Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Hugo Stiglitz · 03-07-2013 1:18am

Call Me Jimmy wrote: »

This is the case for me at the moment. Worringly so. I believe my mental health will seriously deteriorate to a point where it may be unrecoverable within this year.

I hope not. Whatever you do don't try to isolate yourself from others. I did that many times and it just made things so much worse in the long run.

Call Me Jimmy · 03-07-2013 1:29am

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

I hope not. Whatever you do don't try to isolate yourself from others. I did that many times and it just made things so much worse in the long run.

Oh no it's already been like that a while. Don't want to see people because of circumstances. I could easily have reintegrated but now things are just very dire inside my mind. Well I should say around my fringe. Sometimes I think **** this whole dog and pony show

NegativeCreep · 03-07-2013 2:07am

Call Me Jimmy wrote: »

Oh no it's already been like that a while. Don't want to see people because of circumstances. I could easily have reintegrated but now things are just very dire inside my mind. Well I should say around my fringe. Sometimes I think **** this whole dog and pony show

Couldn't relate more to your last two posts.

Sometimes I think talking about this stuff actually makes me feel 10 times worse.

RubyXI · 03-07-2013 10:59am

Since I sent the letter to my doctor a few weeks ago, I haven't got a reply. So bit freaked about that. Not sure what it means. Now I want to go about a different issue and I'm scared to go in case she recognises me from my letter. ( I only gave my surname) I suppose it could take time to answer, or maybe she doesn't do letters. I don't know..:o

Gremlinertia · 03-07-2013 11:11am

phi3 wrote: »

Since I sent the letter to my doctor a few weeks ago, I haven't got a reply. So bit freaked about that. Not sure what it means. Now I want to go about a different issue and I'm scared to go in case she recognises me from my letter. ( I only gave my surname) I suppose it could take time to answer, or maybe she doesn't do letters. I don't know..:o

I'll hazard a guess and say the doc probably expected you to follow up with an appointment with them.. Not sure all surgeries can enter into phone/letter correspondence..

You've made a step though, don't be scared to go in.. Nothing ventured an all that..

RubyXI · 03-07-2013 1:19pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I'll hazard a guess and say the doc probably expected you to follow up with an appointment with them.. Not sure all surgeries can enter into phone/letter correspondence..

You've made a step though, don't be scared to go in.. Nothing ventured an all that..

Well in the letter I wanted to know if it's something they deal with before I make an appointment so I think it was clear I wanted an answer first.

Lightbulb Sun · 03-07-2013 6:45pm

phi3 wrote: »

Well in the letter I wanted to know if it's something they deal with before I make an appointment so I think it was clear I wanted an answer first.

They'll have seen everything before. Don't worry about that.

cloud493 · 05-07-2013 11:24am

Not been doing so great. Hard to put the brave face all the time.

Hersheys · 07-07-2013 11:49am

Why do therapy sessions fly by & time between them drag?!

dar926 · 07-07-2013 12:28pm

Been in therapy since I got out of hospital in March..But I just aint right... I have the skills but something just doesn't fit...Maybe the hole I am in is just to deep to get out... I don't think i will ever be right

Pro crastinator · 07-07-2013 3:11pm

dar926 wrote: »

Been in therapy since I got out of hospital in March..But I just aint right... I have the skills but something just doesn't fit...Maybe the hole I am in is just to deep to get out... I don't think i will ever be right

Depression/anxiety robs you of the things you need to get yourself better and move on with your life - motivation, focus, determination and self-esteem. You'll get there, it'll just take some time. Small steps are better than no steps.

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-07-2013 3:37pm

Pro crastinator wrote: »

Depression/anxiety robs you of the things you need to get yourself better and move on with your life - motivation, focus, determination and self-esteem. You'll get there, it'll just take some time. Small steps are better than no steps.

Well said PC

LoveCoke · 07-07-2013 5:19pm

Hersheys wrote: »

Why do therapy sessions fly by & time between them drag?!

because you depend too much on them? do not mean that in a judgemental way

viota · 07-07-2013 5:35pm

Ive had severe depression and anxiety ince i was 12 .Nearly 25 now.I dont know what it feels like to be happy.Im used to faking being happy.Its hard to matin the facade.I'm agoraphobic and rarely go out.I hate it so much.Ive tried pyschotherapy and counselling didnt work.Im on meds which takes the edge off but i dont think i will ever be happy.Ive had it for well over 12 years now.I doubt its going to get better.Im just tired of it all now.

Hersheys · 07-07-2013 6:42pm

LoveCoke wrote: »

because you depend too much on them? do not mean that in a judgemental way

Yeah. I guess it's something I need to work on.

want to disappear · 07-07-2013 8:59pm

Went out for a walk today, it seems like everybody I passed was a couple. Made me feel very alone

MickFleetwood · 07-07-2013 11:34pm

Anybody else get severe feelings of depression, anxiety and paranoia during a hangover?

Honestly never drinking again. Past two days I've been feeling almost suicidal due to all of the emotions that are consuming me.

smellmepower · 08-07-2013 12:50am

want to disappear wrote: »

Went out for a walk today, it seems like everybody I passed was a couple. Made me feel very alone

This.

The good weather seems to be bringing out all the happy couples,painful to see when I feel so lonely and alone.

cloud493 · 08-07-2013 1:11am

I keep seeing groups of people generally having the craic in the sun, all going wear round no t shirts and drinking and stuff. And I'm wearing long sleeves to cover the scars, and on my own, like always. I know its a self made situation, but

Hersheys · 08-07-2013 8:12am

cloud493 wrote: »

I keep seeing groups of people generally having the craic in the sun, all going wear round no t shirts and drinking and stuff. And I'm wearing long sleeves to cover the scars, and on my own, like always. I know its a self made situation, but

I know that feeling

my legs are shredded

Pro crastinator · 08-07-2013 9:41am

MickFleetwood wrote: »

Anybody else get severe feelings of depression, anxiety and paranoia during a hangover? Honestly never drinking again. Past two days I've been feeling almost suicidal due to all of the emotions that are consuming me.

Yep! Don't drink anymore as "the fear" turns into "the deep dark pit of self loathing" when I'm having an episode. Would you try some meditation? Sounds very foreign and exotic I know, but I find mindfulness really helps me.

Basically it's bringing your focus into the present moment, which takes you out of your head and away from the nasty things going on in there. Sounds simple but it works.

Some info: http://psychcentral.com/lib/2013/how-mindfulness-can-mitigate-the-cognitive-symptoms-of-depression/

I've been working through this program and it definitely helps when I remember/have the motivation to do it! - http://www.amazon.co.uk/The-Mindful-Way-Through-Depression/dp/1593851286/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1373272754&sr=8-1&keywords=mindful+way+through+depression

Pro crastinator · 08-07-2013 10:36pm

**** POTENTIAL TRIGGERS DON'T READ IF VULNERABLE ****

Having a bad day today. The nihilism is back. Finding it hard to concentrate on everyday things coz they all seem so pointless and worthless. Is depression really an illness? Or are we just seeing the world as it REALLY is and the REST of the world is in denial?

If I don't manage to get some meaning in my life soon I won't be able to go on. Existence in this current state is torture. Like an animal in a tiny cage. I'm smart, capable and dedicated, is it so much to ask that I can get work in the field I've studied and make a meaningful contribution to the world? Or am I doomed to placate the plebs while they shout their petty little grievances at me forever more? I want to tell them to shut the **** up so bad. Shut up and go home and hug your families, there are more important things in life.

I'm so tired of existing, not living. I keep going for others, not myself. I secretly wish that people would stop caring about me so that I could quit this miserable life and not hurt anyone. But they do, so I can't. If only I could find some hope. Every path I wish to travel is closed to me, where else can I find hope?

MickFleetwood · 08-07-2013 10:39pm

Pro crastinator wrote: »

**** POTENTIAL TRIGGERS DON'T READ IF VULNERABLE ****

Having a bad day today. The nihilism is back. Finding it hard to concentrate on everyday things coz they all seem so pointless and worthless. Is depression really an illness? Or are we just seeing the world as it REALLY is and the REST of the world is in denial?

If I don't manage to get some meaning in my life soon I won't be able to go on. Existence in this current state is torture. Like an animal in a tiny cage. I'm smart, capable and dedicated, is it so much to ask that I can get work in the field I've studied and make a meaningful contribution to the world? Or am I doomed to placate the plebs while they shout their petty little grievances at me forever more? I want to tell them to shut the **** up so bad. Shut up and go home and hug your families, there are more important things in life.

I'm so tired of existing, not living. I keep going for others, not myself. I secretly wish that people would stop caring about me so that I could quit this miserable life and not hurt anyone. But they do, so I can't. If only I could find some hope. Every path I wish to travel is closed to me, where else can I find hope?

It's weird, I'm an absolute nihilist and feel there's no meaning to neither my life nor anybody's lives, but at the same time am somewhat content with that fact.

LoveCoke · 08-07-2013 10:43pm

Pro crastinator wrote: »

**** POTENTIAL TRIGGERS DON'T READ IF VULNERABLE ****

Having a bad day today. The nihilism is back. Finding it hard to concentrate on everyday things coz they all seem so pointless and worthless. Is depression really an illness? Or are we just seeing the world as it REALLY is and the REST of the world is in denial?

If I don't manage to get some meaning in my life soon I won't be able to go on. Existence in this current state is torture. Like an animal in a tiny cage. I'm smart, capable and dedicated, is it so much to ask that I can get work in the field I've studied and make a meaningful contribution to the world? Or am I doomed to placate the plebs while they shout their petty little grievances at me forever more? I want to tell them to shut the **** up so bad. Shut up and go home and hug your families, there are more important things in life.

I'm so tired of existing, not living. I keep going for others, not myself. I secretly wish that people would stop caring about me so that I could quit this miserable life and not hurt anyone. But they do, so I can't. If only I could find some hope. Every path I wish to travel is closed to me, where else can I find hope?

did you ever watch woody allen? he is a bit like that, nihilistic i mean as far as i understand him and nihilism

Pro crastinator · 08-07-2013 10:51pm

MickFleetwood wrote: »

It's weird, I'm an absolute nihilist and feel there's no meaning to neither my life nor anybody's lives, but at the same time am somewhat content with that fact.

I wish I could be. I'm at the activated stage of treatment where I've regained my desire to achieve goals, but can't overcome the obstacles life has put in front of me - recession, mental illness, no financial resources etc. Sometimes I think I was better off without the medication, blanketed in apathy. Numbness is much more bearable than the deep hurt I feel right now.

LoveCoke wrote: »

did you ever watch woody allen? he is a bit like that, nihilistic i mean as far as i understand him and nihilism

I didn't but I have him noted in my head to watch. Sometime I'm not so low I think!

banquo · 09-07-2013 12:45am

MickFleetwood wrote: »

Anybody else get severe feelings of depression, anxiety and paranoia during a hangover? Honestly never drinking again. Past two days I've been feeling almost suicidal due to all of the emotions that are consuming me.

It's hypoglycaemia. Honestly, you just need sugar!

You know when you're back home after an evening on the lash and you're supposed to drink some water? Have the water, but also have a couple of chocolate bars or a can or two of coke. Will take 75% of the hangover-related anxiety away.

MickFleetwood · 09-07-2013 12:52am

banquo wrote: »

It's hypoglycaemia. Honestly, you just need sugar!

You know when you're back home after an evening on the lash and you're supposed to drink some water? Have the water, but also have a couple of chocolate bars or a can or two of coke. Will take 75% of the hangover-related anxiety away.

Either that, or my chronic OCD. :P

Cheers for the advice regardless.

LoveCoke · 09-07-2013 1:17am

banquo wrote: »

It's hypoglycaemia. Honestly, you just need sugar!

You know when you're back home after an evening on the lash and you're supposed to drink some water? Have the water, but also have a couple of chocolate bars or a can or two of coke. Will take 75% of the hangover-related anxiety away.

i doubt that not always anyway

smellmepower · 09-07-2013 1:55am

Can't be arsed living (and thats being generous) like this much longer.I have two long ago arranged commitments coming up over the next few weeks and after that I think I'm done.

I always think of the old Doug Stanhope bit when I'm this down,and it keeps on making more and more sense to me:

''Suicide is another thing that's so frowned upon in this society, but honestly, life isn't for everybody. It really isn't. It's sad when kids kill themselves 'cause they didn't really give it a chance, but life is like a movie: if you've sat through more than half of it and it sucked every second so far, it probably isn't gonna get great right at the very end for you and make it all worthwhile. No one should blame you for walking out early.''

Pro crastinator · 09-07-2013 11:54am

smellmepower wrote: »

Can't be arsed living (and thats being generous) like this much longer.I have two long ago arranged commitments coming up over the next few weeks and after that I think I'm done.

I always think of the old Doug Stanhope bit when I'm this down,and it keeps on making more and more sense to me:

''Suicide is another thing that's so frowned upon in this society, but honestly, life isn't for everybody. It really isn't. It's sad when kids kill themselves 'cause they didn't really give it a chance, but life is like a movie: if you've sat through more than half of it and it sucked every second so far, it probably isn't gonna get great right at the very end for you and make it all worthwhile. No one should blame you for walking out early.''

Yep, feeling the very same at the moment.

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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