What made you smile/frown/mad/sad/cry today-thread for all your emotional needs! V4

Haha, wow, can almost feel the anger seething through your post! I worked in a bar many many years ago and could never quite understand how some people were so stupid but still managed to get out and about. At least in a bar you could nip out the back and have a stiff drink if things got really bad - I can't imagine you can do that in a call centre

I've been horrifically sick today. I stuck out college (thank CHRIST I didn't have too many classes!) and came home, lying in bed now and kinda drugged up but I feel a good bit better so I might have a nap soon.

I'm in such a weird mood. I want to cry, I wish I knew I would be left entirely alone for maybe twenty minutes or half an hour just so I could cry and then I know I'd feel better. I have this odd tightness in my chest and it's like a tension that I want to relieve. Things are so weird at the moment, everything is so up-in-the-air and elusive or something. Last night we all stayed in my friend's house and had a sleepover, watched movies, ate junk and chatted and I felt so utterly disconnected from everything. They're not going on erasmus so they had to chose their subjects for next year (in first and second year there is no choice at all and in third and fourth year almost entire freedom of choice, so it's a novel concept!) and the past few days was filled with that kind of thing, it made me feel so left out. I know it's not at all intentional and they don't mean anything bad by it, but they're always making plans for things they'll do next year and I know I won't be there. It feels as though when I come back, they'll have moved on completely. I wish other people from the immediate friend group were going away, me being the only one is just weird. And I know the other girl going to Paris is a nice girl, perfectly pleasant, but she's not particularly friendly and it's becoming clearer that she isn't very interested in being friends with me really. I'm terrified next year will be horrifically lonely and that would be bad enough in and of itself but living in Paris is my dream and if it turns out to be a disappointment it'll be especially crushing.

And yesterday in the library I saw X really briefly (he didn't see me) and he looks like he's under a serious amount of pressure. We have a study break before exams so next week if I see him, even if one of us is only on the way in or whatever I'm going to ask him for lunch and chats. Normally I'd be like "oh I hope he's okay" and worry a bit but I can't shake the feeling that there's something more going on with him and he might need to talk. And at the same time I don't want to be annoying him or putting him in awkward/uncomfortable positions.

Oh! And on Monday night my team won the moot and I got really good feedback so I'm happy about that. It counts as coursework towards my worst subject so I'm a little less stressed about that now


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im on easter hols tomorrow and my grant still hasnt come through

what the fook!!!

You can't write erotica in an Irish accent.

Cleared out the spare bedroom today and found an vintage pair of Converse sneakers in my size lurking under the bed. Threw them in the wash to get the dust off. I might sell them if they don't fit though. Also found my old leather dog collar from back when I was a hardcore Goth.
My mom thought it was an odd choice of attire.

Had a busy but tiring day

Got a nice top in Penneys for €1, win

Had a nice dinner too, peppered pork chops and mashed spuds. Going to have some ice cream in wafers now