This is for people who are trying to cope with childhood sexual abuse

ahnow

I just want to say this for people who are struggling with childhood sexual abuse. I am 26 now, and when I was 21 I went through the darkest period of my life. The very darkest. It was so intense and terrible that I nearly didn't make it through, so terrible it pushed me to the brink of insanity. I was very sick for a very long time. When I looked ahead all I could see was suicide or a life spent in and out of institutions because I couldn't function with the anguish, terror and pain in my soul. I dropped out of college and my life, and I took to my bed, because being conscious was unbearable. If anyone who is reading this who has suffered abuse and can identify with what I am saying, or is where I was at five years ago, reach out for support, reach out for counselling, and reach out for someone to help carry you through. Please hold out, because although it might seem never-ending, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I cannot believe how far I've come in five years, I was a completely broken person, I used to pray at night that I wouldn't wake up in the morning. And right now I am literally laughing at myself because I cannot believe that I am the same person as that girl five years ago. I am so joyful and happy, I have friends, and I'm back in college and working towards my future and living my life again. Although it hasn't changed the past, and I still struggle with it now and again, it is nothing like it was at it's worst, and never will be again.
I want this to be of some hope to people out there struggling. If I can pull through this, you can. Please reach out for help, life can be good for you. You didn't deserve what happened to you. Take care of yourselves. X

Ickle Magoo

Hey there ahnow, it's both brave and kind of you to share your story.

As you aren't asking for advice & this is an advice forum, I'll lock this thread.

All the very best. :cool: