Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

banquo · 24-04-2012 6:33pm

Today was the best day in weeks.

cloud493 · 24-04-2012 9:14pm

Not doing well at the moment at all.

banquo · 24-04-2012 11:15pm

cloud493 wrote: »

Not doing well at the moment at all.

How you feeling?

cloud493 · 24-04-2012 11:20pm

Rather sad unfortunately. Yourself?

jammstarr · 25-04-2012 2:03am

Is it possible to totally reinvent yourself?

banquo · 25-04-2012 2:13am

cloud493 wrote: »

Rather sad unfortunately. Yourself?

Was good, but various decisions to make are driving me up the wall. They don't affect me really, but the consequences for other people are potentially dire.

Anything in particular pulling you down?

RubyXI · 25-04-2012 11:31am

Kaching wrote: »

Once again Im reminded I am a sad an pathetic individual who will die alone anyway. So why not now?

Same.

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 12:55pm

Kaching wrote: »

Once again Im reminded I am a sad an pathetic individual who will die alone anyway. So why not now?

You're not at all. Your a lovely person who deserves to be happy.

And nothing personally to be down about. Just feeling absolutely hopeless.

Snoopy1 · 25-04-2012 1:00pm

I'm going back to counsilling tomorrow. Thought I could do without it, but obviously not

Gremlinertia · 25-04-2012 2:14pm

Finally after much pushing with the hospital i've been given another appointment. In June. Test is to last that long, i don't want to land up to casualty again. I ponder trying private, but i've no idea where to begin.

Gillo · 25-04-2012 2:34pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Finally after much pushing with the hospital i've been given another appointment. In June. Test is to last that long, i don't want to land up to casualty again. I ponder trying private, but i've no idea where to begin.

If you have health insurance, get your GP to refer you to the Dean clinic in St. Pats, no idea though what the waiting list is. I was referred on to it after spending time as an in patient and have to say its brilliant. My only gripe is the wait time when you have an appointment, just because you are pencilled in for 2:00 pm doesn't mean you be seen at that time (bring a good book with you), in fairness my consultant is a work horse from what I've seen she literally lives in there.

Either way don't look on at as a two month wait, you got an appointment in two months, is there anything you could do in the meantime? Maybe try the aware meetings?

veyron · 25-04-2012 2:42pm

Hey can anyone help me with this i was diagnoised with a depressive disorder last xmas and as a result lost my buisness and nearly my wife still feeling very low and finding it hard to cope and still not really talking about it, but my question is i have an income protection policy and have furnished all the details and doctor reports been to the insurance companys doctor and she has told me i shouldnt be working and she will reflect this in her report and still waiting on a descision whether they will pay out or not. i suppose my question is wil they and has anyone any experience of thsi sorry for going off topic

Gremlinertia · 25-04-2012 3:06pm

Gillo wrote: »

If you have health insurance, get your GP to refer you to the Dean clinic in St. Pats, no idea though what the waiting list is. I was referred on to it after spending time as an in patient and have to say its brilliant. My only gripe is the wait time when you have an appointment, just because you are pencilled in for 2:00 pm doesn't mean you be seen at that time (bring a good book with you), in fairness my consultant is a work horse from what I've seen she literally lives in there.

Either way don't look on at as a two month wait, you got an appointment in two months, is there anything you could do in the meantime? Maybe try the aware meetings?

Thanks for input, i'm going to try stay local to galway though, also, no insurance nor any hope of any due to ongoing and worsening physical problem. I'm not even sure what i want/need that's what i'm hoping will be cleared up at appointment - just finding it all far too confusing...

Kaching · 25-04-2012 4:51pm

cloud493 wrote: »

You're not at all. Your a lovely person who deserves to be happy.

there may be a higher power who doesnt agree with you

stupidusername · 25-04-2012 5:29pm

FINALLY I got a phone call about talk therapy with the HSE. I'm kinda in shock. It's been just over a year.
Though oddly the woman said that she only got a letter about it last month. But yeah i've an appointment next tuesday

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 5:32pm

Kaching wrote: »

there may be a higher power who doesnt agree with you

What kind of higher power?

Gillo · 25-04-2012 5:43pm

Kaching wrote: »

cloud493 wrote: »

You're not at all. Your a lovely person who deserves to be happy.

there may be a higher power who doesnt agree with you

You ever heard that story "Footprints" about the guy who has a dream. I don't want to get talking about higher powers though, I have my own set of beliefs; raised a catholic but took a pick'n'mix of beliefs to figure what I believed. My mam is quiet religious and constantly tells me she's praying for me, it used to pi$$ me right off but eventually I realised it didn't harm me and was her way of saying she cared.

Hope everyone is doing good, I'm having a meh sort of week, but looking forward to the weekend after next, heading away climbing!!

Veyron, you may be better asking in the banking and insurance threads, you din't have to say why you are sick just that you are.

jammstarr · 25-04-2012 5:59pm

Regarding higher powers I wouldn't have a clue what to believe if anything.

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 8:55pm

What's up kaching?

Gremlinertia · 25-04-2012 9:20pm

Hope you're not too down Kaching. Feelin it myself at the moment, the storm outside feels like a reflection of what's going on in my head, still, will look at it as a temporary manifestation, but it will mean a long night.

girlonfire · 25-04-2012 11:01pm

Feeling so up and down of late..Down at the moment. Really crashed this evening. I might be looking at my life from the wrong perspective, but my friends seem to be dwindling away by the new-time:(
I've been a real giver in most of my friendships and it cuts deeply when people don't want to extend a hand at all.
I do have a wonderfully supportive friend and I know it's important to keep focused on the positives. It's been a bad few days and it's not getting any better. I know it will with time.
Hope everyone else is doing okay,x

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 11:03pm

Has to get better with time doesn't it?

girlonfire · 25-04-2012 11:13pm

Yes, it does.
I'm feeling so negative and angry about the whole thing at the moment. I just want to sleep and hopefully my attitude will be better tomorrow and I can be a bit more proactive

How are you feeling Cloud?

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 11:15pm

Has something gone on to make you feel like that? More so I mean.

And terrible. But there we are

thrilledskinny · 25-04-2012 11:17pm

Hi everyone, check out aware.ie for 6wkd free life skill classes being run all over the country. CBT sessions ;-)
I know some of u were disappointed wit CBT counsellors offered, these courses sound v good. See the web site for break down of CBT and how course challenges you.
Hope Ye get a place, as its free, and we deserve a break ;-)

girlonfire · 25-04-2012 11:23pm

cloud493 wrote: »

Has something gone on to make you feel like that? More so I mean.

And terrible. But there we are

Nothing in particular. I'm becoming so tired of the constant ups and downs. Constantly trying to make myself appear on top of things is draining. I've tried to talk to some friends about how I've been feeling but it's been brushed under the carpet. It feels very hurtful, knowing that I've been there for them through thick and thin because I love them. I didn't know they'd react this way. I'm still me, y'know.
Anyway, sorry for the rant. Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Have you tried reading something light/uplifting? Sometimes that helps me. I feel silly suggesting something like that given how you're feeling, but it doesn't matter what it is so long as it helps.

cloud493 · 25-04-2012 11:28pm

girlonfire wrote: »

Nothing in particular. I'm becoming so tired of the constant ups and downs. Constantly trying to make myself appear on top of things is draining. I've tried to talk to some friends about how I've been feeling but it's been brushed under the carpet. It feels very hurtful, knowing that I've been there for them through thick and thin because I love them. I didn't know they'd react this way. I'm still me, y'know.
Anyway, sorry for the rant. Sorry to hear you're not feeling well. Have you tried reading something light/uplifting? Sometimes that helps me. I feel silly suggesting something like that given how you're feeling, but it doesn't matter what it is so long as it helps.

Aye I know what you mean about fair weather mates. You really do find out who cares and who doesn't in bad times

Just keeping going, night is darkest before the dawn and all that.

I am trying. Doesn't appear to be working, but maybe tomorrow will be better

Gillo · 25-04-2012 11:43pm

That's a great way of putting it cloud- fair weather friends. I don't really have anyway I can talk to, one friend who's there if I need him although his solution of we'll get hammered and forget about it isn't ideal.

On the up side, there's an organisation I'm involved in outside of work, I'd a meeting with them tonight, at the end one of the lads took me aside to suggest putting me forward for promotion. That's not really the right word to use but it saves me typing a really long post.

Gremlinertia · 26-04-2012 12:11am

Night time is hard, alone with my thoughts, odd how time of day effects. How is everyone keeping?

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 12:13am

thrilledskinny wrote: »

Hi everyone, check out aware.ie for 6wkd free life skill classes being run all over the country. CBT sessions ;-)
I know some of u were disappointed wit CBT counsellors offered, these courses sound v good. See the web site for break down of CBT and how course challenges you.
Hope Ye get a place, as its free, and we deserve a break ;-)

I haven't gone to an aware meeting in a month or two, might seem a bit cheap to just turn out again out of the blue for these.

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 12:13am

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Night time is hard, alone with my thoughts, odd how time of day effects. How is everyone keeping?

What kind of thoughts Gremlinertia?

Gremlinertia · 26-04-2012 12:19am

Uselessness, self loathing, failure and lonely - you know, all the cheerful stuff. It's the way that it descends as suddenly as it does that gets to me most, no way to prepare for it so end up a bit paralysed with it.

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 12:27am

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Uselessness, self loathing, failure and lonely - you know, all the cheerful stuff. It's the way that it descends as suddenly as it does that gets to me most, no way to prepare for it so end up a bit paralysed with it.

I seem to get the same however at the weekend mostly.

angeldelight · 26-04-2012 12:28am

jammstarr wrote: »

I haven't gone to an aware meeting in a month or two, might seem a bit cheap to just turn out again out of the blue for these.

If you think they might be of any help to you then you should go. Aware are not the type of organisation to turn anybody in need away, or indeed judge you

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 12:39am

angeldelight wrote: »

If you think they might be of any help to you then you should go. Aware are not the type of organisation to turn anybody in need away, or indeed judge you

I tried CBT years ago but it didn't do much for me. Maybe I wasn't in the right state of mind for it. Might pop along.

thrilledskinny · 26-04-2012 12:43am

jammstarr wrote: »

I haven't gone to an aware meeting in a month or two, might seem a bit cheap to just turn out again out of the blue for these.

Hi jammstar, the add was in local paper, its open to everyone and anyone. No requirement to be an aware attendee or anything. The application form is v simple and doesn't ask have u ever attended or supported aware.
Simply if u suffer wit depression anxiety etc ur welcome to apply.

Like previous poster just said, aware tries to help everyone.
You should apply jammstarr, at least check it out and see ...

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 12:46am

Just to clarify I don't think Aware would judge me, it was just a bit of self deprecation

thrilledskinny · 26-04-2012 12:49am

jammstarr wrote: »

I tried CBT years ago but it didn't do much for me. Maybe I wasn't in the right state of mind for it. Might pop along.

I tried it before too, and found it very helpful. It's mad how we slot into certain ways of thinking and behaving that aren't good for us.
I'v forgotten a lot of what I learnt though and would love to refresh what I learnt.
It might help me pull my self out of th mess my life is in..

Gremlinertia · 26-04-2012 12:53am

I'd love to try that Aware thing, but no way i'd be able for a group thing yet. Nearly bottled it just going for appointment last month. I do hope that those of you that go get good results with it.

thrilledskinny · 26-04-2012 1:09am

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I'd love to try that Aware thing, but no way i'd be able for a group thing yet. Nearly bottled it just going for appointment last month. I do hope that those of you that go get good results with it.

Yep, I know what you mean. I did hesitate in applying. But I feel I do need to do something to get my life back on track. I hate the thought of who else would be in the group, someone you know etc. But was thinking sure if they are in it, they are there for a reason too! Know what you mean re nearly bottling it before appointments, I dread them, I hate having to try to explain myself, my thoughts and how I feel ??
Sure see how u go, one step at a time eh, and sure I'm sure if this is a success for aware they'll continue them in the future.
Can't sleep..won't sleep ...again ;-) ah well...

Gremlinertia · 26-04-2012 2:30am

There's no way i could deal with a group scenario the way i am currently - as it is i've driven a number of friends away and damaged other relationships. The idea of a room full of strangers terrifies me, however i hope by the time this year is out i'll still be here and have it reconsidered. Hope you do actually get some sleep. :rolleyes:

Gillo · 26-04-2012 7:29am

The aware thing sounds brilliant, I can't recommend their normal meetings enough. I love the way they are anonymous and even just accepts you for who you are (not unlike this thread).

Snoopy1 · 26-04-2012 1:44pm

I'm really down today. Was going to cancel my counselling , but then I realised I'd have spoken to no body all day if I didn't go to counsilling

neemish · 26-04-2012 3:29pm

veyron wrote: »

Hey can anyone help me with this i was diagnoised with a depressive disorder last xmas and as a result lost my buisness and nearly my wife still feeling very low and finding it hard to cope and still not really talking about it, but my question is i have an income protection policy and have furnished all the details and doctor reports been to the insurance companys doctor and she has told me i shouldnt be working and she will reflect this in her report and still waiting on a descision whether they will pay out or not. i suppose my question is wil they and has anyone any experience of thsi sorry for going off topic

Hey veyron,
was out of work for 7 months in 2010. I was luck in that work paid me for six of those seven months. They had an income protection insurance plan, which unfortunately never paid out. There was some small clause in the plan which gave them an out. Apparently this isn't uncommon. I don't want to cause you more distress, but its better to know upfront

neemish · 26-04-2012 3:31pm

mranxious wrote: »

I went to a local doctor last year about something and while he was checking me out he asked if I work at a stressful job and I said I did and I sometimes get quite anxious. He prescribed me Xanax for my anxiety but only gave me a 2 week supply. This is the first and only time I've ever been prescribed anything like that.

A few days later I was feeling a bit anxious so I took one and stupidly enough, I started to feel more anxious after taking it as I didn't know how I would react Thankfully though everything was fine and I noticed after about 30 minutes I started to feel calmer.

I wasn't taking them super regularly, but maybe one every few days. However it is almost a year ago since I was prescribed them and I've managed to stretch the 2 week supply out to last almost a year. I have 2 left that I'm holding onto in-case I get really panicky about something.

The thing is, I sort of want to go back to the doctor and get another prescription for them but I feel a bit stupid and embarrassed. I feel like if I go back and ask for another prescription, he will say "Well you made a 2 week supply last almost a year I don't think you need them, off you go".

I know my regular GP isn't a big fan of prescribing them (I'm living away from home at the moment) and when I told them another GP prescribed them he told me to basically put them in a drawer and only take them if I really needed them.

So I'm not sure what I should do. I kind of want a new prescription for them and have a larger prescription (in quantity, not a stronger dosage) so I don't need to keep holding off. There's been times I've been feeling panicky and could have done with taking one but didn't as I kept thinking at some point I might feel worse about something and really need them then.

What should I do?

Talk to your GP and tell him exactly what you told us!

neemish · 26-04-2012 3:32pm

Third week back at work and starting to struggle. Not hugely, but the littlest things seem to set me off. And I'm stressed by things I would have taken for granted before

jammstarr · 26-04-2012 5:22pm

I'm feeling strangely optimistic today.

thrilledskinny · 26-04-2012 10:52pm

neemish wrote: »

Hey veyron,
was out of work for 7 months in 2010. I was luck in that work paid me for six of those seven months. They had an income protection insurance plan, which unfortunately never paid out. There was some small clause in the plan which gave them an out. Apparently this isn't uncommon. I don't want to cause you more distress, but its better to know upfront

Hi Vernon, I didn't bother getting an IPP, because I thought once I'v declared I have depression they will charge me more, n then won't pay out. I worry they only pay out on an illness u didn't know u had at the time or get after the fact but check it out yourself. Every policy is individual.

Am on sick leave currently, and have well worn out my paid 6months leave unfortunately. So am v v grateful for illness benefit, Socail welfare ;-)

Best of luck with your situation. Am glad to hear your wife stuck by u in the long term, like any illness, its v hard on partners..

nesf · 26-04-2012 11:28pm

Was doing good for 2-3 weeks but the last two days have been a return of the crap.

cloud493 · 27-04-2012 9:46am

I started a blog on tumblr. Lot of triggering posts, but just somewhere to vent.

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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