Death..

DILLIGAF

In the last 2 weeks,in my hometown, there have been 5 deaths in,or just outside of my social circle. My friends father passed away after years of illness,my other friends grandmother whom he was very close to,he got an amazing tattoo done of her actually,photo finish.My friend was killed in a car crash on valentines day,a truely great guy and in a town like this was a breath of fresh air for me(he was a dub and bit of a header), and in the last few days there have been 2 suicides of guys that are just too young. Both 15-16 and both hung themselves. Everyone says life is too short, but really, life is too short, and too fragile, and I just can't help but think that I NEED to do everything that I NEED to do. I've recently applied for a post with the British Army, I was slightly nervous about it and putting myself in such a position, but I have no reservations about it now.And the massive tattoo I've been getting done, will I regret it when I'm 60? If I live to 60, I really don't think I'll regret anything in life, the fact that I lived through it is what's important,not what I did or didn't do, but that fact that I had the opportunity and the chance to make the decisions that I did,to love and hate the people and things I come up against. It's times like this that mortality really slaps me in the face and reminds me that this won't last forever.sorry I just needed to rant a bit,my heads ****ed right now

Overheal

I don't advise making massive life altering changes at the time. You're handling a lot of grief and we can all make ill-thought decisions when we reach that state of mind. I would suggest putting off your application at least for a couple months while you come to terms with the present situation; and defrag your head a bit. A common response to death is the 'kive your life to the fullest' attitude where people burst into life altering situations in order to distract themselves from their current state of affairs. Its escapism.

Thats a terrible string of misfortune and I'm sorry to hear of it

DILLIGAF

thanks overheal,the application was already in, and it's something I've been putting off for too long anyway, getting other jobs to distract myself from what my dream really is. But I know exactly what you mean. It's getting hard consoling so many people,the town is so cut up you can feel the blackness just wandering around and being in shops and pubs.typical westport, so many crashes over the years and so many friends lost it doesnt make any sense but its not supposed to really. The suicides are proving to be the worst to handle for everyone. Each person blaming themselves for not reaching out, but it was never there to help.no one knew.

rower 4 life

hey breath baby!! i think i no the area u r 4m i just saw sumat bought it on the news. but the fact ur speakin is makin a difference just watch out 4 every1 in ur group grief effects every1 in different ways. i think above is right hold of making the decisions bout the armyand ur tattoo my mate at 17 got a huge tatt on the arm of the mighty bouche its big black and a real unsightly eye sore, so because you hv enough on ur plate wit all tat going on just hang on for a bit u will hv plenty of time 2 decide when everything a little calmer!!

Miss Fluff

rower 4 life wrote: »

so because you hv enough on ur plate wit all tat going on just hang on for a bit u will hv plenty of time 2 decide when everything a little calmer!!

Having given myself a blinding headache from deciphering text speak, if it means what I think it says, I would agree with above OP

DILLIGAF

oh yeah its a bit late on the tattoo though, again its something I've wanted for years! I was always doodling these things back in my school days. it'll be a full sleeve soon. The fact that it has the dragon too shows reference to a coming of a age or a fulfillment of ones purpose. While I'm not there yet, I feel like im on the right track. All this pain thats everywhere is putting things in perspective for me.I just wish all of this didnt happen right now,i wish it didnt happen ever.


not done yet like,finishing tomorrow

Overheal

Well when everything and everyone around you is just as grim I can appreciate the want to extricate yourself from the situation :-/ but remember theres a lot of people in the same - well I guess you know that already. 'sigh.

Do what you must but be sure to give your feelings their due process, they arent to be repressed or anything. Terrible idea that.