~textual relationship~

shiv

i once sat on the floor of a bathroom in barcelona
and wept at the way technology could aid and abet
betrayal

sly anonymity concealed beneath a tiny envelope
one click of a button
and all the world can see

your struggle for ego preservation
your deep-rooted insecurity

when i thought it was just me
who was precious enough to be privy
to your short declarations of desire

bursts of lust
suspension of trust
one beep away from obliterating love

(you simply forgot to delete your sent items)

so now i try to stop myself from rummaging through
your electonic pockets
or dusting the telephonic fingerprints
you've left behind

this little blank screen
across my heart
blinking vacantly

and even now you can't see
the enormity of a hurt
written off by a technicality

this cracked-open cavity
crammed with vulnerability
i have to try and type my way out of

BEAT

I like it

shiv

thank you beat! i appreciate it!

niall mc cann

that's really, really great, shiv.

heartbreaking, though.

shiv

hey niall, thanks for the feedback, it's great to get (especially when it's positive

the subject matter is still pretty raw with me, but i find writing (and getting it out) helps ease the hurt a bit..cheap therapy anyway!

Shad0r

Very enjoyable
Keep up the good work.

shiv

Thanks Shad0r..

nobodythere

That's really really good. I love the way you sort of detach emotion from it in some parts (e.g "you simply forgot to delete your sent items"). Really really like it.

shiv

Hi grasshoppa,

Thanks a mil for your comments..I hadn't really noticed how detached it sounded when writing it, but it makes sense. The whole experience had a numbing effect on me, so that must have come through in me trying to deal with it while writing..

SprostonGreen

Thats very good Shiv. Poignant.

nobodythere

Yeah sometimes the most poignant things can be the things most detached from emotion.

MojoMaker

The same thing happened to me once. I found something awful in a partner's sent messages that rent my world in two over one sweep of the second hand on the wall.

Nicely described here and good job on the contemporary placement.