ever feel like you can't breath?

angelicsaz

had a bit of a breakdown on the 39 2day, Iris came on the radio and my chest up tightened up. i couldnt breath. the only way i can describe it is that i just hurt. i ended up crying like a loon and clutching at the chest like a mad woman. a man came over and took my hand and jus simply said 'just breath darling, your worlds not falling apart, its only a little cracked'
he jus sat there rubbing my hand.

i think i'll use bulletpoints here

1.just broke up with my boyfriend 2day. drugs were involved. him not me. and he made a fool of me, infront of all his friends last night, it was the first time i had met them. he left me crying in the middle of the pub.

2. awaiting results of sti tests.

3. stuck ina college course that i despise, to keep my parents happy.

4. my bro is in rehab

5. after 4months of being strong i have given in and bulimia has taken centre stage.

6. my parents marriage is falling apart (affairs alcoholism)

7. my sis had CF and hasnt been well for the past few weeks.

I just wanna GET AWAY for a few days........... i would jus love to up and leave for a while, run away really.... i cant stick it out anymore.
i lie awake and stare at the ceiling for hours. i go through the motions. i dont feel. im jus numb. i cant talk to any1 because on the outside im shiny happy. i have to be. i have a great apartment. a job i love. i have become a mother to my sister. i cant be weak. i cant fail. or fall apart.
*SIGH*
maybe the sun will come out 2mo. wishing on stars endlessly.

l3LoWnA

angelicsaz - wow, you certainly have problems don'tya. You poor thing. It's nice to hear there's decent humans left in the world though (the man on the bus I mean)

I've nothing much to say to you only offer you my ((((hugs)))).

I really think you need to talk to someone about it all and how you're feeling. You don't HAVE to be shiny happy. Have you got any good friends you could speak with?

You are better than that d1ckhead who embarrassed you last night! Remember that and stay clear of him. You've enough to worry about without putting that upon yourself!!!

Strokesfan

Wow. You definately have a lot going on at the moment but you did mention you have a great apartment and a job you love. I think you've gone back to the eating disorder to feel like you have some control over your situation.

I think you need some support, someone to talk these things through with - a good friend? a counsellor? I don't know what else to say really.

I did think it was so sweet of that man that comforted you when you were upset.

Forget the boyfriend - you don't need to deal with that kind of a**hole right now. Concentrate on the good things, I'm sure your tests will be fine. Don't do anything rash like quitting college etc - take time to think about things.

Dudess

Hi OP. Putting up with that much stress is not good, and something's got to give. Sounds like you had a panic attack. Please go to your doctor for counselling and maybe a course of anti-depressants if he/she deems it necessary.

Best wishes...

Latchy

Wanted to give you a hug myself on reading your post OP as i went through somthing like what you describe recently but am coming out of it ok.Fair play to that man who comforted you .Dont despair ,there is light at the end of the tunnel .Sounds like you had a panic attack ok ,somtimes it seem we have to much on our plate to deal with all at once .Just talking to sombody is the first and right step to take ,people do care


Best wishs and kind regards ..

angelicsaz

thanks guys really do appriciate it.
i ended up goin goin into my neighbour and just tellin her everything last night.... she works in the hse and is gonna help me find someone to talk to... its funny like after gettin everything off my chest i found that i wasnt thinkin a million different things that i was jus calm.
I have also taken my sister for the week so my parents can sort themsleves out.

i know i'll be fine, i just need to remember to breath!!!!!

thanks again guys means alot really doz

LadyJ

OP you had a panic attack. Used to happen to me an awful lot when I was going through a lot of crap. It's very very scary and it's like you think you might die for the moments you're having it but if you just breath slowly (or into a brown paper bag if possible) it'll ease off.

I still get them sometimes when I'm stressed and it's terrifying, especially when you're alone or in public with strangers but just remember that it will pass.

You should see a therapist and talk things through, it does help to lighten the load.