Strange fantasy/fetish?

LegacyUser

OK here goes, I have gone unreg for this as I would prefer it. I have a rather strange fantasy that involves me imagining I am a female who goes to a hair & beauty salon and is hypnotised into being a 'massage & masturbation maid' I have to wear various kinky items of clothing, a uniform, apron, gloves, hair cap etc and give 'special treatments'. I am made a lesbian and only enjoy 'experiences' with other females.

I am what I class a 'crossdresser' in the fact I like wearing female clothes, lingerie, uniforms etc. I am by no way convincing, and wouldn't pass in public. I don't want to be a female, I am straight, (to a degree you might say?!) I always dress in private and actually my g/f allows me to wear a negligée', nurse uniform, panties & overall (not all at the same time) occasionally when we make love.

I have had a couple of 'gay' experiences, but never given or received anal sex or given oral sex. I have only kissed a guy and masturbated. I have downloaded some erotic hypnosis MP3 files and listen to them sometimes when alone. My g/f doesn't know the extent to my fantasy, I think she would find it too bizarre. She does call me her slut when we are in bed, that helps with my fantasy.

I only think of her as the 'Mistress' who hypnotises me in my mind. I also have a large collection of what I call 'hypnotics' that I sometimes view as a slideshow when masturbating alone.

As I have said I don't want to be female, or really have full sex with a guy, I would just like to dress with a guy, play and maybe act out my fantasy. (hey I can dream!) I just get aroused by the feel of satin, nylon, pvc, rubber, and silk.

So come on everyone, am I gay/straight/bi or what? (I'll go with what!!!!) Does anyone else have a simular fantasy, or like the idea?

#Smokey#

i think the term is bi-curious most guys have a fantasy like that when they are in their teens and are all hormonal

Talliesin

Bi-curious men wonder about having gay sex with men, not lesbian sex with women.

Combination of a cross-dressing fetish (with a possible degree of a sissification aspect) and a submissive hypnotism fetish. Neither of which are particularly uncommon.

tSubh Dearg

Moved back to PI as he seems to have a genuine issue with this. Not suitable for S&S

davyjose

Each to their own, man. Why try label yourself. If you think you can control this without getting to a harmful stage (whatever that might be - emotionally hurting your girlfriend, acting out on something and later regretting it, etc) then just go with the flow.

biko

You seem to be similar to Eddie Izzard
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eddie_Izzard

Izzard describes himself as an "executive" or "action" transvestite, as "a male tomboy" or "male lesbian" rather than a "weirdo" transvestite.

Varkov

Who can tell you what you are? Dont think anyone here is qualified to.

Just dont let it hurt your girlfriend.

Talliesin

biko wrote:

Izzard describes himself as an "executive" or "action" transvestite, as "a male tomboy" or "male lesbian"

OP sounds more into being "girly" than Izzard is"

biko wrote:

rather than a "weirdo" transvestite.

Izzard's examples of "weirdo transvestites" where J Edgar Hoover and somebody who was living in a cave and shooting seagulls.

Just because the OP isn't like Izzard doesn't make him a weirdo.

LegacyUser

I indeed are in the same boat as you and enjoy dressing in some womens clothing but only in private. I too would like to meet with a similar guy to simply experience the same but don't see it as a problem or an issue particularly when you see something like gaire.com or tvchix.com, theres tons of guys same as you and me. Now some go all out for public, some are simply closet dressers, some don't meet with men, some do etc. You get the drift.
Only thing I would say is meeting someone is cheating to be honest, if your single then you only live once and you must try it, no harm in that once your safe but be careful if your into your girlfriend.

DJ_Spider

can SameBoat send me a PM, have something to ask. TIA

LegacyUser

'I'm not gay and i'm not qualified to tell you either way.
But i am pretty sure if you find that you do fancy men, and you mentioned your girlfriend well..... its probably safe to assume you are bi. Then again who am i to say either. Only you can answer this one.
On the subject of wearing womens clothes i'm right up there with you. Have been wearing since i was 13 ish, am 42 now and no sign of stopping. I love skirts and thank god they are all the rage now (special message to all women, enjoy the ooglying while your still gorgeous) I will have to admit Marilyn Monroe started it all for me when she lost control of her dress and blew me away. I love nylon nightdresses from the 60's and will wear them at every opportunity. My fetish is wearing a slip and skirt on a dark windy night with a vigorous right hand! I dont dress up to be in public but i do dress up and go to public places to carry out my fetish and no i have not been caught, YET! I would love it if a woman would do a Marilyn impression for me, Regularly Very regularly.
Anyone else out there, i know i'm not alone.'

Miss Fluff

Hey there OP, I wouldn't get bogged down the labels, why do you feel it necessary? It's a fetish. Enjoy it for what it is.

guest

I'm finding myself fantasising about being a lesbian. Not just in the "wouldn't that be cool" childish way. The thought of wearing a skirt and high heels and being naughty with a woman turns me on because it appeals to my more feminine side. I hate labels becuase they only really exist to make people feel safe in the knowledge that they're X or Y or Z. Enjoy your sexuality in whatever form it takes. Focus on the fun and the feelings and forget any worries, it's all about enjoying yourself and getting pleasure from life.

aidan24326

You don't have to think of yourself as 'weird'. Your fantasy/fetish probably isn't as uncommon as you would think and certainly isn't weird compared with what some people get up to!

Many people have sexual fantasies and fetishes of one type or another but not everyone is honest enough or open-minded enough to embrace them, so good for you. Don't assume that your girlfriend needs to be sheltered from this, if she's not entirely comfortable with it then fair enough but it sounds like she's pretty open minded and in my experience most girls would rather you were acting out your fantasies with them, within reason of course. I wouldn't say you're necessarily bisexual, just a bit experimental maybe. No harm in that either but be sensitive to how your girlfriend feels and don't do anything to hurt her.