Confused over guy
I feel like such an idiot. I met this guy 2 months ago through mutual friends at a gig, we hit it off immediately even my friend said she felt left out of the conversation altogether as soon as she introduced us. We chatted for a while that night and as soon as I left he added me on facebook and continued the conversation all night. The next day he gave me his number and basically every single day since then we've been texting and facebook chatting since.
We didn't meet again after that for another 2 weeks until another gig and again we hit it off again this time with a lot of flirting and kissing initiated from both sides. Again the chat continued on as normal afterwards, it was never really spoken about what would happen next, during and after nights out he would constantly text and ring me and it was obvious he wanted me. As the weeks went on it got a little more serious, by day it was normal friendly chat between 2 people who obviously liked each other, with any amount of drink on him it got more serious, constantly asking me to come out with him, telling me he was so happy to have met me, x's and babes and I want you heres etc etc..
It was another 3 weeks before I met him at another gig. 4 days previous to that we had said goodnight to each other after a chat and for some reason he never contacted me until the gig, call it a bit petty but I was waiting for him to text me first those few days (up to that it was half and half as to who made first contact) and after 4 days of nothing I presumed he'd moved on or something had happened. As a result I sort of drank too much before the gig, I was hammered but everyone tells me in a happy sort of way that I wasn't a mess or made a fool of myself. He did talk to me that night but later on in the night I didn't remember and sent him a text asking is he not talking to me anymore and what was wrong, he replied saying sorry that he had been a bit off lately. Next day things went back to normal and we went back to chatting every day.
Then I went abroad for 2 weeks and after that things got a lot more heavy. Before I went away I had said I would be going out in the town where he's from when I got home and if he was around to meet up with me (I rarely ever go out in the town he lives in because I don't have a way home from it or know anyone else there to got out with). While away then he regularly (but again with drink) told me he missed me and couldn't wait for our night out. Even while he was drunk one night he seemed to get very upset about how we were going to manage being together once we both go back to college (our colleges are only an hour and a half from each other), kept saying he really wanted to try but didn't think it would work because I'd never want to see him, in the end we settled that we'd give it a go. Again once sober nothing more was said about this. Another drunken night out and we stayed up all night together having text sex! Again this night he suggested that we would be an item after meeting up when I came home. The next day he did refer to the night before and after that we were texting near constant. Before I came home then he stayed up because my flight was late night/early morning and it was the first time he said he missed me while sober.
Fast forward then a few days and it comes to this night out. We meet up early go to his house, the chat is slightly awkward or slow (first time we both met each other completely stone sober) but otherwise fine, we drink some wine watch telly then head out. Once out and after a pint or two things are going really really well and we both loosen up. Fast forward through the night and things go progressively better, more flirting, arms round each other few kisses etc. We had headed out awful early so had started drinking very early and while I had felt quite sober I obviously wasn't. Fast forward to pint number 6-ish and I suddenly felt very sick. I have never gotten sick on a night out from drink and I have drank a lot more than that night, I suddenly went from feeling sober to twisted, threw up in the pub, we left then and walked up to get food. When I think back there's a big blank from throwing up to getting back to his place. I seemed to sober up once back at his yet still felt sick and again threw up. I really don't know what happened, dodgy pint or spiked drink? Or just plain drank too much? He said I didn't seem drunk at all, no stumbling around and the sickness just came on me suddenly.
We slept together that night anyways, I don't feel he took advantage of me I had ample opportunity to say no and it was pretty much me that jumped him, but he knew I felt like **** about throwing up, he kept telling me not to worry about it and he's done it before too. Next morning there was plenty of cuddling and spooning and we slept together again. Once we got up things got awkward, conversation was slow, there was a question mark as to when I'd go home, I didn't want to jump and seem too eager to go and when I mentioned about going before his friend arrived it was sort of half heartedly mumbled you don't have to he won't mind. When I left there was an awkward sort of goodbye kiss and hug I'l text you later.
I didn't get a text then that night until 4am after he'd been out again with this friend, but he fell asleep after 2 replies. He text me the next day explaining he fell asleep and again there was normal chat for a while but nothing at all said about the night before, he said he was going back to bed for a while and then nothing until I text that night, again chatted for a while before I went to bed. Heard nothing the next day so I sent him a text explaining how I was really sorry about the mess I was in sat night and could we go out again some other night to show I'm not a complete mess or something to that degree anyways. I got a text back just saying don't worry about it we all get wasted every now and again, I replied again explaining how I hadn't planned on getting into that state blah blah blah and asked again would there be no chance then of another night to redeem myself. Have heard nothing back since and that was Tuesday. Before I sent the first text apologising he had changed his relationship status on facebook to single (it had just been just blank).
So there ya go, I know I'v wrote an essay and anyone who reads through it all deserves a medal, it just helps me to write it all down to sort through it in my head as I'm just really confused now as to what has happened, apart from me making a fool of myself.
People say drunken words are sober thoughts, is this always true, I had really thought we had hit it off so well and going by him I had thought he'd want to take it further. So now I don't know is everything ****ed up, is this just morning after awkwardness or am I thinking too much? The mutual friends all said that he was a nice guy, maybe immature at times especially when it comes to going out and drinking, but that they didn't think he was a user or womaniser. I'v no idea what to do next now? Leave it be and wait until he gets the balls to talk to me again, or should I text him acting normal. There's very very slim chance of just bumping into him anywhere again. Feel like crap over the whole thing and wish I could reverse back and not drink half as much. Again apologies for writing an essay.
