyone else ever felt or suffered from the following:


Despondency
Low energy levels & general apathy
Feelings of paranoia & uncertainty
Lack of drive & confidence,
Shyness & inability to maintain eye contact with people who you know & also with strangers.
Irritable & tired, feelings of frustration
Loss of interest in hobbies & pursuits (not always but often)
No clarity, morbid thoughts
Trouble sleeping
Worried/fretful of what the future holds
Loss of libido
Feeling disconnected from life in general
Fragmented attention span
Poor verbal communication skills
Inability to relate to family/work colleagues/people in general
Reclusive tendencies
Panic attacks, anxiety especially during encounters with strangers
Palpations & an unhealthy self-awareness when in public
Preferring to be alone as opposed to going to lunch with people in work
Consuming alcohol to improve confidence in social situations - (In fact only feeling close to normal after a few drinks!)

I feel torn apart by these things, I’m constantly nervous in company & usually prefer to be isolated as opposed to putting myself in a position where I’ll have to make conversation with people. I even prefer night time as opposed to daylight if I need to venture out. I constantly analyse my previous sentences and regret things immensely when I reflect on previous situations. Most of the time I feel like my life is a parody, it comes in spells – there are days I feel great but they are scattered & mostly fall on weekends!

I feel ill at ease when meeting people for the first time which is ridiculous as I’m a grown adult! I feel like I’m being judged or sneered at a lot which makes things even worse – I know this is paranoia but I can’t seem to overcome it. Even in work it’s taking its toll; I’ve no drive to pursue promotion & dread the thoughts of interaction with managers etc as my nerves render me a quivering fool.

In all other ways I’m a completely normal person that’s of reasonable intelligence and good looks & have been successful with relationships & friendships regardless of these issues. - What is wrong with me?

Anyone else ever feel like this? – If so how did you overcome these feelings cause I’m tired of the torment.

Z.

Liam Byrne

+1......You're not alone.

I love life but all the above apply fairly regularly. So if I had a magic solution to pass on I'd be using it myself.

But the basics are to break habits and routine and also to exercise; I was completely shattered last week, wanted to sit in coz I was tired and had no energy, but I forced myself to go out and play a game of soccer, and ended up having great game (by my standards) and feeling really energised at the end of it.....

Moss

It sounds like you have a classic case of depression. See your doctor.

Overheal

And, Hypochondria, if you can list out that many symptoms o_0 less time on wikipedia okay?

RubyXI

Overheal wrote: »

And, Hypochondria, if you can list out that many symptoms o_0 less time on wikipedia okay?

Total unfair comment. OP, yes i feel most of those things most of the time. Its good to have a list of your symptoms. You should go to the doctor with that list, if you can. Believe me i know its not easy. I havent had the courage yet.

Overheal

I apologise. The point im trying to make is the OP might be overthinking this. Clear sign of depression? Perhaps. I've noted a lot of those symptoms if not all when I have been depressed in the past.

In fact, for a lot of that, sounds exactly like my last depression.

edit: im in work else id post a good lengthy one about this. more later. Over

IRISH RAIL

For a minuite I tought he was talking about me.
I wish I could offer advice but I would be interested to see where this goes for my own sake.

cowzerp

I would reccomend that you get into a gym or martial art or something, will boost your energy levels, confidence, and give you something positive to think about, seriously..

LegacyUser

Overheal wrote: »

And, Hypochondria, if you can list out that many symptoms o_0 less time on wikipedia okay?

I haven't quoted any wiki lists or anything else at all - these are my own thoughts and words.....

I just started writing down how I felt over a couple of months and this list was the end result - I am not an angsty teenager, far from it in fact - I left behind my teenage years behind a long time ago. I posted here to see what others have done as I'm tired of feeling like this. I'm also planning on visiting my GP - just thought I could find some answers here first as other routes will be a little more expensive...

Z

togster

Hi OP. Alot of people have these problems, if not these then they have other issues going on in their own heads. I talked to a friend of mine at the weekend about this very thing. A good thing to remember when you feel uncomfortable in situations is that everyone has there own issues. You are not alone in feeling these feelings.

Another point to remember is that if you really think about it, how often do you really feel like this? Do the bad patches taint your good days? The best thing to remember is that you are responsible for your own state of mind. Work on strategies to help you think the way you want to. For example if you feel uncomfortable in a social circumstance tell yourself that these people also have issues, perhaps the same you have.

LegacyUser

Z Lost wrote: »

Has anyone else ever felt or suffered from the following:


Feelings of paranoia & uncertainty
Lack of drive & confidence,
Shyness & inability to maintain eye contact with people who you know & also with strangers.
Loss of interest in hobbies & pursuits (not always but often)
No clarity, morbid thoughts
Worried/fretful of what the future holds
Feeling disconnected from life in general
Poor verbal communication skills
Inability to relate to family/work colleagues/people in general
Reclusive tendencies
Palpations & an unhealthy self-awareness when in public
Preferring to be alone as opposed to going to lunch with people in work
Consuming alcohol to improve confidence in social situations - (In fact only feeling close to normal after a few drinks!)
Z.

Hi OP..
I can relate to all of the above definately, particularly the eye contact thing, I'm glad to hear someone else suffers with this (if you know what I mean) I often would find myself having a conversation with someone and all of a sudden become very self aware and then those feelings would start, and I often notice that the other person picks up on this which makes it worse, and usually spells the end of the interaction.. it's almost like I just run out of steam halfway through conversations.. Doesn't happen with close family or my boyfriend for some reason.. but definately with friends and especially with aquaintances in social situations.. it's quite depressing and something I have no idea how to get over.. I feel your anguish..