Depression and other stuff

nesf

Um, I'll cut to the chase on this one. I've suffered from depression since I was 15/16 and have been having professional help and medication since then. I'm not happy at the moment, I'm in and out of depressive episodes, it's stopping me from finishing my degree in college and it turning me into a hermit. I used to have a half decent social life, but in the past year or two it's been whittled away to nothing.

I'm just really fustrated, I've taken alot of advice on board over the past few years, I've come to terms with whats wrong with me and I don't get upset over it. I used to cut myself and hurt myself in other ways, but I've been self-mutilation free for almost two years now. On one hand I feel like I've made progress, but on the other hand I'm stuck in a rut where my life is in tatters, I'm close to losing my degree over this and I've alot of pressure because of it effecting my life.

I'm just stuck with what to do. I'm 23 and feel like i'm screwed with regards to life. I've tried many types of drugs, and I advocate them for their stabilising purposes (ie you can get depressed but would rarely reach the depths of despair that come with untreated depression), but the side effects when you're on high doses are not very nice. I've been incapacitated for about 2 and a half months now, barely feeding myself and surviving. I don't go out socially except when dragged out by friends. When I go out socially I can't interact with others at all and feel completely out of place, even when surrounded with old friends. I still make an effort to go out and force myself to interact and meet new people, to stop me falling totally into a hermit-like rut, but it's getting tougher.

I took a year off college last year to try and sort my head out. I went through a large number of jobs, I've no improvement in concentration at all, reading is almost painful for me now, and takes a supreme effort to just start a book and keep reading it. I feel like I'm cutting myself off socially from everyone and everything that I know, but I can't seem to stop myself half the time. The drugs are causing pretty sever memory loss and a total lack of sex drive. It's embarassing, but impotence has also stuck up it's ugly head (pun intended). I'm caught thinking that all these effects are not worth the cure, and then I remember what I used to be like and I change my mind.

I dunno guys, I'm rambling a bit, but I'm just so fustrated and annoyed at the moment. Anyone got any advice or even suggestions? I've probably tried them before but I'm curious as to see peoples opinions.

Thanks.

DadaKopf

Your problem could be dietary. Just a thought. You may be allergic to something you eat or drink and this is affecting your endocrine and immune systems, which affect brain chemistry. It can make someone lethargic, affect concentration and change mood.

This is widely acknowledged but causes are not. Seeing an allergy axpert or a homeopathic medic might provide some answers.

I'm skeptical of these remedies because there are many sheisters out there, but much of what GOOD homeopathic doctors prescribe are based on medical fact and, when 'traditional' medicine doesn't have any clear-cut answers, what have you got to lose?

I've seen how these remedies can fix the worst of problems.

nesf

DadaKopf wrote:

Your problem could be dietary. Just a thought. You may be allergic to something you eat or drink and this is affecting your endocrine and immune systems, which affect brain chemistry. It can make someone lethargic, affect concentration and change mood.

This is widely acknowledged but causes are not. Seeing an allergy axpert or a homeopathic medic might provide some answers.

I'm skeptical of these remedies because there are many sheisters out there, but much of what GOOD homeopathic doctors prescribe are based on medical fact and, when 'traditional' medicine doesn't have any clear-cut answers, what have you got to lose?

I've seen how these remedies can fix the worst of problems.

I've been allergy tested I've tried alternative therapys like massage, acupuncture and such and such. They were interesting but didn't help very much. Although I'd recommend massage to anyone in a deep depression, physical contact can be very important during one.

Corksham

PM me please I have been through it

BolBill

PM me either