Hey all, I hope that I'm posting this in the right subforum.
I am a 19 year old male. In the past few years, I have been feeling a certain way which lines up with the symptoms of BPD/EUPD or cPTSD. I had a troubled childhood, which I won't detail, but would explain why I developed these tendencies. I know that I have a problem and I want to get treatment. I am a few months into college, and I have already started to fall behind on the course as I get too occupied with the things going on inside my head, and my overwhelming mood swings. My college has given me all the support they are able to and I am grateful for that, but I need further treatment.
I went to my GP and asked if I could be seen by some kind of psychiatrist to be assessed and to see if I could be assigned a counselor. She helped me submit an application to the HSE "mental health team", and a few days later I got a call that I was not eligible for an assessment. In a follow-up visit, she explained that they looked at my case and thought that there was not enough cause for concern to assess me. From what I understand, it seems like the only time they care about you is if you attempt suicide or threaten to hurt someone else. I would never do the latter but I think that the former is possible a few years down the line if I don't get treatment. And I don't want to wait until it gets that severe. I have phoned two private counselors in my area to see if I could see them for some time, but they both never followed up on giving me more details (time, place, etc.) after the first phone call where I briefly explained my situation.
It is my dream to get a diagnosis and start DBT. I hope that there is somebody on here who has been down this road before and could point me to where help is available. I live far away from Dublin (where most support seems to be). I could definitely go up there to get assessed if it would mean one or two psychiatrist visits, but I don't have the means to go up there every week for counseling/therapy.
Thank you for your time.