What's your favourite poem?
I don't know about you fine people, but I have certain vices, certain behaviours, which sometimes make me feel completely powerless with regards to stopping. Trying to quit sometimes feels like I'd be more successful if I tried to derail one of those orange and black trains - you know, the very loud and very fast express ones, the ones that used to make me run into the station and cover my ears as a nipper - by running into one of them. It's almost as if I have absolutely no say over what happens to me, like I'm the passenger in a sidecar being driven by a nutcase who is speeding toward a precipice with his eyes shut.
Before you refer me to the Personal Issues section, or give me the number of Pieta House, I should stress that I am not suicidal or depressed, in spite of the fact I've used some pretty grim analogies to describe how it feels. I'm actually pretty content, because I always find optimism in a poem that my brother turned me on to, a poem called Invictus.
Now what the poem means, who the f*ck knows and who the f*ck cares, but I am very fond of the final two lines - "I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul".
I tend to repeat both lines whenever I'm rationalising the recurrence of certain behaviours. I find the lines to be a glaring reminder that, actually, you do have a say in your future, and you can, if you want, climb out of the sidecar and take control of the steering wheel and brakes, and kick that other c*nt out. You don't necessarily have to be a passenger in your own self-destruction if you don't want to be.
In fact, I think it's probably worth remembering in times of any sort of strife, any moment where you think, 'You know what, I might give up here'. It's astonishing how such simple language can also be so profound and effective.