Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

It's only Monday and already I want this week to be over.

I wish I had someone to talk to.

Thanks, I'm just not sure what to say. I don't feel like I can talk to my GP about it, no counselling appointment for a few weeks and not seeing psych until the end of April. Just feel a small bit lost and lonely. It's a big old world out there when nobody in real life understands.

Call Me Jimmy wrote: »

Hersheys I'm here too, I don't understand physical abuse but I understand my own despair and my own apathy towards talking about it, 'what's the point if we exchange words' kinda feeling. I also know that despite desperate loneliness it is still hard to know what to say, even though there is an inner monologue constantly streaming a million words.

Nobody can truly understand someone else on an experiential level because that is impossible but if you don't have anyone in real life (I think face-to-face is the best if possible) you can always talk to me. From reading your posts you are lost, but I think given enough time people can find themselves once again. I know that's what I'm hanging around for.

One final thing, and this is not a criticism of you, but the harsh reality is, actions will have to be taken for anything to change. Positive evolution doesn't happen through passivity, I have 10 years at least to prove that. I am taking extremely small steps through sheer boredom and apathy just to be slightly more comfortable each day despite my own reservations, fears and downright negativity.

Having said that I'll probably be on here in a day or two complaining about the exact same things I've always complained about...

Thanks

I know I have to work at it. I try to take baby steps - I don't do big leaps but I try little things every day to make things easier. Problem is I've no positive reinforcement to tell me I'm doing the right thing, if that makes sense.

I've posted here before but my old account is gone now. I'm trying to resist the temptation to come back here but it's one of the few places I know where I can rant if I need to. Had a nice weekend that was completely undone by a horrible dream, and am now just drinking wine, avoiding sleep for the night so I can sleep in tomorrow instead and trying to remember where I was last year; at the time I was feeling depressed but looking back I was so much happier there. And this time next year, if I'm still alive, I'll probably be looking at where I am now and thinking "I was much better off then". Because the future holds absolutely nothing for me, there's nothing I want to do or be. No-one will ever want to give me a job and if they did it would be a job I hate 'cause there's literally nothing I can envision myself doing with my life. I managed to come off anti-depressant medication for nine whole months but am back on them again. I've only had two relationships in my life, both ended in me being the one getting dumped and nobody has shown any interest since then so it's not like I have a nice lovelife to fall back on or anything.

If I had any idea where I was going, I could force myself to grin and bear the bad times and be willing to pay my dues. But why the fúck should I pay my dues if there's nothing due to me at the end of it all?

Didn't get out of bed at all yesterday (Tuesday). Nothing or no-one worth getting up for.

Callumsmamma wrote: »

Hi I'm new to boards so don't know if i'm posting in the right thread, but does anyone here take efexor? I've been on it a few months now and would like to ask other people's experience with it and alcohol.

Your best bet is to talk to your doctor or pharmacist about it. With any anti-depressant alcohol will have a negative effect (alcohol is a depressant) so don't go overboard.

After a week or so on a high I'm back down with a bang & painfully aware of the amount of meds I have at my disposal. Nowhere to turn. Annoyed with myself.

Esel wrote: »

Hang in there!

Regarding the on-hand meds though: have you not being taking them as prescribed? If not, think about why (you don't have to answer here). You should really bring your stockpile to a pharmacist (any pharmacist) for safe disposal.

It's not all prescription meds. Buy paracetamol and neurofen in bulk up north, have leftover meds from changeover of meds & stuff. I don't want to bring them to the pharmacist. They'll judge.

I just feel really crappy tonight & I think my friends have all reached boiling point where they no longer care so I am 100% alone. I just want to talk to someone. Not on the phone though, in real life. A conversation where I can be open. It's been so long since I saw my counsellor & nothing coming up soon.

titan18 wrote: »

Know what you mean with the meds. Am on 7 different types of medication atm, side effects get to be quite fun with that amount

My friends mock my bag of drugs. I keep different doses of different meds in case I need to go back on them & I don't have access to a pharmacy or whatever.

Hersheys wrote: »

It's not all prescription meds. Buy paracetamol and neurofen in bulk up north, have leftover meds from changeover of meds & stuff. I don't want to bring them to the pharmacist. They'll judge.

I just feel really crappy tonight & I think my friends have all reached boiling point where they no longer care so I am 100% alone. I just want to talk to someone. Not on the phone though, in real life. A conversation where I can be open. It's been so long since I saw my counsellor & nothing coming up soon.

They won't judge you for doing that. It's part of their job to dispose of them.