Before I begin this is in no way meant to be an insult to anyone, Ive lived my life with the live and let live philosophy. If my language offends anyone please let me assure you that is not my intention.
Im a straight guy in my mid 40s. Ive always been described as something of a ladies man.
Ive relocated to Asia for work recently. A few weeks ago I was wining and dining clients in a nice restaurant and as soon as I saw our server I was captivated. She is one of the most beautiful women I have ever seen.
As I paid the bill I asked her out on a date and she agreed. I was walking on air! We met the next day and had a great time and on our next date too. I invited her to my apartment for dinner which was when she told me that she is a 'ladyboy'
I was a bit taken aback. Coming from a generation and country of labels so while Im totally at ease with her I really started to criticise myself. I have never felt gay or had any gay tendencies and it really shook me up.
Anyway I did meet her at my place . I was as nervous as f**k. As soon as she walked in I knew I didn't care about labels and we had sex. Ive never experienced a connection like that before, it was the most romantic night of my life. We stayed up all night talking, it was all so relaxed. We have met many times since.
Now I don't know where Im at. As far as Im concerned she is a woman and an amazing one at that and Im straight. Ive never felt like this before and Im not a kid, I know what I feel. I want to be with her and she told me that she feels the same.
On the other hand this goes against everything I was taught growing up in Irish culture.
How do I tell my daughter? How do I tell my parents? Am I gay? Really confused. Help!