I was wondering what people think of this thread.
I agree with some of what's being said.
This is a very difficult subject to approach and I can see that perhaps this thread might get angry but I'm just telling the truth, that being that both straight & gay communities have been quite vocal about how messed up bi people are. Fake straights, tainted goods etc. Straight people say we're confused and greedy, gay people seem to really resent us (by us I mean me. Lesbians seem to hate me. The ones I hit on I mean. Hahaha).
I just find it so hard to deal with. Apparently rates of self harm and suicide are higher among bi people. I myself have had a history of er...things like that because of this.
I've been going to counselling for years & I just can't bring myself to talk about it. I can't even say the word like. Sometimes I think if I could gather it up into a part of my body, I'd cut that part out. I mean, I've tried to be one or the other and it really messes with your head. And I don't have a preference. I'd be right smack bang in the middle of the Kinsey Scale.
I've never had a normal romantic relationship with a woman. I just can't do it because I can't deal with myself being in that situation. My mother thinks it's sick, and has said in the past that my boyfriend should dump me because he's too good for me. And that it's akin to bestiality.
It's not a phase. I've been like this for as long as I can remember. It feels freakish, like you're not anything and don't work properly. I never talk about it ever, & actually most of my friends don't even know it's such a big issue for me.
I don't know what the hell is possessing me to write this post.
I'm just so sick of it. I don't know what to do. I just need to accept it and get on with my life and I honestly can't.
I really do feel like I'm malfunctioning.
I don't mean this as a 'oh I have it harder than you' post. I really don't. Just looking for advice or something.
I'm sorry because maybe this is inappropriate? Mods if you feel it is, please lock or delete straight away.