Panic!

Coventia

Hi All,

I have been thinking for awhile about my sexuality and decided that it seemed I was a lesbian. I have had a relationship with a woman for a few months but could not enjoy it and got really panicked because no one really knew. I have been out on the scene away from home and loved it. When I told people about my sexuality they thought that I should give men another try but I always think about if I am making the wrong choice. So I started chatting to women on the internet and they want to meet but I start to panic. I can't go through with it and I feel like such a bad person. I have told people about my sexuality but response has been changing the subject or no you are not. I don't know what to do and I feel like life is passing me by. There was this lad that I was with years ago but made excuses to meet up with him or go on a date, people say he still likes me and I do think of him but think of women too!!! I know I am blagging on now, probably the panic!!! I can't deal with it myself.

pharmaton

Sounds similar to where I was a few years ago, I did my best to get myself out there and my first port of call was online, I met a few people from a couple of meetup type websites and if that had been my only experience of meeting other lesbians I would have backtracked and not ventured any further but I was lucky enough to know one or two people who helped me get out and meet people in real life and that made all the difference and I've spent the last few years finding my feet and discovering people who are more suited to my needs. Give it a bit of time and usually you'll find when you stop looking, the things you need will find you. Best of luck.

carly_86

Give me a place and a time and i come chat u up

Coventia

Thanks Pharmaton. I have been out a few times in Dublin more than in Cork! Sometimes I have moments of Clarity and then I you say I backtrack! Probably I have an issue with it myself!

liquoriceall

Coventia wrote: »

Thanks Pharmaton. I have been out a few times in Dublin more than in Cork! Sometimes I have moments of Clarity and then I you say I backtrack! Probably I have an issue with it myself!

Oh I could of written your op!!
I ended up being 30 before I properly accepted it & 'came out 'because like you every time I tried I was told I was confused & give men another try!! No one ever tells straight people to give being gay another try!
Anyways once I got over it & persevered with getting out there & trying to make friends it has all just made sense
Good luck

Coventia

Thanks Liquoricecall. I am 31 now so maybe your right, I should persevere, what is the worse that could happen!