On another forum (shameless lolocaust plug) there was the question of "Do you smoke?"
I had trouble answering this. My reply was:
Now, I don't consider myself a smoker, but to be honest I'm probably kidding myself. While I'd never, ever buy my own smokes or tobacco (except when required for drug usage, and even then, I'd never buy unless I was doing particularly well monetarily), I do smoke relatively frequently. Can range from anything-- nothing for months, to ten a day, though usually not more. My housemate and my current boyfriend both smoke, so no matter where I am it's there.
I started at 22, and the original reason was to have an excuse to be in the smoking area of pubs and strike up conversation (have you a light/fag?) when I didn't know anyone in this country. Kind of helped me make friends, I suppose.
I have no addiction to smoking. I wouldn't freak out or get stressed or count down the days since I last had a cig. I smoke them because they're there and I've an issue with oral fixation (I know this is the lolocaust after hours but just leave this one!). I constantly need to be doing something with my mouth (seriously, leave it!) and sucking on something tends to do the trick (don't you dare).
Is it going to damage my health? Probably. But it's not something I plan on continuing with any sort of gusto after I've moved on from Ireland. The only cases in which I smoke are if it's offered, or if I want to go to the smoking room without looking like a weirdo. I'll probably continue to smoke when I drink, and obviously when I'm doing hash or weed since nobody seems to smoke pure here. But those scenarios are rare enough, too.
So basically, I don't consider myself a "smoker" til I actually buy my own pack of tobacco or fags. I don't consider myself a "smoker" til I actually have an addiction to it, which I don't.
Am I a smoker who's horribly in denial? At what point do you consider yourself a smoker?