Disfuntional family and my own compulsion to self destruct.

LegacyUser

I posted this before but forgot to give it a title and felt it probably wouldn't appear because of that. If it's repeated perhaps a Moderator can delete one of them, sorry but as you can see I haven't used these boards to post before. Only to read.

I feel I have the least well ajusted family in the world.

Let me tell you a little about them and then the problem I myself have.

Dad - Really makes it blatantly obvious that he feels we took away his life. He got Mum pregnant with my oldest brother at 19. At that time he was a very promising footballer (The English version) but couldn't care for Mum on the money they were paying. He seems to resent all of us for it and doesn'tfail to let us know.

Mum - Is back to drinking. She never does anything else and most nights someone has to remove her soiled clothes and put her to bed. Obviously not Dad as they haven't spoken for months.

Oldest Brother - Married to a woman he doesn't deserve. Soends his days at the bookies and his nights at the pub. Hasn't worked in two years.

Sister - Also married and while they look like the perfect family I know she has had multiple affairs. One was with a friend of mine who used to take great delight in telling me in great detail what they got up to.

Younger Brother - Actually doing OK and working at a fast food place while doing their management course. He's been seeing a lass for a few years now who I actually used to date.

OK - Now my problem:

As I said I used to date my younger brothers girlfriend. A few weeks ago I popped round to my older Brothers place and he was at the pub. I stopped to have a chat to his wife and one thing led to another.

I haven't seen or spoken to her since but there's something I can't get out of my head now. I have an irrational urge to hit on my Sisters husband to "complete the set". I know what I did with my Brothers wife was wrong and I feel guilty every day but I can't stop this obsessive thought about having slept with all three of my siblings partners. I've never had an urge to be with another man before. He's not even very attractive. He has a pot belly and doesn't really take care of himself.

Do I need to see someone? It's really killing me and affecting my performance at work.

tbh

dude, seriously?

Wibbs

^^ normally I would be first in line to say stay on topic, but I'm kinda in the same boat as tbh.

LegacyUser

Firstly that's why I posted it here instead of talking to someone about it.

Under no circumstances could I possibly come out to any of my friends and clearly not my family as they'd know what I'd done.

Quite honestly I'm at my wits end and don't know where to turn.

Until I get him into the sack I don't know how I'll find inner peace.

It's driving me mad.

To be honest I think I might just have to try and do it and move on.

tbh

and what happens if your b-i-l rejects you and tells everyone what you did?

Cop onto yourself, you need to grow up.

star-pants

Ok lets leave your parents aside for a moment.

You feel you've been with your younger brothers gf because you dated her before, though you weren't with her when they were/are together
You've slept (?) with you older brothers wife
And you want to sleep with your sisters husband?

Basically, it sounds like you slept with your brother's wife and you're trying to validate it. You haven't been with your younger brothers gf whilst they were together so really it doesn't count. And you feel you want to sleep with your sisters husband to 'complete a set'?
There is no set.

As tbh said - why would you want to? and what would you do if it didn't work out 'as planned'?

What you did with your older brothers wife is wrong, and she's in the wrong too.
You seem to not think much of your family and here you are doing the same low things that they do.

Not to be harsh but Grow Up (As tbh said) - what kind of game are you intending to play?

If you have issues, seek a counsellor and sort them that way. Not by destroying siblings lives. You have issue with your parents too and that needs to be addressed. You sound bitter on the whole and I do think a counsellor is needed to talk through all of these different issues, instead of you taking it upon yourself to 'sort things'.

Andy-Pandy

It sounds like the plot for a series of shameless. Are you gay or is this just a fantasy? Have you been with men before. Perhaps this is something that need addressing first. Sleeping with your sisters husband is likely to get you in some serious trouble.

Nevyn

If your family are so disfunctional then move away from them and keep polite contact.

Sqaull20

Reel em in

Sisters husband ffs

Stop

I cant take it

Wibbs

Sqaull20 if you have an issue with a post report it. Simple as.

Marcus.Aurelius

Sounds to me like you blame your "disfunctional" family for your actions. Their personalities etc., are irrelevant. The fact that you think your brother doesn't deserve his wife does not qualify your actions. Your sister's husband is off limits. You sound like a whingy selfish child, not an adult. Stop blaming your past, shape up!

Why do you want to wreck your brother's and sister's lives? What would you get out of it? That's what you need to ask! Are you trying to punish them? Or yourself??

Honestly, I'm confused

Nevyn

Please Help Me. I hope your brother in law does take you up on the offer and that he is so well endowed that when he buggers you with out lube you will need stitches afterwards.
That way you will have a stay in hospital and hopefully get the phyc constult you need and the fall out will have your family looking at themselves and hopefully getting help also.

Marksie

thaed: Behave.
I am locking this thread as its too much of a troll, someone has been watching too many episodes of shameless.