is this it?

LegacyUser

i am a male regular poster. i am unhappy with every aspect of my life and i dont want to continue living it. i am constantly extremely miserable even though outwardly i act normal. even as i write the tears are flowing, i examine myself and i sicken myself. millions of people with it far worse than me and here i am sobbing like a bitch. i say i cant go on but i dont have the balls for suicide. my world is constant gloom, i get stupidly angry over the slightest little things. i know this sounds like a troll but i have no one to talk to, absolutly no one i can open up to. i'm going back to bed. thanks for reading.

leggo

Simple answer: see a professional.

They aren't SOMEBODY to talk to in the sense that you're thinking, i.e. a family member, friend etc. They're a body. With ears. And a mouth. Which might direct your conversation one way. Let you get **** off your chest. Then leave and feel a bit better.

If you're worried that nobody gets psychological help, don't be. ****, I'd go as far as say that EVERYONE should get it. When we talk to people like family and friends, we're talking to people who have a compromised interest in our situation and can't just be an unbiased pair of ears who'll be 100% concerned to let us find what's irking us.

There's a buncha stuff out there in life. For everyone. You don't HAVE to live life the way it is. There IS stuff out there that you can enjoy. That can make you happy. That can make you actually HATE sleep and not feel that it's the only time when you feel at peace. Trust me. For every smile that's out there today, there's a frown that's contributed in making that smile JUST a bit bigger. Our happiness is derived through our sadness and hard times. Use your current sadness as the impetus for a turning point in your life. In 2-3 years your life could take a 180-degree turn and you could post here telling people how you've been in that place before. You've hit rock bottom and the only way is up. You've lost a lot of your will to live, so what have you got to lose? Get out there and shuffle around your life and adjust it to the point where you ARE happy.

But that's not for now.

For now you have to find the root of your problem. Learn to accept yourself and accept the cards you've been dealt in life. Then when you clear yourself of that headache, start focusing on where you want and need to go in life to make yourself happy once again. Then work on keeping happy and improving on it. When you get past the hard part, it's all uphill from there.

But you'll have to take it one day at a time. You've come a long way by realising that you're unhappy and, deep down, knowing that something have to change. Now take the next step. Go see someone professional. Turn that life around one step at a time.

Santa Claus

Ring the AWARE helpline 1890 303 302. Someone will listen to you without judging your feelings.
After that get yourself to your GP on Monday and explain to them the situation. The GP may prescribe you something to try and help your mood, but the key to sorting feelings out is talking so get the golden pages out and look for a Counsellor near you the ring and make an appointment !

I've felt what you're going through before. If I can be any help PM me, but I'd strongly urge you to ring Aware...They're very good !

pwd

Well if you act normal when you are in what sounds like the depths of despair, that shows very great strength of character, and you should be proud of that.
I dunno what else to say without risking sounding like a patronising git, but I'm sorry you feel so bad and I hope you come out of it soon. Summer's coming and that always helps!

Capt'n Midnight

Suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem.

The weather outside ain't helping either. Seasonally Affected Depression and all that. Good things happen when you least expect them, but not necessiarly when you need them most. You could also try some voulantry work as a way to get you out of a rut and for the feel good factor.

Jonny Arson

Capt'n Midnight wrote:

Suicide is a permenant solution to a temporary problem.

That sentence sums it up there.

Please for your own sake go and see someone professional. I have never felt the way you are feeling at the moment but I can assure you that talking to someone who is willing to help you is the best medicine possible. I encourage you to do this because where will suicide get you? Nowhere. No matter how bad you feel about yourself you are certainly brave to even post this topic as guest, that shows you are strong. I know you are feeling sh*t and couldn't be bothered but a bit of inspiration can really change your outlook on life. Please talk to a loved one, try talking to someone professional and your outlook on life can change. It will take one step at a time day by day to get over how you are feeling but with your strength and courage I know you will get over this crap stage of your life and realise how great you can be as a human being. Best of luck, stay strong and believe in yourself.

Call Me Jimmy

woah, the original poster has just summed up my life, except i aint cryin

Gordon

Why not 'Call Me Jimmy'?

Call Me Jimmy

dunno

Victor

I can't say I been were you are original poster, but I've cried at TV, at boards, talking to a Bangladeshi woman I know who said "It's OK, only 1,000 Bangladeshis died in the tsunami."

I didn't get out of bed until 4pm yesterday, not because I was tired, but because I didn't want to face the world.

i am unhappy with every aspect of my life and i dont want to continue living it.

You don't have to. Change your life. People will actually help you to do this (some seek payment, others don't).

millions of people with it far worse than me

Maybe, maybe not. It's more down to what you can handle in your situation than absolutely what your situation is. We spend our time running around "saving time", whereas some guy in the wilds just lets time go by? Who has it better?

and here i am sobbing like a bitch.

And whats wrong with that? Boys **do** cry.

Write some more.

REDZ

I always thought that if wanted to end it all, i'd sell everything i had, get all the cash i could, borrow from the bank etc and just feck off to somewhere sunny to start again. i think the new experiences and problems i'd face would naturally help me forget about the ones i'm running from. best of luck

Gone West

Im going to be brutal, but mabye I can help.

ok my solution would be to get the hell out of here. Get a plane/boat ticket to france and hitch around europe. you can live nearly for free, eating cheap bread/cheese and cheap wine. Experience the world as best as you can. You will develop a greater appreciation for life. Also european women like irish guys a lot. live by the day. And ditch the internet/boards. If you have the balls for it, just go and do it.

Its what i would do.

leggo

Also european women like irish guys a lot.

That is to say, the one's that don't have a massive Dublin accent.

Just work on your "Ah, to be sure tis a fine day"s, NOT your "Ah, howya luv??" and THEN they'll love you.

Rossonero

FuzzyLogic wrote:

ok my solution would be to get the hell out of here. Get a plane/boat ticket to france and hitch around europe. you can live nearly for free, eating cheap bread/cheese and cheap wine. Experience the world as best as you can. You will develop a greater appreciation for life. Also european women like irish guys a lot. live by the day. And ditch the internet/boards. If you have the balls for it, just go and do it.

Its what i would do.

I have similar problems, and travelling is a help, especially travelling on your own. Not only does it ease the suffering while your on it, but the memories of your travels will brighten things up a bit when your feeling down. It's like a type of morphine to ease the pain, but it doesn't cure it.