Really really hate it and its worrying me

LegacyUser

Hi guys,

I read this forum alot and I see some great advice here. So said I would post my issues as some one may give some very good guidance or perspective.
I hate my job, really really hate it. Every morning is a chore and the minutes drag on every single day. I start my weekend count down from the minute I wake on a Monday morning.

Now I know I should not be complaining, I have a job etc. I really do appreciate where I stand with it, and believe me I have tried to like it, to get on with it, find some motivation to maintain a happy face but to no avail.
I'm working in a firm that treats its staff like rats. Work long hours, terrible pay and all that. I'm on a training contract so its to be expected to an extent. I understand that aspect. Fair enough. But the work is so demoralizing. My issue and why im here is I have found it is beginning to affect my personal life alot. My personality is beginning to change, and i can feel it happening even though im trying to retrain from it.
Im quite a socialable, chatty person. Well I was. Since this job, well the last 8 months or so I have found myself to become more introverted, narky, depressed even. and its taking its toll. It takes me a good 2 hrs after work to unburden myself and get into a mood where im in good form and happy. My girlfriend seems the only person who when i see her unburdens me completely from the stresses of that day.

I'm fearing that my personality will shift and that i will fall in to the depths of depression with this job. I'm getting good exposure and currently sitting accounting exams so that benefit is there and probably the driving factor in me not throwing in the towel yet. But the work has me so bummed out and tortured mentally.

I just don't know what do do!! Its scaring me big time if im perfectly honest as there is another 18 months left before im finished my contract (although i can leave)

SunnyDub1

Have you tried looking for another job?

I know you probably need this job for money etc but if it's starting to effect your health then I suggest you quit.

I'd sooner be broke,happy, and healthy then have money and be miserable and depressed.

DeltaWhite

Hey I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I was feeling the exact same for 3 years in my job. Being bullied by my boss, never had a pay rise even though I'm the lowest paid person. I work really hard and do anything I'm asked and I just felt like an actual piece of crap.

Then one day things came to a head, my boss called me in over my "attitude problem" which I can tell you now does not exist. And we had a massive row, I told her exactly how unprofessional she is and she has the people skills of a sewer rat. I literally laid it all out and even though it was extremely hard thing to do at the time, she is like my new best mate in here now.
I told her so many truths about herself that she's now a totally different person to me! This was a woman that bullied me for 3 years and I finally had the courage to tell her to her face how she was treating me!


Things still aren't wonderful money wise and workload wise but she started paying my health insurance as our company is doing badly, she cannot give me a raise. I'm delighted with that! In the times we are in you have to take what you can get! I have felt so different about work since all this happened! I just get on with it and I'm so much happier.

Do you not have anyone in HR that you could speak to and tell them how you're feeling? Proceed with caution however, you might not be as lucky as me with the reaction I received from my boss!

Just know you are not alone. I only know 1 person in my life that truly loves their job. You need to try and scrap those weekend negative thoughts! I literally take it one day at a time and I may be mental but Mondays are actually a great day for me in work!

Change your thoughts to positive and you will have a different outlook on life!

Nichelen

A quick clarification,

Do you hate the job (work that you actually do at office/store/warehouse/wherever)

OR hate the work environment like workplace / Company / colleagues / Client

OR both?

LegacyUser

Hie everyone, thanks for the replies.

I'm in accounting.
I hate the work (audit) and management. They give very little support and are slow to help in any respects.

Id love to quit in the morning but I'm not from Dublin and have no more family to turn to here that I could stay with. so keeping the finances running in is essential. circa 1600 needed a month to live and pay for food, rent, bills, car etc.

Work environment is fine, as in no problems chatting to a client or getting into the tough questions. I just hate the job itself ( i like accounting per say, just hate the auditing).

Hr isn't an option as it seems to be the style of company that if one word is said then it trickles down to management regardless. School yard mentalities and closed boxed ideologies are massively prevalent in this atrocity called an accounting firm.

Nichelen

oh boy! I was in the same position few years before.

It was my first professional job. I worked in a foreign country. I was on my own. No family or gf. I didn't like the job. Paid low. But, I NEEDED to work there to support family & survival. I was positive and took it as a Challenge. Stressed whole day, partied whole night.. I was seen in all the clubs / socializing centers every evening. Made good friends. Earned extra money through freelance jobs like photography. Saved money from bills & fuel. After couple of months, I didn't really feel the work stress.

Making an interesting social life gave an impact on my professional life.. Took things so easily. I never bothered about the issues that went over my head. Got an attitude "At the max, they can just sack me. I am confidence to find another job". Guess what, I was promoted on the same year. Rofl.


Thats my story.. Good luck to you to write similar story in next few years

anewme

Just want to send you my sympathies. Was in the same position (Accounting Firm too by the way)

From Day 1 just knew it was not for me. Questioned on everything like in school, no stationary, sitting under an airconditioning unit in an open plan office, complete control freaks.


Started to like Fridays, because it was the last day, could not even enjoy my Sunday because I just kept thinking i was back there Monday.

I was coming home every evening, eating a take away, drinking a full bottle of wine just to cope and put on 2 stone in 3 months.

I found another job, and am still there 4 years later, but even so i would say, leave it, its not worth the price you are paying.

LegacyUser

I know how you feel in a job you hate.

From what you have told us I would start to look for another job. Don't leave your present job until you have another job to go to. Also in an interview don't tell them your boss is an ass**** or the company are poor. Tell them you are looking to gain more experience, to do exams in such an area ect. Ireland is a small place and you don't want to leave a bad impression with an employer as it can come back badly on you.

Not everyone that does accounting ends up working in audit. I would look into seeing what area the skills you have to date could be used in or what area interests you.
You may have to change jobs or do more exams but it is worth doing this now as you will not do well in a job/area you dislike or is making you unhappy.
I would join a club or organisation where you meet people with interest that are similar to your own. This is will give you something to look forward to and take your mind off work.
At this stage if you have to change job/ change career plan to make you happy I would do this and don't worry about what people will say.

As one of my friends said to me a few years ago - Work is part of life but not all your life.

smallerthanyou

I've never read one of these threads that I thought before I could have written that. I could have written this one four years ago. I hated it so much and was ready to leave when Lehmans hit and there was nowhere to go. I'd bet its a big four your in and if it helps everyone hates it. I got through it by venting with my friends in work and enjoying time outside work as much as possible. I remember how awful those Sunday evenings felt, literally a churning stomach at thought of tomoro, but I would advise to stick with it as long as your mental health isn't suffering. The benefits careerwise are immense. You can pretty much do anything you want after finishing. Also my third year was the best year as the end is near and I had more autonomy over jobs and my time. So it does get slightly better before the end. If your able to finish looking back on it it doesn't seem so bad. Best of luck with your decision.

smallerthanyou

Oh and maybe you could indicate to your mentor you are interested in any secondment that may come up? That would get you out for a while.

And you are in the worst of it. Think ahead to after thirty April and it won't be as busy. Also you should have a lot of study leave to get you out of the office. Breaking it into manageable chunks of office time and going on a secondment helped me.