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My life, really isn't worth anythin..

  • 20-11-2007 1:16am
    #1
    LegacyUser
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 166,026 ✭✭✭✭


    So, i'm going to rant on here a bit.

    I'm NOT looking for medical advice or anything, just personal opinions on where I could be headed.

    I'm a member here, going un-reg for this one!

    I'm 19, male, in a very long term relationship and I love my girlfriend to bits!

    But thing is, I dunno what I want anymore.. As your sterotypical views on 19yr old guys would probably be: Thinks with his penis. And thing is, I don't! More like, I can't!

    Last weekend me and my girlfriend had the whole place to ourselves, and she wanted to have sex, but I didn't! I never want to! I'd much prefre to curl up with her under a duvet and just absord the time with her! She doesn't really like our sex life (Or so I feel), on a good month I would say we would have sex 4 or 5 times. I even find it hard getting and even keeping an erection! Thing is, when she's not around all I want to do is have sex with her, but when she's around, I just enter 'cuddle mode' or something! And I want to be able to give my girlfriend everything she wants, emotionally, physically and sexually!

    I come from a pretty bad childhood and a broken home, and I ended up being raises by 3 women and blood relatives, and because of that.. I have none of the 'boyish qualities', no interest in sport, I have a fear of NOT being comitted etc. I find myself having to lie about things to guys to make them stop calling me gay!

    The only thing I have interest in is music! I love writing all mt own songs and stuff.

    I know deep down that i'm not gay, but the constant jokes and put downs is making me think differently.. I feel like people are changing my mind!

    I do have to tell people I play rugby and all this other crap, I get approached al the time by my college rugby coach and asked to play and all this, but I have no interest and I have a fear of just being in a rough pit! I have no violent temperment or love for sport and I know I wouldn't last in rugby! (I in no-way mean it to come across as playing rugby makes me not gay)

    But I know I love my girlfriend to bits And I do wanna stay with her for as long as I can! I'd love a family with her and a hose and everything!

    So all in all, has anyone here had these ideas at any stage of their life?

    I know i'm only toung and have alot more to learn and all, but I just feel that me being here does more harm, than good!

    My apologies for the bad structure.

    Thank you for reading!

    LS


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