Social anxiety and depression

skinny_guy

I suffer from SAD and this week has been one of the worst in my life. I embarrassed myself so much! Earlier on this week I had a date with a guy but I ****ed up and embarrassed myself. We met for coffee and I started sweating and my voice choked up. My heart was beating like crazy. I couldn't think of anything to say. My mind just drew a blank. He was such a nice guy and he kept the convo going. My lack of confidence was so obvious. Then today in work I had to teach 2 newbies what to do and the same **** happened again. My social anxiety is getting worse and I have never been more depressed about it. I was seeing a councillor in college but I'm on an internship and the hours don't suit. I can't talk to my mates or family because i think it would make my anxiety worse. I think my depression and low self esteem has stemmed from holding in my sexuality and avoiding social situation when I had the opportunity. Even 2 years ago I was never this bad with my SAD. I think now that I know I have SAD I'm even more anxious if that makes sense. I need help bad! I just want to be happy

Viva La Gloria

Is there really no one at all you are close enough to whom you feel you could confide in, particularly as your hours don't suit to meet the college councillor?

What about your GP?