Bullemia

LegacyUser

i recently went to the doctor following years of anguish and mental strain over my weight and appearance which had lead me to the being bullemic and anorexia for the last 3 years. I'm a normal size and yet I seem to be convinced every day that everyone looks at me with disguist and thinks how huge i am. I can't eat in front of people without having to leave half of it behind (i'm talking rice and chicken) because of how paranoid i am. I've finally accepted that i've got a problem and the doctor advised me to go to a councillor. however I dont know what to do or where to go, and i don't honestly think that i could sit down and talk to someone about it, after all what can they do? what difference will it make?
Confused.

Beruthiel

What difference will it make, you ask - they will help you to get to the root of why you are behaving like this and to walk you through it. If you can see it for what it is then you will be able to move on. Do yourself a favour and get help, you may find it hard to talk, but the fact that you say that, means you need to!
Do it today and stop putting it off!

oh, and btw - nobody is looking at you, they are far too busy worrying about themselves and their own lives!

Gordon

The councillor will not talk about "it" they will speak to you and... well just speak with you. They will provide confidential communications with knowledge, experience and advice on your happiness and personal well being also but they are there to provide a listening ear like we are here to provide a listening eye.

As Beruthiel says, people are waaay to bothered about themselves to be gawking at your size to be honest.

Go to a councillor just once and I guarantee you will feel a tiny bit better.

chernobyl

It wont make any difference in the world if you dont realise that its a problem you do not want.
I was so fuked up at one stage that in my head i felt happier when i was skinny/light headed and completely devoid of energy.

I honestly dont know when/how i began to have a better opinion of myself but i do know one thing, unless you think that it is a problem and you want to escape it then nothing can help you.

Good luck!

LegacyUser

Hi...I'm currently suffering and i feel my starvation is down to control issues...today i started chewing and spitting and to my surprise i found on the internet that this is not abnormal, i then felt that i swallowed some food and made myself vomit, i don't not know if i have an eating disorder but i feel this is not normal behaviour. I'm 19 and i know when i was 15 i went through a period of starvation and lost much weight. I gradully put it on again but since then have felt guilty about putting it on. I was 8 stone and 5'8'' at my lowest, In the last year i crept up to 10 stone but in the last week I've lost a almost a stone. I know it's not healthy but i feel in control and powerful and i know if i give up i'll feel guilty after working so hard to lose it.