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Life is going nowhere

  • 11-03-2013 10:29pm
    #1
    LegacyUser
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    i have a few things that have been bothering me lately. I dont even know where to begin tbh. I dont even know why im posting, i think i just need to get it off my chest.

    Quick background first.
    I suffer from depression and social anxiety. I am currently in therapy which is helping me greatly.
    I was treated very badly in a past relationship where my confidence hit rock bottom.
    I am overweight, lost a bucket of weight in previous years, still have a lot more to go. As much as i try i seem to be stuck at the same weight.
    I currently live at home waiting to back to college.


    I have a problem when it comes to guys. I dont understand what they see in me. I have had guys interested, but it seems to go ok for a little bit until it turns out they are just messing me about. It seems like i am only there until they get a better offer and i am pushed aside. When i go out they treat me like i am a last resort which i do not go for. It makes me feel like i am not good enough. That i will always be the last choice. I will always be pushed aside when someone else better, more pretty than me comes along. I am sick of it. And it makes me feel like im going to be alone.

    I am also not attracted to any people in my hometown. To be quite honest, they are all either scumbags or just childish. None of them have even moved out of there. I personally despise living here. I was on a dating site when i livid away from home but now i would not even consider going on one now, if i live here.

    I am saving up to go back to college. I cant get into the course i wanted as i couldnt get the grade in my undergrad. I had a breakdown before my exams and i screwed them up. I ended up moving home thinking ill go back to college this september. But i have to take another year out as i dont have enough saved with my current job. I still dont quite know what i can do with my degree (i did an an arts degree as i panicked thinking i wanted to go into teaching which as it turned out i didnt). I am finding it very hard to stick to a career that i think i would be happy with. Im actually scared of the future and what it holds.

    I feel like a failure when it comes to guys and my career. I feel like im stuck in a rut on a personal, physical and professional level. I feel like im stuck in groundhog day. It is like my life is going nowhere. That everyone is moving on with boyfriends, new courses, new jobs and i am just stuck here.


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