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LegacyUser

This is not a joke or trolling but over the years in my employment I get these very weird thoughts in my head whenever a manager is at my desk showing me something

I think in my head what would happen if I just started passionately kissing them or doing oral on them.

the manager could be male or female, old or young. I also have no sexual feelings towards them in any shape or form as contradictory as that sounds.

As soon as they leave from showing me something at my desk all thoughts are completely gone

I get no sexual thrill or any sexual desire of being excited, turned on. Absoulute none

I just feel sort of shocked and disturbed by the thought. The more I try to block it out the more explicit the thought becomes like oral sex etc

I have absolute no desire or any urge to actually do this.

I understand it comes across as very odd. Dare I ask, is this in anyway normal?

getaroom

Everyone gets weird and bizarre thoughts from time to time.

In situations such as public speaking / interview we all get told at some point to visualize the audience / recruiter sitting in the toilet as a means of easing the pressure we are under. Does this make anyone who thinks this weird? I dont think so.

LegacyUser

I often get a really strong urge to throw my jewelry into the river when I cross a bridge. I would never actually do it though. I also get the urge to ruffle people's hair sometimes. We all have strange thoughts from time to time and as socialised people, we don't follow through. Yours just happen to be of a sexual nature, and you seem not to act in a threatening manner towards people because of it, so don't judge yourself too harshly!

whiskeyman

Sound like a mild intrusive thought:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Intrusive_thought
I often get similar, but it can be more of a violent rather than sexual nature.
I'd often be in a meeting and then visualise me bashing people's heads and hitting them against the table.
Of course I've never acted nor could imagine ever doing so.
I remember a post on here a while back with many others saying they had similar.

I'm just wondering do you watch much porn?
I played lots of violent video games so put the thoughts partially down to that. Perhaps if you are immersing yourself in sexual imagery, it may appear more?

LegacyUser

Yes, very violent thoughts too-exactly as you described. Smashing monitor over there head, chasing after them with a keyboard hittting them etc

Maybe has something to do with their job position as its always senior manager positions and never people on the same level or below

bigbaz

this is a mild intrusive thought,quite normal,if it is in every situation you find this happening then a form of ocd known as pure ocd could be to blame,but for the most part it will come and go and nothing to be ashamed/worry about

mahamageehad

Don't worry OP, I get that too. It's quite common. People are usually too embarrassed to talk about it but when they do they often find others have the same thing. The French even have a phrase for that feeling L’appel du vide - the call of the void. It's the urge to jump from high places, the urge to stab someone just because you're holding a knife etc. Its like a fleeting moment of insanity in an otherwise sane head. Once you stop worrying about it so much it'll happen less often.

eeguy

I talked to my friends about it and despite it seeing so weird it's fairly common.

One of the thought's we all shared was of just hitting some randomer as we walked by them on the street.

Obviously we're a mild mannered bunch and would never ever do it, but we all had the same thought at one point or another. So strange....

warpdrive

I hope it's okay to say this in here, because these thoughts are natural, but I'm laughing so hard at the descriptions of some of these thoughts. They're hilarious to me because I've had similar (the violent ones) and was originally concerned too until I learned more.


I guess it's something we can just put down to our more primitive biology conflicting with our civilised mindsets and behaviour