I cant find the will to keep going

LegacyUser

I cant post any details of my situation because I am terrified of my identity being revealed. I am so desperately trapped, I believe if things continue like this I will end it all. I need help, but counselling didn't help..the counsellor thought my entire life story was fabricated, and laughed through it. I am really really stuck. Mentally and physically no energy to bother with life.

Victor

Look, go to you GP on Monday and explain how you feel. At sometime or another, everyone feels down.

itsallablank wrote:

and laughed through it

I find this difficult to believe.

Miss Fluff

Have you someone you can talk to OP?

Dudess

OP, I can detect from your post that you're really panicky, so you should definitely visit your doctor as you might have an anxiety disorder.
However, do you have any other details to give us? Like anything that happened that might have caused you to feel like this? Or just more about your circumstances. I realise when you're feeling like this it's very hard to focus, but maybe you could just write a list and post it up?

What is your story that you claim the counsellor believed to be fabricated?

LegacyUser

I have been to GP. Have also been on Anti Depressents. If I post details of my situation it may get worse as someone knows I use Boards, and he might guess etc. I swear this is the truth, I paid money for counsellor, it was hard to open up and start talking, and I did, and she thought my life story was a bit unbelievable..

TBH she might have thought I was afantasist or a panicky 20 something.

This is first time i have posted here about this, htough this has been going on for last six months. I am running out of options, and no I dont have anyone to talk to.Nobody.

Dave!

Victor wrote:

Look, go to you GP on Monday and explain how you feel. At sometime or another, everyone feels down.

I find this difficult to believe.

Way to dismiss the OP...

itsallablank, you should try and find another therapist if you don't think that your current one is any good. Alternatively confide in a close friend.

Dudess

OP, go to another doctor. You HAVE to get it checked out. Also, maybe the anti-depressants you took were not the right ones for you.
There is a mild anti-depressant called Cipramil. Obviously I can't say whether it would help you, but it is recognised as being very effective for anxiety disorders - which can also result in the symptoms of depression (no interest in getting out of bed, no enthusiasm about anything etc).

Steez

There's always someone to talk to op, what about the Samaritans? From first hand experience, every single one of them is a star.
1850 60 90 90
Or if you're not in the mood to talk, you can email jo@samaritans.org

Thinks may seem utter crap now, but there's always people to listen and help you however they/we/whoever can

Dudess

Have a read of this thread too. The OP is a girl who had a miscarriage but the feelings she was experiencing afterwards are similar to what you're going through: http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2055096875&page=3

LegacyUser

called the samaritans a while back....

I dont have an anxiety disorder,wihtout sounding likea crazy person, I am stuck in a really really bad situation.. I cant reg under a different username so i cant even PM people to give details..

My regular username is known on boards..I am also a little bit in the public eye due to nature of my job.

I dont have close friends...I can't explain much. Im sorry for posting here, am not making sense I guess.

star-pants

itsallablank wrote:

called the samaritans a while back....

I dont have an anxiety disorder,wihtout sounding likea crazy person, I am stuck in a really really bad situation.. I cant reg under a different username so i cant even PM people to give details..

My regular username is known on boards..I am also a little bit in the public eye due to nature of my job.

I dont have close friends...I can't explain much. Im sorry for posting here, am not making sense I guess.

just a thought, if you feel like talking to someone here would help more than a counsellor, you could pm someone you thought might keep it private.. I for one am new enough here so wouldn't recognise people by reg name.
Don't be sorry for posting -- I'm sure it's frustrating to want help but not be able to explain yourself in the way that you want.
Have the samaritans really been of no help? even to bounce ideas off? or release tension of the situation? They do deal with these types of things on a daily basis & would probably be in a better position to advice you on how to cope.
(btw you can pm me if you feel like getting anything off your chest, I would never have reason to pass on any info to anyone else)

Most people have made good suggestions already regarding councellors/therapists/doctors.. perhaps you could try a new one? or ask ppl on boards to recommend one?

Dudess

itsallablank wrote:

I dont have an anxiety disorder

Well this comment in your first post leads me to believe that whatever your situation is, is CAUSING you to be depressed anyway:

Mentally and physically no energy to bother with life.

Is there a particular type of person who could help you with your problem, whatever it is?

For example, if a person was in severe debt, they could speak to someone at the Money and Advice Budgeting Service. So is there a similar type of "expert" who specialises in helping people with your problem specifically?

LegacyUser

Well,

few people could helpme i guess

Marriage counsellor
GP
Friend(?)
Money advise person
Shrink

I go through periods of great productivity (have always been a very hardworking person) but at night the reality of my awful situation and life hits me. I have never wanted to be dead sobad in my life..i just want peace.

Miss Fluff

itsallablank wrote:

I have been to GP. Have also been on Anti Depressents. If I post details of my situation it may get worse as someone knows I use Boards, and he might guess etc. I swear this is the truth, I paid money for counsellor, it was hard to open up and start talking, and I did, and she thought my life story was a bit unbelievable..

TBH she might have thought I was afantasist or a panicky 20 something.

This is first time i have posted here about this, htough this has been going on for last six months. I am running out of options, and no I dont have anyone to talk to.Nobody.

I detect terrible hopelessness from your post OP and this really doesn't have to be the case. Six months is too long to live in self torment and feel so unhappy. You had a bad experience with a counsellor. You went to a GP, the Anti D's didn't work for you. This is not to say all counsellors are rubbish or all GPs don't prescribe unsuitable antidepressants. Anyone I know who has taken antidpressents sometimes have to try a couple of brands to find the one that suits them best. That's not even to say you need them, I'm not medically qualified.

By the same token, this situation is within your control and with the right help you can get through this. You have been procative enough to post here, albeit an evasive post and one that I'm not going to begin to speculate on, but the decision is within your hands only as to whether you want to help yourself out of this and I think you owe yourself that OP.

If you want to elaborate on your problem people may be in a better position to help you. You can change details slightly or be a bit creative or leave out some parts that you feel may identify you. I really don't think your friend on boards will suss you out. Alternatively feel free to PM me or anyone else until you make that appointment on Monday.

Life is too short for you to feel like this so let us help you OP.

LegacyUser

whats the point.things r really so bad now.

McGinty

Hi Op

I know of an excellent, kind, caring and compassionate therapist in Co. Wicklow, if it is not too far away, if you wish to pm under your name or regsiter the anom name I will gladly send the number to you, and I promise 1) to delete your post asap 2) not reveal who you are. I was feeling like you last summer and she squeezed me in even though she was very busy, and since then my sanity has been saved. Therapy can be a slow process but it does work with the right person.

How Strange

OP, there is always hope and there is always someone to listen. Even in the blackest moments please remember that. Ring the samaritans and talk to them and PM some of the posters who have offered numbers for counsellors.

Life is precious and nothing is worth taking that life away for. Thats not mean to be condescending. If you just take a small step now and reach out to someone you could start to turn the corner and see that things will begin to get better slowly but surely.

pretty-in-pink

OP I dont know many people on boards, so if you want to pm me then il delete it, not tell anyone, and not know who you are.

I would hate to think that a friend of mine could feel like they couldn't talk to me, so your friends will surely understand you and hold you.

it sounds like your chronically depressed. and you need to talk to someone.

hope you can do this,
xx

LegacyUser

'you soon very fimaliur to my boyfriend and he locks him self away in his head and he is so muddled up and in his box that he just can't think clearly or see past his nose.

but you need to clam down and know there are people there who care for you and want you to be happy but it's time to face up your demans def go back to a counsellor and be honest with yourself and the counsellor.



Everything will work out.'