Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Shazanne wrote: »

And remember phi3 - everyone on this thread is right there behind you offering our strength and support! You can do it! Best of luck!:)

Thanks. I also have to worry about the fact that this car stuff is way too confusing for me! I almost forget about the actually having to pass a test. Turning up is a big enough test for me! I've only told one person i'm doing it. Except everyone on boards that is!!!

Ah no. I'd rather go on my own. He's forgotten all about it anyway i'd say

SunnyTimes wrote: »

Hi everyone, hope ye don't mind me joining this thread. I suffer from depression and I just hate it. I find it very hard for people to understand it, I don't fully understand it myself. All the horrible feelings I get, it just hurts so much at times.

I am having a bad few days. I just feel like curling up under my blankets and hiding from the world today. I find it very hard to get motivated.

Do any of ye ever feel guilty about being so down and lost in yourselves? I often think that people think I am just lazy. Or that I am letting my kids and partner down because I am not motivated to do certain things.

Hopefully this will pass soon as it comes and goes. And I will be able to get my house cleaned properly lol.

Thanks for reading xxxx

You're very welcome
I do feel guilty. I feel that I'm wasting my life. I was given a perfectly good life which is more than a lot of people get. And I am totally wasting it. Sometimes thinking like that gives me motovation to get on with things- as best i can.

Theory test done and passed!!! 40 out of 40! Do i rock or what haha!
Once i got there it was actually ok.
Next stop, the hairdressers. What a day!

Bugnug wrote: »

Hi I have just seen your thread and you know it really does not have to be like this. Take it from me there is some really good help out there. Life is for enjoying and yes there will be tough times but the good times should always far out weigh the bad times.

Hi Bugnug.
Have you suffered from anxiety or depression yourself?

Anyone else find your heart beats like really strong? I'm not sure how to explain it but i can feel my heart beating through my whole body. In bed at night sometimes it moves the bed and the bed hits off the wall. Aparently other people aren't aware of their heart beat at all.

I take those kalms tablets (coz ya don't have to go to the doctor for em) I honestly don't know how much good they do though. I think they calm me a small bit. But i don't take them much. Maybe if i took them more frequently they'd work better.

[quote=[Deleted User];65388255]Hey guys, thought I'd write a bit here.

I've been suffering for anxiety for ages, and have been having a really hard time this past year which is sending me over the edge. I had a very painful breakup with my ex in early 2009 (found out he was cheating on me by reading his emails, he had denied it repeatedly and told me I was crazy) and was really hurt etc but got over that fairly quickly. Onwards and upwards and all that. Now have a great new boyfriend, but had awful luck with health. I was told I had a bad internal infection which could have damaged organs, I found out I had polycystic ovary syndrome, I have gyno problems that won't go away, had another irregular smear result after 3 years of irregular smears and colposcopies, ongoing bowel problems, chronic pain, fatigue and so on.

I've been toying with the idea of counselling for ages, but this time it was recommended to me by my GP and personal tutor at uni. The thing is, I've been on the waiting list since February and so far have not even had an assessment. I sent in a form with my details and reasons for depression and was told to expect an appt soon but still waiting. It makes me think that they think my problems aren't serious enough which is how I've been feeling all this time - that I'm silly to waste appointments, that other people have it much worse than me etc. I have always suffered from depression and anxiety, even when my health was OK and I had no 'obvious' reason to be depressed, but now I do have reasons and it's so difficult. But still I am being made to feel that other people deserve counselling and help much more than me, that I shouldn't moan because other people have it worse etc. I feel bad for being depressed when my life is mostly good.

I don't know what this post will achieve really, just nice to get my thoughts out there I guess![/QUOTE]

There could be many reasons why your waiting. What type of service where you referred to? Was it the Psychological Services? Or was it a specific counselling service? Sometimes things can just be lost, believe me it happens.

Where about are you located? There are generally lots of options available around therapy, you could go private, or you could contact a low fee service. It is rare I will allow someone to jump my list, and the same in reverse. That is I don't look at a referral and say, ah they can wait. I don't know what type of form you filled, but as therapists referral letters tell us little about the person, it only when we have assessed the person we know the full story.

So my suggestions would be either the service you where referred to and ask how long you will have to wait, contact another service, or go private. If you in Dublin there are plently of low cost counselling services, but they do exist outside Dublin too. Best of luck with it and I hope that helps a little.

I always feel a bit strange when i actually have a reason to cry. Like a few nights ago i was crying but there was actually a reason for it. I won't go into why coz it's a bit complicated to say the least.
But in a way it feels good to have a reason. I hate when i cry for no reason.
Not that i like having reasons to cry.... but i think ye know what I mean!