How has your life turned out?

Has your life turned out how you thought it would?

Not even slightly. I had it all worked out. I knew where I'd be at a certain time, how my career would progress and all the rest.

None of it happened. But I kept the illusion going for a long time. Looking back I realise now that it was never going to happen. I was fooling myself. I am simply not capable of achieving those ambitions.

Meanwhile other stuff happened. Even ten years ago, if you showed me where I'd be today. I would have laughed in your face. It's absolutely the least likely situation I ever expected to find myself. But here I am.

I don't do regrets anymore. So I'm not too bothered. But I wasted a lot of my life chasing an illusion. :rolleyes:

I think now that whether you plan it all or take it as it comes. Things pretty much work out the same. You are what you are.

Lately I've been saying to myself more and more.....

"Well, at least its not as bad as...........'insert civil war and poverty ravaged country name here' "

This is not a good way to measure your contentment

Excellent!.. Though terrible if compared to my peer group

Surprised everybody including myself by going to college at 41 years old, none of my friends/workmates believe me when I tell them what I,m studying or where I work part time.

Probably have some unfulfilled potential, had this conversation with a friend only on Friday, admitted I'm probably working in my Plan B career choice, kind of like my job, kind of bored with it, have some great friends, relationship-wise things could be better, healthwise should definitely drink less but get plenty of exercise, have done plenty of travelling and will do plenty more, the Microsoft Excel file on my computer called Personal Finances and the Bank Balance could be healthier - I certainly don't think I'd be in a position to support a family on my current earnings.

Saying all that I'm quite happy and proud of some of my experiences and achievements, I've also definitely had some difficult moments through the years, including one in particular where I was lucky to come out alive, so times like those make you appreciate the good times that bit more.

Anyway, I don't think my life has "turned out" just yet, as Fianna Fáil or was it Irish Rail or one of those excuse-peddlers said, I've a lot done but have more to do, but as my quote a day calendar said on Saturday 21st April, "You can't build a reputation on what you're going to do." So I better get cracking!

Wrong wrong - it's all wrong.
I keep having children - I never even wanted any!
All I ever wanted to do was travel the world - and do it properly, mixing with all sorts of cultures etc...
And I wanted to become a psychologist of some sort, maybe a neuro psychologist.
I've only managed to do bits of college due to kids, finances, and illness.
I keep going and doing well, then something messes it up or I get pregnant again!!!
And so far, I haven't managed to do any traveling whatsoever - and can't imagine a time in the forseeable suture where it will be possible.
I wanted fun and adventure, I wanted to learn, to see and experience everything that's out there, to live in different places and learn their ways, to find myself, to grow.
Instead I find myself stuck inside my role of mother and wife, yet at 27, I feel I have completely lost who I am.
I nolonger have any idea what fun is.
I nolonger feel pasionate about anything.
I am not one of those women who is content as a housewife, or even a 9-5 job.
I long for more, yet have little idea how to attain it.
Well there's my dear diary entry for today!

flutterflye wrote: »

Wrong wrong - it's all wrong.
I keep having children - I never even wanted any!
All I ever wanted to do was travel the world - and do it properly, mixing with all sorts of cultures etc...
And I wanted to become a psychologist of some sort, maybe a neuro psychologist.
I've only managed to do bits of college due to kids, finances, and illness.
I keep going and doing well, then something messes it up or I get pregnant again!!!
And so far, I haven't managed to do any traveling whatsoever - and can't imagine a time in the forseeable suture where it will be possible.
I wanted fun and adventure, I wanted to learn, to see and experience everything that's out there, to live in different places and learn their ways, to find myself, to grow.
Instead I find myself stuck inside my role of mother and wife, yet at 27, I feel I have completely lost who I am.
I nolonger have any idea what fun is.
I nolonger feel pasionate about anything.
I am not one of those women who is content as a housewife, or even a 9-5 job.
I long for more, yet have little idea how to attain it.
Well there's my dear diary entry for today!

You should make a child army like that carl weathers fellow earlier this year.

I'll tell you how it all turned out when it's over. I wouldn't want to spoil the ending.