I think I'm depressed

kealb14

I'm a 15 year old boy and I think I'm depressed. I know the internet isn't the right lace to be saying this and that I should tell my parents and so on but I don't know what to do. For the past few months I've felt awful, I no longer have any interest in the things I used to love, my school work rate is dropping, I cry nearly every night and I once contemplated suicide. I used to have dreams of going to college and getting a dream job and traveling, but now those things don't appeal to me. I don't feel like I want to die, I just don't want to live. I'm not going to commit suicide though its not the answer. I was also looking up and I think I may have a social anxiety disorder. I know you'll probably think I'm being overdramatic but I literally sweat so much in school if I get asked a question even if I have no reason to worry. My voice gets shaky when I have to talk in front if the class and I don't like doing anything like eating or speaking in front of people I'm not really good friends with because I think they're judging me. I know it isn't a very accurate reading but I took tests on these mental health websites on depression and anxiety and it says I should seek help because I show the signs of severe depression and anxiety. I don't know what to do, I want to get help and maybe get medication or something for my anxiety so I can actually make new friends but I don't want to have to say it to my parents, I know there's no getting around it though, for a long time I've been shrugging it off thinking it will pass but it never does. I just want opinions or advice.

ivytwine

It will get better. I promise you.

When I was 15 I too went to a patch of depression. Like you, I didn't want to die, but I wasn't too keen on living either. It lifted eventually, I didn't tell anyone, but this had consequences for me later on, and I do wish I'd told someone.

Please talk to someone, even if it's anon to Samaritans. Please get help.

I promise in ten years you will look back and think "thankfully, I got through that, or I would have missed so much". Mind yourself xxx

Tina82

Please hang in there....go to your doctor and be honest and say how you are feeling. Teenage years are not easy but please believe me when I say it will get better....just take it one day at a time. Take care of yourself....

HoneyBee78

Teenage years can be the worst but that other poster is right you will look back on this in years to come and see how strong you are. I used to self harm when I was your age and I never spoke to my parents or doctors about it. I was too afraid too and I actually wasn't sure why I was even doing it.

Having said that, I now have a 15yr old son and I would be devastated if anything happened to him. I hope if he's was feeling unhappy in any way at all that he would talk to me or get help. Please talk to your parents or a close friend or family member, anyone at all... have you anyone you can confide in? Take care of yourself things do get better xx

Rubberchikken

please talk to your parents. don't waste another minute worrying about this on your own. there are people with you who care about you so much, there's a gp who will help, all that's needed is for you to say how you feel.

once you even start saying to someone you'll be on the road to feeling a lot better. take care

lyinghere

kealb14 wrote: »

I'm a 15 year old boy and I think I'm depressed. I know the internet isn't the right lace to be saying this and that I should tell my parents and so on but I don't know what to do. For the past few months I've felt awful, I no longer have any interest in the things I used to love, my school work rate is dropping, I cry nearly every night and I once contemplated suicide. I used to have dreams of going to college and getting a dream job and traveling, but now those things don't appeal to me. I don't feel like I want to die, I just don't want to live. I'm not going to commit suicide though its not the answer. I was also looking up and I think I may have a social anxiety disorder. I know you'll probably think I'm being overdramatic but I literally sweat so much in school if I get asked a question even if I have no reason to worry. My voice gets shaky when I have to talk in front if the class and I don't like doing anything like eating or speaking in front of people I'm not really good friends with because I think they're judging me. I know it isn't a very accurate reading but I took tests on these mental health websites on depression and anxiety and it says I should seek help because I show the signs of severe depression and anxiety. I don't know what to do, I want to get help and maybe get medication or something for my anxiety so I can actually make new friends but I don't want to have to say it to my parents, I know there's no getting around it though, for a long time I've been shrugging it off thinking it will pass but it never does. I just want opinions or advice.

I would strongly urge you to talk about this with your parents. You seem to be a very rational person from your post above and I think from reading your post you already know this course of action is probably the best and it's just a case of working up the courage to start that chat. You won't regret it and maybe tackling this will seem less scary if you have support from home. Your parents will want to help in any way the can.

If talking with parents just isn't going to happen I urge you to chat with a trusted friend / relative .

You seem to have a great attitude to life despite the difficulties you are going through. Please do have a chat with someone.

Continue to keep they dialogue going here if it helps also .

shaymus27

Teenage years can be tough. Most boys don't admit their fears and worries to each other even when a lot have similar fears and worries.

You seem to be anxious and this is causing you to worry about things and not be doing well with friends. This will cause you to be more isolated and the anxiousness, isolation , worry and possible depression will feed on each other.

This may be hard for you to imagine but if you were a parent wouldn't you want your child to go to you if they were having problems?

Parents can appear distant but once they know something is wrong with their children they show how much they care.

Don't think you have to show your parents that you have no problems or have no weaknesses - when they were your age they had their own teenage worries and just because they may not have told you this, believe me they had some sort of worries when they were your age so won't be judgemental about yours.

It's better to address your anxiety now than risk it growing. It is very fixable. Then you will be able to feel better about yourself, make friends and worry less.

You kind of know what you have to do but just don't think you can, well you can and should talk to your parents or doctor. You are not the first and won't be the last to have some sort of problem - it's not just you who has felt this way so don't think you are weak or that there's something wrong with you for being anxious, just don't let it fester - get help. Once you do, the problem will diminish and what seemed like a huge obstacle will be overcome easier than you think. Even talking about it will release the burden of carrying it around with you alone and you will feel better.