Work stress caused by self

LegacyUser

I'm currently on maternity leave. I can't enjoy it as I'm so bad at my job I feel like I've stolen my life. I walk around my house and think how do I deserve this with so many homeless?! I feel like I have stolen this life!
I don't know what to do, I walk around thinking how do I deserve my nice life with so many homeless?!

Airyfairy12

Its normal to be mindful of people less fortunate but when feelings of guilt are interfering with your day/enjoyment of life thats when you need to check yourself. Your worry and obsession over this isnt normal and you might want to visit a doctor or psychologist.

Rubberchikken

Speaking to your go or public health nurse might be a good thing at the moment.
It is good yo be mindful of others less fortunate as Airyfairy12 said but you deserve your life and feeling like you dont needs to be addressed.
Take care

December2012

Firstly, bear in mind that if you are on maternity leave, your hormones are going to dictate a lot of how you feel. I remember when I became a parent feeling so sad any time I heard of anything going wrong in the world, because I could just see that person as a child, and with the love and hopes I had for my child I felt as if life was unfair that another person wouldn't have the same opportunities that I hoped I would be giving mine. It is very hard to accept that you cannot change society, and you cannot change somebody elses luck.

The truth is, you probably don't "deserve" all of your good things in your life, no more than another person "deserves" all the bad things that may happen in their life

It is luck that dictates whom our parents are, if they are alive, if they love us, if they can care for us. That is not something that we contribute to at all.

It is luck that we live in a mostly safe country, at a mostly safe time. Again, not at all controlled by us or our parents.

I am sure that there are parts of your life in which you have created an opportunity for yourself, by being a good person, being good in a relationship, looking out for the right things, studying and working hard. You should enjoy those things. You should take comfort in those things. They are good things.

As to the rest of it? Well, sometimes when I feel like you do (I don't do it as much any more, as I distance myself from bad news often), I make a charitable donation to an organisation that I feel benefits. Like say during the snow I donated to Focus Ireland, or during an earth quake I donate to Unicef.

Make sure you are getting enough sleep, and nutritious food, and assurances that you are a good person, and a good parent.

If you find that, after a while, you are still feeling over emotional, then you may want to consider talking with your Public Health Nurse.

zapper55

Did you feel like this before you had your baby? If not definitely say it to your doctor as perhaps you have post natal depression.

No matter if you are good or bad at your job you are entitled to maternity leave. It's such a vital role to bring up a baby. I hope you feel better soon.

Teyla Emmagan

You sound very depressed. Go and see your doctor.