Day from hell (suicide stuff and business stuff)

LegacyUser

I'm posting anonymously because some people from the real world know my username and I don't want them worrying.

I live in Asia. It's 2 AM here so I have no one to talk to about this. Of course I could contact someone back in Ireland, but I don't want people worrying about me.

I just need to share this. I hope you don't mind.

Two very had things happened today.

I broke up with my Asian girlfriend today. We had been together for about 1 year. I come home and she's slit one of her wrists in the bathroom. I then try to ring her cousin for help, he doesn't take it seriously. I go back to check on her, she has locked the bathroom door. I kick it down and she puts the knife to her neck and says if I come in she will cut it.

I ring the cousin again and beg him to call an ambulance. He eventually compromises at "I'll come over and check it out". I try ringing another person for help but I think she's asleep.

Eventually I get the ex to stop. (I had to get extremely angry with her to frighten her into stopping. I don't know if that's a good idea but it worked). She leaves with her cousin and takes all her stuff with her.

On top of this, today I learn I have lost a business deal I have been working on for about 5 months. It's worth millions. I now have to start all over again and I really needed the money.

I also discovered the ex called my Irish ex (who I have a good relationship with) yesterday, and really upset her. It hurts me a lot that my Irish ex is upset. She is innocent and a good person and does not deserve this pain.

So it's been a terrible day.

What makes it so much worse is I am in a foreign country a long way from home. I already feel a little alienated on good days. I'm lying on my bed feeling pretty bad and lonely.

Thanks for reading. Any nice comments would really help me.

The Friendly Newcomer

Chin up man. Try and stay positive and try and break down your problems one at a time and work on each individually. They won't seem so bad when ya do that.

Sir Nonchalant

I'm sorry, buddy. That really is a bad day. I empathize with you being far from home in these circumstances has gotta be tough. Is there anyone you can talk to back home? You say it's 2am there but it's only 7pm here in Ireland, could you skype it out with someone, just to talk it out. Try and get some rest, too.

I hope things go better for you, now.

Autonomous

Does your company have a employee assistance program?

Kidchameleon

As far as the Irish ex is concerned she will understand once you explain the situation about your gf. She is obviously in a very dark place so try to understand its nothing personal. And the business deal, learn from that experience, many more opportunitys will come

December2012

Ring somebody in Ireland now and have a chat. That's a lot of take in and process. Now is not a time to be alone.

c1234gt

we are all faced with adversity in our lives, some more than others. I like to think of every obstacle that comes in my way as a challenge that has to be overcome, or a test to see how you will cope. You are doing well at this test by talking about your problem.

R.D. aka MR.D

I also live in Asia, sometimes you feel like you are losing your mind. Last year, I went through a very difficult time and I dealt with it alone.

Sometimes, it feels like you won't come out the other side but you will.

The main thing that I learned from my experience is to learn lessons. Take this as an opportunity to change for the better. Figure out what steps you can take to ensure that this kind of thing never happens again.

Also, remember that there is no shame in returning home. I took a 6 month break from Asia (3 months in the US and 3 at home in Ireland) and it really allowed me to get the distance needed to reflect on my experience. I returned to Asia with better tools (mentally) to deal with the difficulties.

It seems like you are alone and maybe it seems like you have no options but there are always alternatives to your situation now. It might mean a step down in living standards but consider if it would be better than what you are dealing with now.

Rubberchikken

i'm so sorry for what you're going through.
can you even consioder coming home for a short while?

it's very difficult to deal with things like that, especially as you seem to have no one to really turn to out there. if you have family you can talk to at hom, please contact them you need support and there's no shame in asking for it.

take care of yourself.

LegacyUser

I want to give an update as it might help other people who are struggling now.

The relationship problems have greatly improved. There are still some issues, but everything is fairly calm now.

The business deal is back on track. I've even received some money so the previous months' work was worth it.

So overall my life right now is pretty good.

I still am not back to 100%, but I am doing ok. I survived the storm and I am coming out the other side ok.

If you are also struggling try to remind yourself that you will come out the other side too.

AmberAmber

hi, Glad you posted here again, I was actually thinking about you the other day and wondering how were you getting on , I did not remember where your post was , so its great to see that you are on the way up !! have a stuff going on my self so some days can just over load the already over load !!
so you keep fighting !!!
when people say it all works out in the end or just step back from it all for a moment you just want to scream at them,, but one day it starts to make sense a bit ,...... a bit ....