living for the weekend

LegacyUser

I have a lot to be thankful for I know, and people have things worse than me, but anyway here goes: I hate my work. I'm a 30 year old woman and my whole working life has amounted to me making my work colleagues coffee and doing their filing. No matter how many jobs I apply for, no matter what courses I do, how well I do up my CV I can NEVER get a job above the lowest level in terms of responsibility and pay. I do temporary contracts in dead-end jobs. My wages are barely enough to live on. All my university qualifications were a waste of time. I used to have a positive attitude, and I try my best to appear positive at work, I always smile and dress well and do what is asked of me but I HATE it. At the same time, I am lucky when I do have work because there are spells when I'm unemployed and that's even worse. I am in a relationship, but my partner can't do anything to help my frustration. He keeps asking me what I want, and I no longer know. I just plod along and live for the weekend when I have a few drinks, go out with my friends and forget about it. I dread Mondays. It's no way to live! Or does everyone feel like this? I look for other jobs and opportunities almost to the point of obsession but I find anything. I'd like to volunteer but I'm usually so washed out after a days work I have no energy, plus most volunteering positions require commitment, and when you work temp contracts you don't know what days you'll be working. I feel trapped in a cycle of work, bills and have no outlet for my energies. Is anyone in a similar boat?

Merkin

Have you told the temping agency you're with that you're now looking for a full time and permanent role? Temp commission rates are higher for short term contracts so they may not be putting you forward for things when you seem happy to work on temp assignments on an ongoing basis.

baby and crumble

Do you want to be doing admin forever? If not, then try and find out what you do want, and find a path through. You're only 30, you have loads of time to decide and retrain. You're too young to be hating what you spend most of your time doing. I love my job, it makes everything easier when you do something you're passionate about.

If you do like admin, find courses that you can use to upskill. There's lots of online things you might be able to access if you're on temporary contracts.

Emme

OP, if there is any way you can get off this treadmill GET OFF NOW. I stayed in a similar situation too long and have paid for it with my health. I am single and have financial and family responsibilities so I am stuck, literally struggling to get through the day hoping my health problems won't affect me too much. My life is literally commute, work, commute and spend the weekend catching up on sleep, family duties and household chores. I don't even have the energy to meet my friends now.
All this because I put up with a bad situation too long.

The longer you stay in this situation the harder it will be to leave. At least you have a partner - would he support you while you looked for something else?

Temping can be an opportunity to find something different but if agencies see you are good at a particular job they will tend to put you in those jobs regardless of how much you hate them or how much you tell them you want something else.

Again, if it's bothering you that much, GET OFF THE TREADMILL.

Mighty_Mouse

Assuming you don't have mortgage, kids etc. .... Do whatever it takes to get out of your current rut. (financial obligations). Move home to save money, quit drinking, etc etc.

Then take the plunge, go back to college, go travelling, find work somewhere, anywhere that you don't completely hate.

That point is freedom. You can now decide to follow your interests as they arise.

Ken Shamrock

If you get an account on boards PM me and i will try my best to get you a job, this looks like spam lol but i work in recruitment. I'm just an option if you need it.