I have been quite a committed Christian up until this point... however there is an issue of sexuality which could really mess things up in that regard.
So I'll thank people in advance to take this seriously and deal with it in a respectful manner... the result of this thought process will have a large effect on the rest of my life no doubt. Try not to treat this as an argument but as a quest for a solution... maybe a few can be found and for more than just me

Gender roles is a major thing at the moment in my life..
I started thinking about the fact that God is refered to as male...
there is the whole wives submit to your husbands etc...
This doesn't suit me... I'm a guy, I'm not dominant in a sexual relationship nor do I ever plan to be, I don't see how this effects my ability to serve "God"
Expand that further, does anyone think its ok to cross dress or take on attributes associated with the female gender etc.?
Is part of being a man of God being masculine?
I don't have a well defined sexuality... no real gender preference but quite a number of my friends do so I can imagine what its like I guess.. which leads me to:
Why are there rules surrounding consensual sex?
I'm also confused by lots of other stuff like why you need to get church married before having sex...
But mostly I'm kinda angry... I've spent my entire life growing up as I thought a Christian boy should... and for most of my life I was depressed, I had to restrict my actions to fit in rather than just being myself..
Its like I had a perfectly good 3rd arm... but because it wasn't normal we were all told to hide them... one day I release it and there I feel great...
It just doesn't make sense that God loves me and wants me to be someone else... and its not just not doing a particular action... there is a whole lifestyle I'm heading towards with every step feeling like more freedom..
Anyway if I could get peoples opinions that would be cool...