I have a condition called
postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome. However most doctors here have never heard of it and some others use different terms, so I end up using vague terms like 'autonomic dysfunction' or 'orthostatic problems'. Basically it means whenever I'm standing my heart goes extremely fast, and I can faint. When it gets bad, like now, I have daily low fevers, and spend most of my time sweating and/or vomiting with chest pains, agitation and all sorts of horribleness. I was admitted to hospital a few days ago basically to recuperate a bit cos I couldn't stand at all, but then my doctor, who treated the condition when he was abroad, went away and I had to see a different guy.
Well. The thing with autonomic dysfunction is that none of the drugs currently work very well, and I haven't had any luck with them. There's basically nothing doctors can do for it sometimes, except physio or weekly IV saline infusions, neither of which are done in this country. So it's a chronic debilitating condition (or 'nuisance' as some docs say) that doctors can't do anything about, and they absolutely
love those. So naturally docs who don't know much about it have to imply you're psychologically ill, because otherwise you should be able to handle it according to them. Like the guy today: 'you can have a pain in your leg, but some people perceive it worse than others'. I reminded him that he really has no idea what my condition feels like. I told him that before I was diagnosed I was on benzodiazepines (xanax, valium) for months, and while they made very calm and positive, they did nothing to help me stand. When I would take issue with something, he would ask his underlings 'is that what I said?' and they had to go 'No, no!' instantly. He demonstrated complete ignorance about my condition (saying for example that exercise didn't help it, which is the opposite of true according to all research ever), and instead of admitting it, he got sarcastic when I had to correct him. He walked away from my bed and down the hall going 'Wow. Wow.' In short, he was a ****, and I was feeling way too sick to put up with it. For the temperatures, he called them 'weird' and gave me a
prescription for paracetamol (which I was already taking).
This is far from the first experience of this sort I have had, nor the worst, and I know others with any kind of chronic condition experience the same. My mom even had very rude, dismissive treatment from some when she had serious
cancer. Why do they have to be like this? Some of them can manage to say 'I can't help much but I understand this is very difficult' but many can't. They feel that people should be able to ignore anything they can't treat. They act as if, if they can't treat it, it must be trivial or your fault somehow. They feel they have the authority to concoct all kinds of weird theories about your life, and you leave feeling utterly degraded sometimes. The lack of resources atm has made treatment of non-fatal conditions practically evaporate I know, but there's more to it than that. There is something truly wrong in the medical culture here.
(Btw, if anyone reading this has POTS and feel you could use some help, please message me as I'd like to see about setting up a support group in Ireland. Even if you're doing okay, I'd like to get an idea about numbers.)