Panic at being left alone

JupiterKid

I'm in a bit of a bad situation. I lost both my parents young, my sisters live abroad so I have no immediate family here in Ireland.

My ex partner is my closest friend and he has been fantastic support to me over the years. I live on my own and don't work at the moment and feel very lonely - I have a huge feeling of loss and abandonment.

I am also an alcoholic. I have been in treatment several times but relapsed each time. I use the drink to try to numb out feelings of anxiety and loneliness.

I have ended up becoming very dependent on my ex partner. This is is unfair on him - he has his own life to live. When he comes to stay with me I am euphoric and delighted but when he leaves I crumble and panic - and often turn to alcohol.

It's destroying me. I know I have to stand on my own two feet but I don't know how.

What to do? I am at breaking point.

LostTazMan

Hi JupiterKid, I would be inclined to focus on finding an alternative to alcohol as a way of coping. Discussing this with a councillor would be a good place to start. Best wishes, LTM.

Rubberchikken

i'm sorry you're feeling this way. it's good that you relaise you can't depend on your ex indefinitely so you need to take charge of this issue and set about getting help.
if you're not talking with a counsellor at the moment, maybe it would be a good idea to get a recommendation for one.
taking the first step is hard but with support hopefully things will get easier.

good luck

Sun in Capri

Agree with what others say. It would really be best if you can get some expert help. It is sometimes unhealthy to stay in touch with ex partners as if we still have feelings for them it does not allow us to let go and move on.

You are being brave by facing your issues, next step is to get some help so you can address them bit by bit.

I wish you well.

5rtytry56

In agreement with the other poster, a good start is to move away from the alcohol Jupiter.