My childhood nightmare

Richarddrahcir

Hi new to this, and Advance apologies as I may not find the appropriate catogory for this post. basically I've been searching online but can't seem to get the help/advice I am looking for. Anybody who can help it really would be appreciated.

To cut a long story short I have been having somewhat troubling recounts of my school days lately, to the point where it is really bothering me on a daily/nightly basis. Said troubling recount is mainly one, when I was 7/8 years old whilst attending choir practice during school hours, something I really did not want to do, so much so I would mine my way through it so as my friends could not hear my desperate attempt at singing! I was standing on the third level of the choir bench when our teacher noticed I wasn't singing, she stopped mid song, walked over to me and questioned this. A sad somewhat embarrassed me tried to cover it up and say I was singing, and before I know it she struck me with a clinched fist on the back of my shoulder. It knocked me off the third level bench down to my hands and knees, where she struck me not once, not twice, but three more times in the same place. I remember kneeling on the floor crying in pain and to make matters worse she pulled me back to my feet, back onto the bench and continued on where the song left off whilst staring at me to insure I was singing. With my back in severe pain and myself all bubbled up with tears sang out to the choir song.

I'm not going to babble on but a lot of negative issues arose from this incident primarily bullying from fellow pupils who could only at there age find in somewhat entertaining.

To finish I simply don't know what to do, I'm a 24 year old man now so this was a long time ago, but believe it or not it gives me the horrors on a daily basis nowadays. This teacher is now principle of said school and it angers me firstly that this happened, secondly that I'm too ashamed or scared to have ever spoken to anybody about this incident.

Do I just try forget? Move on?

byhookorbycrook

If the teacher hit you with a closed fist repeatedly, that's assault . Corporal punishment has been banned for many years. I disagree that children of 7/8 would find this funny and I'm surprised that none told their parents or indeed your parents at the time.

You seem to be unsure what you want to do next, so consider what outcome you would like and how it might be possible to achieve this.

Moonbeam

Is the teacher still teaching?
Have you considered counselling?
\bullying like that is unacceptable especially by an adult in power.

silverharp

I'd be inclined to say let it go, it was a long time ago and while it was very wrong what she did its built up in your head and you are probably more affected because you bottled it up by not telling your parents at the time. Why don't you mention it to your parents now, in a not too heavy way but just bring it up, at least you would have got it out there.

If somehow you confronted the teacher, one she may genuinely not remember it, or secondly she mightn't give you any satisfaction and would just imply you hyped up something minor if she became defensive or is a wagon by nature