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Distressed Poster

  • 27-01-2016 1:39pm
    #1
    LegacyUser
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 166,026 ✭✭✭✭


    Hi All,

    I have a problem, I am in my late 30s and am really struggling to come to terms with life decisions that I have made over the years. Without going into too much details, my partner an i were on different pages and both have waited on the other one to come onto the same page, have just found out thats never going to happen and I am devastated. Feel like I have put my life on hold and I know now that its too late. The Chickens have come home to roost and I am literally grieving for a life never led.

    Feel like I am losing my mind and sanity and can't stop thinking about self harming. Someone close commited suicide a few years back and I will NEVER ever do that as I have seen the harm that it can do to the people left behind. Not having that option is making me so angry and the rage that I feel is turning inwards. I feel worthless pathetic and the ultimate loser. Ironically on the outside it looks like I am a happy go lucky person who takes everything in my stride. I am normally the person that others turn to. I have become too good at putting on the brave happy cheerful face but its a big fat lie.

    I know that I need help and have applied for counselling 5 days ago and again made contact with them but ihaven't heard back about a date. I can't stop crying and feel that I have absolutely no way out, literally like all the joy and happiness has been sucked out of me. I am incredible distressed and its getting harder each second. I am not going to harm myself in any way but have many 'stop the world I want to get off moments'.

    Not sure of why i am writing this but or the good it can do but literally howling for help . My partner is a very good person and we love each other dearly but sometimes it seems love just aint enough.


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  • #2
    Merkin
    Registered Users, Registered Users 2 Posts: 8,230 ✭✭✭Merkin


    Please don't despair OP. There are some wonderful resources available to you immediately. As you have mentioned self harming, I'm not so sure we can keep the thread open, but there are a number of resources that you can tap into immediately.

    The link is here http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2057178293

    The end of a relationship is always tough, especially if it protracted or has involved false hope or promises. You will come out of this and be ok.

    Please go and see your GP immediately until counselling becomes available.

    Best of luck.


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