Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Seren_ · 28-05-2012 12:27pm

Good luck with the appointment G-Money. Hopefully it goes well for you

I'm currently sitting in the hospital waiting room too. Was 3 hours late for my app but they've said I will still be seen. Had to literally pull myself out of bed this morning, no motivation at all >.<

cloud493 · 28-05-2012 5:41pm

I'm having the interesting sensation right now of feeling sick as a dog, like iIve been run over by a steamroller, a ****ing awful headache, and feeling so low all I can see is black.

thrilledskinny · 28-05-2012 10:48pm

cloud493 wrote: »

I'm having the interesting sensation right now of feeling sick as a dog, like iIve been run over by a steamroller, a ****ing awful headache, and feeling so low all I can see is black.

I hope your feeling better by now Xloud ? Wat was wrong of u care to tell ?

I've been feeling great again lately ( maybe too great, i always worry about that !!) The sunshone is also probably helping !
or maybe its because i'm justifiably off work and dont have the stress of that hanging over me, will only be able to tell if/when i go back to work !

thrilledskinny · 28-05-2012 10:52pm

stupidusername wrote: »

I really am. I've nothing to offer anybody. all I do is upset people. can't get a job, have no interests... all i'm doing is sponging off the state

Hi Stupiduser ! I have to agree with the other posters, we all know your not useless its just how your thinking...

I started those CBT classes being run by Aware nationwide and they are very good at explaining how we get into a pattern of thinking and negativity, and how we need to try our best not to listen to those voices and distract yourself somehow, think of and or do something you like doing....

Mind yourself ..

cloud493 · 28-05-2012 10:58pm

Well, I'm really ****ing ill. And I fell off the top of a climbing frame they have in a children's park last night after I climbed to the top, cos being in a playground at 3am climbing a dark frame by yourself is a ****ing stupid idea. And I just feel ****.

flyswatter · 29-05-2012 12:29am

Thread needs some of this

jammstarr · 29-05-2012 12:30am

flyswatter wrote: »

Thread needs some of this

Well played Sir.

stupidusername · 29-05-2012 1:16pm

thanks all. still quite down, but getting on with things for now. i guess i'll keep going to interviews and keep feeling stupid coming out of them. i'm trying to do some work in my free time, so i've a better chance, but with my tiredness it's hard. how many jobs do you have to keep doing when you're unemployed, just so you're able to get another job eh.

tbh, I am a useless lump. I have nothing to offer anybody. for some reason some friends seem to care about me, so I guess i'll keep on going.

guitarzero · 29-05-2012 1:32pm

stupidusername wrote: »

thanks all. still quite down, but getting on with things for now. i guess i'll keep going to interviews and keep feeling stupid coming out of them. i'm trying to do some work in my free time, so i've a better chance, but with my tiredness it's hard. how many jobs do you have to keep doing when you're unemployed, just so you're able to get another job eh.

tbh, I am a useless lump. I have nothing to offer anybody. for some reason some friends seem to care about me, so I guess i'll keep on going.

Bro, I've noticed the same thing. My concentration, focus and ability to do simple tasks is hugely effected. I'm hoping that once I get used to actually being functional and using my mind in a practical way I will catch on. I feel like a useless lump most the time too, completely alienated from people and totally out of touch.

neemish · 29-05-2012 4:22pm

flyswatter wrote: »

Thread needs some of this

I'm sitting here at my desk, half laughing half crying at the link while my boss wonders what the hell is going on. Thanks for the giggle:D

lukesmom · 29-05-2012 5:41pm

flyswatter wrote: »

Thread needs some of this

Cheered me up a bit!

neemish · 29-05-2012 5:50pm

cloud493 wrote: »

Well, I'm really ****ing ill. And I fell off the top of a climbing frame they have in a children's park last night after I climbed to the top, cos being in a playground at 3am climbing a dark frame by yourself is a ****ing stupid idea. And I just feel ****.

Cloud493, are you ok? Might be time to get in touch with your doc. Just an idea

cloud493 · 29-05-2012 6:48pm

I know I shouldn't have done that

but it was an impulsive thing you know. Stupid.

rob55 · 29-05-2012 11:45pm

hey does anybody get heart papaltations after drinking alcohol? drinking alot at the weekend and now for past two nights find it very hard to sleep and constanly anxious at a job which i hate always thinking all the time

better of to cut down or quit all together?

mysteries1984 · 29-05-2012 11:55pm

rob55 wrote: »

hey does anybody get heart papaltations after drinking alcohol? drinking alot at the weekend and now for past two nights find it very hard to sleep and constanly anxious at a job which i hate always thinking all the time

better of to cut down or quit all together?

I don't, no, but it might be worth getting checked out. As for cutting down or quitting altogether, I'd recommend quitting. Alcohol is a depressant. Easy enough for me to say, I don't drink often, but that's my two cents. And look for another job. Again easier said than done, but I managed it

rob55 · 30-05-2012 12:03am

mysteries1984 wrote: »

I don't, no, but it might be worth getting checked out. As for cutting down or quitting altogether, I'd recommend quitting. Alcohol is a depressant. Easy enough for me to say, I don't drink often, but that's my two cents. And look for another job. Again easier said than done, but I managed it

ya the drinking i can do give it a break for a while, job part no other jobs around! thanks for advice

flyswatter · 30-05-2012 12:15am

rob55 wrote: »

hey does anybody get heart papaltations after drinking alcohol? drinking alot at the weekend and now for past two nights find it very hard to sleep and constanly anxious at a job which i hate always thinking all the time

better of to cut down or quit all together?

Weed sets my heart racing/gets me hyperanxious. I don't smoke it, but if I'm close to it.

Never with drink though, I only drink on nights out really. Don't go out all that often. It keeps me awake if I'm drinking sugary stuff like red bull shots though!

cloud493 · 30-05-2012 12:38am

Somehow, I feel worse. **** you life. I don't know what I ****ing did to deserve all this, I really don't. But this is really ****ing cruel.

Sardonicat · 30-05-2012 12:48am

cloud493 wrote: »

Somehow, I feel worse. **** you life. I don't know what I ****ing did to deserve all this, I really don't. But this is really ****ing cruel.

Hey Cloud

Sorry to hear you are feeling so rough.

What's up? Has something happened to trigger this, do you think?

cloud493 · 30-05-2012 1:05am

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

girlonfire · 30-05-2012 1:25am

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

How so Joe · 30-05-2012 1:28am

girlonfire wrote: »

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

Same reason it's impossible to admit something is wrong. Denial.
Congratulations on addressing it, though, I bet you feel a million times better!

jammstarr · 30-05-2012 1:32am

girlonfire wrote: »

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

You did the best thing though. I'd never have the balls to call up someone on their behaviour

Feeling very down here presently. Had a nice social situation tonight which is very rare for me however since getting home my mood just crashed.

girlonfire · 30-05-2012 1:34am

True. I've been ignoring this issue for the past two years and it has cast such a shadow over my college experience. I really want to enjoy my final year as much as I possibly can. You're right though. I feel so much better knowing I don't have to deal with it on my own any longer. Cue huge sigh of relief. Thanks guys

Sorry to hear you're feeling down jammstarr. It's good that you got out and about though. Sometimes, I find when I'm not in the best space, socialising (while I think it's a really positive thing) can drain me of energy. It might be that you need to take some time to recharge? I do hope your mood lifts soon.

nesf · 30-05-2012 3:38am

Mood still somewhat high. Not sleeping that much. Better than the alternative though.

RubyXI · 30-05-2012 8:09am

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

Same. All my life I convinced myself it was just a phase I was going through, once school is over I'll be fine, once college is over I'll be fine. Once I get a job I'll be fine. Once I get a place on my own I'll be fine. Running out of excuses now.

nesf · 30-05-2012 8:43am

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

You're still really young. Remember that wisdom does often come with age. It was hardest for me in my teens and early 20s as well.

neemish · 30-05-2012 3:22pm

having a "blah" day if that makes sense

Seren_ · 30-05-2012 4:31pm

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

Aw Cloud

I'm sorry you're not feeling good. The fact you're still here fighting after all that happened is amazing, never forget that. Don't try to put a time limit on your feelings or when you think you should feel better. These things take time. Someday your head won't be full of all of this x

flyswatter · 30-05-2012 5:21pm

phi3 wrote: »

Same. All my life I convinced myself it was just a phase I was going through, once school is over I'll be fine, once college is over I'll be fine. Once I get a job I'll be fine. Once I get a place on my own I'll be fine. Running out of excuses now.

On the other hand you could definitely say these things are all positive life achievements and things you can certainly be proud of.

jammstarr · 30-05-2012 5:46pm

Mood has lifted a little bit thankfully

cloud493 · 30-05-2012 8:00pm

Your Text Here wrote: »

Aw Cloud I'm sorry you're not feeling good. The fact you're still here fighting after all that happened is amazing, never forget that. Don't try to put a time limit on your feelings or when you think you should feel better. These things take time. Someday your head won't be full of all of this x

Thanks YTH

I just don't know sometimes.

thrilledskinny · 30-05-2012 9:36pm

cloud493 wrote: »

Well, I'm really ****ing ill. And I fell off the top of a climbing frame they have in a children's park last night after I climbed to the top, cos being in a playground at 3am climbing a dark frame by yourself is a ****ing stupid idea. And I just feel ****.

That sounds like fun ? What brought you to go to a childrens park at 3 in the morning on your own ? What even got you out of the house at 3 in the morning on your own ? I'd be planking it ??
Slightly mad idea to be going out on your own late a night, be careful !!
Granted I have a play ground near me and now I will be tempted to go to it next time i wake in the middle of the night !!

I hope your feeling less like **** by now :-)

pejay · 30-05-2012 9:43pm

any one on here taking serequel how do you find it thanks

cloud493 · 30-05-2012 9:44pm

thrilledskinny wrote: »

That sounds like fun ? What brought you to go to a childrens park at 3 in the morning on your own ? What even got you out of the house at 3 in the morning on your own ? I'd be planking it ??
Slightly mad idea to be going out on your own late a night, be careful !!
Granted I have a play ground near me and now I will be tempted to go to it next time i wake in the middle of the night !!

I hope your feeling less like **** by now :-)

I dunno. I was just sitting up, and I decided I'd go. Don't know why.

jammstarr · 30-05-2012 10:34pm

Hope yer a bit better by now Cloud

cloud493 · 31-05-2012 1:31am

I'l be fine

everyone else ok?

nesf · 31-05-2012 9:23am

cloud493 wrote: »

I'l be fine everyone else ok?

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

jammstarr · 31-05-2012 4:50pm

nesf wrote: »

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

Shit the comedowns can be really rough. Hope it passes for you soon Nesf

flyswatter · 31-05-2012 4:58pm

nesf wrote: »

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

Is that a high as in the elated, happy sense?

nesf · 31-05-2012 7:25pm

flyswatter wrote: »

Is that a high as in the elated, happy sense?

Yes. But nothing severe.

Wile E. Coyote · 01-06-2012 7:04am

Just wondering does anyone here suffer from adult separation anxiety disorder? I didn't even know such a thing existed until I came across the below extract from the linked page. It describes me to a tee. I know I'm being irrational or stupid. I know my wife is safe, she's away for the night with work and text me to let me know she was in, yet here I am at 7 in the morning wide awake after zero hours sleep with my heart still pounding. I've searched the Internet but most sites only deal with the disorder in children and I couldnt find an Irish site with anything on it.

http://elliemsjourney.blogspot.ie/2011/05/adult-separation-anxiety-disorder.html?m=1

It's strange how much I identify with this disorder. Every symptom could have been written specifically about me. I'm going to outline a little about how this disorder impacts my life.

I suffer from a fairly frequent fear of being kidnapped and forced to be isolated from my significant other. I also fear that he will be killed or will be taken away from me through a variety of scenarios (some more peculiar than others). I'm afraid he will meet someone else and leave me because he will like them more than me or find them more interesting.

When he has to go anywhere for any reason for any length of time my immediate response is to panic. A million scenarios run through my head. He has to go visit his grandma in the nursing home and my brain goes on panic overdrive: he likes his grandma more than me, he'd rather see her than see me, he just wants to get out of the house and be away from me, there might be a cute nurse there and she could be better than me and they could have an affair and maybe he'll never come home at all or maybe his car will wreck and he'll get amnesia, what if I am kidnapped while he's gone and he can't find me? It's silly and outside of the moment I can identify it as silly, but in the moment the fears feels very real and very valid.

My separation anxiety also causes me to miss out on doing things I would otherwise enjoy. I will avoid scheduling things for times when my significant other is at home, even if the overlap is less than an hour. I can't stand reducing the amount of time we have to spend together by even a few minutes. If there is a scheduling change for either of us, I panic. If I feel that he had control over the change and scheduled something during a time when we could have been together I get frustrated and accusatory. I panic and I behave irrationally.

Over the last three years, I have spent a total of maybe 15 nights away from my significant other. Those nights I couldn't sleep. I laid in bed and cried. I felt like he had abandoned me. I felt like he didn't love me anymore and didn't care that we were apart.

And that brings me to one of the major issues I struggle with. Because I place such importance on being together, when he does not show signs of separation anxiety when I'm not around I feel betrayed, unloved, undervalued. By my (flawed) logic: I love him and want to be with him, so I'm devastated when he's not around. He's not devastated when I'm not around (he's not even bothered!), so how can he love me? Does he even like me? Maybe he never wanted to be with me at all!

And this is the trap of Separation Anxiety Disorder. The more you try to make the person like/love you, the more you push them away and the reason for this is simple: to this other person, there is no issue. You are fighting a war in your head that doesn't really exist. It's as simple as that, but it's a damn hard lesson to learn. The reason he doesn't care when I'm not around is because it doesn't matter to him, not because he doesn't like me or love me or want to spend time with me, but because he does not share my fear that significant people might not return once they leave. From his perspective, since he knows I will always come back he is fine. Why shouldn't he be fine? He is secure in our love and attachment, he has no reason to believe my departure would or could mean anything other than that I have something in my schedule, so he finds something to do on his own and is just as happy as a clam. When I return home it's as if nothing has even happened, because nothing has happened, separations and reunions are a natural, normal part of life.

girlonfire · 02-06-2012 5:25am

Can't sleep. I've been awake all night. I'm not in bad from so I don't know why I'm not sleeping. Hopefully it'll be better tomorrow night.

Hope everyone is keeping as well as can be and looking after yourselves,x

thrilledskinny · 02-06-2012 6:58pm

Hate that when I cant sleep, my sleep has been ok this wk, but OMG last I couldnt get to sleep, then i'd wake up in the middle of the night as usual and not get back to sleep.

Really tired all day today though even though i've been sleeping...must be the weather ??

Snoopy1 · 02-06-2012 7:15pm

I've been feeling so good thus last week, now im on a real down. Doesn't help that I hurt my shoulder again after I thought the injections had fixed me.
now I can't sleep again and um starting yo feel lonely and worthless

ashblag · 03-06-2012 12:20am

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

jammstarr · 03-06-2012 1:26am

ashblag wrote: »

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

Heya, how long have you been feeling like this Ashblag?

Princess Peach · 03-06-2012 1:49am

ashblag wrote: »

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

You just described my life!

girlonfire · 03-06-2012 3:04am

thrilledskinny wrote: »

Hate that when I cant sleep, my sleep has been ok this wk, but OMG last I couldnt get to sleep, then i'd wake up in the middle of the night as usual and not get back to sleep.

Really tired all day today though even though i've been sleeping...must be the weather ??

It's a pain, isn't it? Third night running and I still can't sleep

nesf · 03-06-2012 8:43am

Been low yesterday and today so far. Ah well. One gets the good with the bad.

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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