What have you done that you're ashamed of or wish you could take back?

MeatTwoVeg

It's probably therapeutic to confess.

One thing that always sticks with me, and it happened years ago. I was walking up a hill and there was a kid, maybe about 7 and he was running down towards me.
He clearly started to lose control and I should have reached out and grabbed him.
But I didn't.
I froze and he ran past me, tripped up and fell painfully to the ground and started crying. His parents ran down to him and I was just standing there feeling like such a prick.
Why didn't I stop him? Was it some fear about grabbing someone else's child? Did I just panic?
I don't know.
Still think about the poor little mite getting smacked into the ground because of me and would love to be able to go back in time and redeem myself.

So, what have you done that, or not done, that makes you ashamed?

The flying mouse

So many but yet so little time.

Advbrd

If that is the only regret you have in life, I envy you.

razorblunt

So many memories have just come flooding back, it will take a while for me to stop cringing at them.
I'll post one when I climb out from the hole I'm going to jump into.

MeatTwoVeg

Advbrd wrote:

If that is the only regret you have in life, I envy you.

It's far from the only one, but it's something that always sticks with me because of how easily I could have stopped it but didn't.

Senna

There isn't much I'm ashamed of, embarrassed myself all the time, but not ashamed of most of it.

RubyGlee

Most of the people I've slept with

endacl

I shot a man in Reno. Just to see him die.

Tzardine

I put the screw in the tuna.

me_right_one

I ****ed up my brothers wedding. I'm so, so sorry W.

Speedwell

I honestly couldn't have done anything other than what I did at the time, because I thought I was doing the right thing and God would make it all right in the end... but if I knew then what I know now, I would have had the abortion and run far, far away from the bastard I was living with.

Smokers and Jokers?

MeatTwoVeg wrote: »

It's probably therapeutic to confess.

One thing that always sticks with me, and it happened years ago. I was walking up a hill and there was a kid, maybe about 7 and he was running down towards me.
He clearly started to lose control and I should have reached out and grabbed him.
But I didn't.
I froze and he ran past me, tripped up and fell painfully to the ground and started crying. His parents ran down to him and I was just standing there feeling like such a prick.
Why didn't I stop him? Was it some fear about grabbing someone else's child? Did I just panic?
I don't know.
Still think about the poor little mite getting smacked into the ground because of me and would love to be able to go back in time and redeem myself.

So, what have you done that, or not done, that makes you ashamed?

Maybe he shouldn't have been running? Maybe his parents should have been paying better attention.

me_right_one

Speedwell wrote: »

I honestly couldn't have done anything other than what I did at the time, because I thought I was doing the right thing and God would make it all right in the end... but if I knew then what I know now, I would have had the abortion and run far, far away from the bastard I was living with.

Ah no. Whatever was going on, it wasn't the child's fault. Hoping all is well now.

DEFTLEFTHAND

I bullied a girl with a gang of lads for most of 6th class in Primary School. Makes me ill just thinking about it.

I know what it feels like to be bullied and I'm utterly ashamed to this day that I did it to somebody else.

Hammer89

I made my parents lives Hell in my teenage years. Trouble in school, drinking, going missing for weeks during the summer and staying with friends in Dublin, making them worry frantically. Also some dreadful things I was lucky to get away with. Desperate behaviour, feel very bad about it now. It just fizzled out. My folks were incredibly forgiving of it all.

Hammer89 wrote: »

I regret an entire week of my time in Canada, because for six or seven days I was doing things which were so far out of character that it just wasn't me...

Jayzis! That's an incredible story, worthy of its own thread. Really enjoyed reading it, reminds me of Jack Kerouac. You could make a very decent short story out of it.

Cervantes2

I was the one who cancelled Star Trek!

Hammer89

A Tyrant Named Miltiades! wrote: »

Jayzis! That's an incredible story, worthy of its own thread. Really enjoyed reading it, reminds me of Jack Kerouac. You could make a very decent short story out of it.

Thanks man. I have flirted with this idea. I've written of other quite dark experiences from my time in Canada on this site and already approached a mod about having them deleted, which I will do with this and the others somewhere down the line.

I can't speak highly enough about Toronto as a whole, but if you're there trying to escape something then it can get very dark and very scary.

OldMrBrennan83

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Gunslinger92

One year as a kid I went to a summer camp. We were doing some sporting activity and there was an intellectually disabled boy there, he put his arm around me in a friendly way and I cringed and moved away

Every so often it just pops into my head and I feel like a horrible horrible person.

the_syco

I regret stuff maybe, but ashamed? No.

Galwayguy35

Crashed a car after drinking all evening, I was bagged and put off the road.

20 years later I still wake up every morning thankful that I didn't hit anyone.

As part of a group of friends in my early teens, I bullied and harassed another young lad. From name calling to mocking and even spitting on his back as he walked in front of us.
The same guy just wanted to be part of our group. He was ever friendly, would do anything for you and always the first to offer cigarettes or sweets etc. I can remember him crying a few times over the way we treated him.
The guys family moved away from our village after a few years and I never saw him again.

I often think back to the way we (me included) treated him and I cringe and feel horribly remorseful and actually sick. I unashamedly admit that I've tears in my eyes now.

I work with children now so have to deal with bullying issues on a regular basis. Each and every time I do I remember how nasty and horrible I myself was to treat a person like this.

I would love to say sorry to the guy and shake his hand. I honestly hope that things worked out well for him.

Gunslinger92

Gunslinger92 wrote: »

One year as a kid I went to a summer camp. We were doing some sporting activity and there was an intellectually disabled boy there, he put his arm around me in a friendly way and I cringed and moved away

Every so often it just pops into my head and I feel like a horrible horrible person.

MeatTwoVeg wrote: »

It's probably therapeutic to confess.

One thing that always sticks with me, and it happened years ago. I was walking up a hill and there was a kid, maybe about 7 and he was running down towards me.
He clearly started to lose control and I should have reached out and grabbed him.
But I didn't.
I froze and he ran past me, tripped up and fell painfully to the ground and started crying. His parents ran down to him and I was just standing there feeling like such a prick.
Why didn't I stop him? Was it some fear about grabbing someone else's child? Did I just panic?
I don't know.
Still think about the poor little mite getting smacked into the ground because of me and would love to be able to go back in time and redeem myself.

So, what have you done that, or not done, that makes you ashamed?

I hate this paranoia that perfectly healthy, responsible men have to put up with, in case we're branded as paedophiles.

A few weeks ago I was in a lunch place with my sister, when her daughter, a toddler, starting acting up, so I said I'd take her across the road into Trinity College for walkies (the child, that is). Again, I don't know if it was my imagination, but I felt I was getting a lot of strange looks walking down the street with holding a crying, wriggling toddler

It's an unhealthy situation, to deliberately avoid contact with children, or for them not to be socialised to stranger men, or to regard men as dangerous. It also leads to ridiculous situations like the ones quoted, which nobody benefits from.

CFlat

My name is Cflat, I'm a middle aged man and I, I, I, eh watch........Hollyoaks.

Turtyturd

Accidentally called a teacher 'Ma' once.

Temptamperu

Most of the first 35 years.

Sue Pa Key Pa

When I was around 10, I was a billocks to someone who is very dear to me still. They were doing everything humanly possible to help me and I discarded it as if it was nothing. I try every day to redeem myself, though that person has only even shown me kindness. Before anyone says I was only 10, for some reason, I knew exactly what I was doing at the time.

me_right_one

TheTorment wrote: »

As part of a group of friends in my early teens, I bullied and harassed another young lad. From name calling to mocking and even spitting on his back as he walked in front of us.
The same guy just wanted to be part of our group. He was ever friendly, would do anything for you and always the first to offer cigarettes or sweets etc. I can remember him crying a few times over the way we treated him.
The guys family moved away from our village after a few years and I never saw him again.

I often think back to the way we (me included) treated him and I cringe and feel horribly remorseful and actually sick. I unashamedly admit that I've tears in my eyes now.

I work with children now so have to deal with bullying issues on a regular basis. Each and every time I do I remember how nasty and horrible I myself was to treat a person like this.

I would love to say sorry to the guy and shake his hand. I honestly hope that things worked out well for him.

Sue Pa Key Pa wrote: »

When I was around 10, I was a billocks to someone who is very dear to me still. They were doing everything humanly possible to help me and I discarded it as if it was nothing. I try every day to redeem myself, though that person has only even shown me kindness. Before anyone says I was only 10, for some reason, I knew exactly what I was doing at the time.

:mad: lads, why?

padd b1975

I wouldn't mind re-living my thirties.

Mint Sauce

I have really fcuked things up at times, there are definitely things I would have done differently if got a another chance, but don't regret a thing.

Pickpocket

I've killed for money and for fun. Regularly. So much so that I became numb to it. It was nothing to me. Eventually I married and settled down. She cured me of all that wickedness. But she passed five years ago and now it's just me, the two kids and these damn pigs that got the fever.

HS3

Actually. ..The thing I would have thought I'd posted about, I wouldn't go back and change. Coz to change it would have dragged others into it, as it is it was only me that was hurt. But I wouldn't mind going back and giving someone a fookin piece of me mind all the same!

Instead, I'll go with one day, walking home from school I bought a chocolate bar out of my bus fare. I was 5p short and he said, sure drop it into me tomorrow. ...I never did He probably never trusted again after that!

Hammer89

Surreptitious wrote: »

Don't delete them. You have a talent for relaying a tale.

Thanks mate, but I'd prefer if there was no trace of them anywhere online in the future incase I do write about them properly one day and I get accused of stealing them off some bloke called Hammer89.

Donald Trump

What have I done that I'm ashamed of?

Same as the rest if ye - a few fat birds with low self esteem :pac: *


















* May or may not be untrue and said for weak comedic purposes

Melisandre121

I'm pretty ashamed of how I acted when I was in college. We went on a few class trips and I was just such an obnoxious loud little bitch. Clearly the freedom of college got to my head. Now I'm a settled adult and I despise those loud college students..

suicide_circus

to quote Eminem

If I could take it all back now, I wouldn't. I would have did more sh*t that people said that I shouldn't