I monster

MarcusGarvey

I realised as I was stoned to bits in Thailand that I have a monster living in me. I know many people say **** like that to be contoversial but I actually do. And I realised that its only when I have the relaxing drugs that it is able to get out. I found that smoking or ingesting weed and hash actually gave me more violent tendencies than many other narcotics. I tried my mums valium too and it was the same. Back then I just blamed the pains I had from the accident reacting badly to the valium. I guess I was wrong.

It seems that the wall holding him in gets chipped away with stoner drugs and not the E or cocaine or speed which I would have thought would have done it.

I then realised that theres me and my bad temper which is fueled by good ole cocaine or speed or drink or just a *****mood. This bad temper is bad and can be violent and full of rage but that's 'normal Marcus's bad temper' which is pretty strong as tempers go. But in contact its still just a normal veyr bad temper, if you know what I mean.

Then theres just my monster inside. But he is not some troll-like or hairy handed guy whith evil red eyes and all that crap. He is just me without a soul or guilt and with a horrible sense of curiosity.

He asks me loads of questions when he is almost awake and I am almost asleep. I don't like what he asks generally. He wonders about what it is like to drown someone and see their facial expressions and the way their body flaps about.

He is very scientific and I accidently found myself dicussing the best position for a video camera if you were drowning someone, this was when I was stoned. He likes to catalog everything too. "Its not art but its science" he says.

It frightens me that he is in there and wants to learn but he just wants to learn what we'd say is evil. He explained it to me before and it all made sense at the time but I was tripping and so can't remember his arguments, but I couldn't counter them.

I'm troubled that he will eventually escape when I expand my mind sometime. Thing is if it expands too much I won't be able to fit it all back into my head. And where does that leave me or you.....

DapperGent

Finally something besides ********poerty.

That held my attention Marcus. Nice bit of work.

MarcusGarvey

Thanks DapperGent. Needs lots of work and polishing but the main idea remains no matter how shoddy my prose.

Mercury_Tilt

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joseph brand

maybe you should swim with dolphins???

Frankie says RELAX.:D

Pretty good, reminds me of cannibals who wonder what people 'taste like'.

I wonder... . . . .

Emboss

*puts out his joint*

I've had enough......