I have a different standpoint. Heckle me.

dMaN24

I posted this a few hours ago.
http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?p=82321575

I received a "chin up, you will have kids soon" and my thread locked "for review"

In the same category we have "You are not alone this Christmas."

I could be dead by now. ****. What's stopping me. I have a perfect lock up here:
https://maps.google.com/maps?q=lock+suir+road&aq=f&sugexp=chrome,mod%3D5&um=1&ie=UTF-8&hl=en&sa=N&tab=wl

One swan dive and all you need is your ****ing r.i.p.

Kylo Ren

Merry Christmas.

Smidge

Not sure what to make of your post tbh.
But it does sound like you are in a bit of a dark place?
Anyone you can talk to?

minidazzler

What's your problem with the "You're not alone for Christmas thread?" There are a lot of people depressed this time of year and that might help someone. So fcuk you very much if you can't see the benefit of it.

Regards the rest...meh. If you don't wanna have fun at Christmas then don't. But let those who want to have theirs. No need to start threads talking about Christmas, just avoid those that do.

Do you really have nothing better to do at 5 am than complain about Christmas on a forum?

Indubitable

Go home OP, you're drunk.

hatrickpatrick

OP, before this thread inevitably gets locked, a word of wisdom:
Mods on boards.ie are like Blackjack. Nobody really understands how it actually works, and if they did, they wouldn't play it in the first place.

dMaN24

Smidge wrote: »

Not sure what to make of your post tbh.
But it does sound like you are in a bit of a dark place?
Anyone you can talk to?

Would i repost if i did?

Keno 92 wrote: »

Merry Christmas.

Ha ha ****off

Indubitable wrote: »

Go home OP, you're drunk.

I wish you dead

minidazzler wrote: »

What's your problem with the "You're not alone for Christmas thread?" There are a lot of people depressed this time of year and that might help someone. So fcuk you very much if you can't see the benefit of it.

Regards the rest...meh. If you don't wanna have fun at Christmas then don't. But let those who want to have theirs. No need to start threads talking about Christmas, just avoid those that do.

Do you really have nothing better to do at 5 am than complain about Christmas on a forum?

Read above ****face.

minidazzler

That's nice, I wonder will you get a warning or a ban for that Hope you have a nice Holiday season.

Smidge

minidazzler wrote: »

That's nice, I wonder will you get a warning or a ban for that Hope you have a nice Holiday season.

Probably best not to bait:)

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

I posted this a few hours ago.
http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?p=82321575

I received a "chin up, you will have kids soon" and my thread locked "for review"

In the same category we have "You are not alone this Christmas."

I could be dead by now. ****. What's stopping me. I have a perfect lock up here:
https://maps.google.com/maps?q=lock+suir+road&aq=f&sugexp=chrome,mod%3D5&um=1&ie=UTF-8&hl=en&sa=N&tab=wl

One swan dive and all you need is your ****ing r.i.p.

Look you are not helping yourself posting this crap, if you don't like christmas good and well.
It will all seem better in the cold light of day. Sleep it off and take care.

dMaN24

Keno 92, Indubitable and minidazzler.

I dare you to go through the **** i've gone through.

Before that you have zero response
Oh of course i forgot.
You "liked" some post regarding suicide so yiz are all good. Then you signed something.
Whoop de ****ing doo!

minidazzler

dMaN24 wrote: »

Keno 92, Indubitable and minidazzler.

I dare you to go through the **** i've gone through.

Before that you have zero response
Oh of course i forgot.
You "liked" some post regarding suicide so yiz are all good. Then you signed something.
Whoop de ****ing doo!

Remember now, that you have no clue about what we have gone through either.

That said, go here and post. http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/forumdisplay.php?f=127

It's helped me and many other posters in the past.

dMaN24

minidazzler wrote: »

That's nice, I wonder will you get a warning or a ban for that Hope you have a nice Holiday season.

What THE **** d i care about some ****ing forum full of kiss asses if i jump into the nearest lock?

**** YOU FOR CARING! DROWN YOURSELF AND SEE HOW I FEEL.

Kylo Ren

And a Happy New Year.

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

What THE **** d i care about some ****ing forum full of kiss asses if i jump into the nearest lock?

**** YOU FOR CARING! DROWN YOURSELF AND SEE HOW I FEEL.

Why are you so angry?

dMaN24

minidazzler wrote: »

Remember now, that you have no clue about what we have gone through either.

That said, go here and post. http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/forumdisplay.php?f=127

It's helped me and many other posters in the past.

It helped you. Then WHYTHE**** are people treating me like this is a drunk think?

WELL??


I'm 5 minutes away from a lock. 2 secs away from a knife yet people tell me to "sleep it off"

**** you all.

dMaN24

Smidge wrote: »

Why are you so angry?

NO ONE LISTENS.

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

It helped you. Then WHYTHE**** are people treating me like this is a drunk think?

WELL??


I'm 5 minutes away from a lock. 2 secs away from a knife yet people tell me to "sleep it off"

**** you all.

Are you serious?
Or acting the maggot?

Aint Eazy Being Cheezy

dMaN24 wrote: »

It helped you. Then WHYTHE**** are people treating me like this is a drunk think?

WELL??


I'm 5 minutes away from a lock. 2 secs away from a knife yet people tell me to "sleep it off"

**** you all.

In before the Lock......

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

NO ONE LISTENS.

There is always someone who listens, maybe you just shouldn't shout.

People have to listen harder when you speak quietly

dMaN24

Smidge wrote: »

Are you serious?
Or acting the maggot?

In time you will know.

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

It helped you. Then WHYTHE**** are people treating me like this is a drunk think?

WELL??


I'm 5 minutes away from a lock. 2 secs away from a knife yet people tell me to "sleep it off"

**** you all.

You know we cannot help you and trying to make us feel guilty is not fair. I understand you have problems right now but there is nothing we can do to help you.
No matter what anyone says now you will take it the wrong way. Can we talk about the problem?

dMaN24

Johnny Electricity wrote: »

In before the Lock......

FuQ U

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

In time you will know.

Well actually I may not know as we are just "internet people" but if yours is a genuine ask for help, fine.

If not...............

latenia

If you're that bad dude, I'm off work in 3 hours and live in D8. I've got a bag of weed, smoked salmon and Trading Places on DVD. If that doesn't get the Christmas cheer going then nothing will...

dMaN24

Smidge wrote: »

There is always someone who listens, maybe you just shouldn't shout.

People have to listen harder when you speak quietly

I have heard whispers from friends. I have heard screams. Still they took their own lifes. How should i express myself when people ridicule me?

Smidge

HondaSami wrote: »

You know we cannot help you and trying to make us feel guilty is not fair. I understand you have problems right now but there is nothing we can do to help you.
No matter what anyone says now you will take it the wrong way. Can we talk about the problem?

I agree Sami
No point in anyone losing the plot if we don't actually know what the plot is

Little Acorn

If you want to vent about christmas:

A good place to vent is the "Ranting and Raving" forum here on boards. It's designed purely to vent, and nobody can post against your venting argument, only can post if they agree with your frustration. They would have to set up their own counter argument thread if they wished. It does obviously have some topics which are not allowed but not liking christmas would probably be allowed.

As far as I know you just have to ask some moderator for permission to access it, I can access it but that's because I got in there before it got made a private forum.

If you want to discuss more serious bad feelings the Personal Issues forum is very good although they will lock a thread if you mention suicide on it.
If you are feeling down maybe one of the links in that "alone at christmas" thread might be able to help you?

minidazzler

dMaN24 wrote: »

It helped you. Then WHYTHE**** are people treating me like this is a drunk think?

WELL??


I'm 5 minutes away from a lock. 2 secs away from a knife yet people tell me to "sleep it off"

**** you all.

Because sleeping it off is probably the best thing you can do. Because it's taking the middle road of not making a decision.

And I'm treating you like you're drunk because you do appear to be drunk.

No one here can really help you at this time, we aren't there to try, and we aren't trained.

1850 60 90 90

That's the number for the Samaritans. Ring them, they really do know what they are talking about.

dMaN24

latenia wrote: »

If you're that bad dude, I'm off work in 3 hours and live in D8. I've got a bag of weed, smoked salmon and Trading Places on DVD. If that doesn't get the Christmas cheer going then nothing will...

Trading places. Smoked salmon. You i like.
I could bring tea.

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

I have heard whispers from friends. I have heard screams. Still they took their own lifes. How should i express myself when people ridicule me?

Suicide is a very real thing for a lot of people on Boards(myself included, family member).
If you feel like that at this moment in time, okay lets talk.
If this is a p*ss take, its not funny

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

Trading places. Smoked salmon. You i like.
I could bring tea.

I could bring chocolate cake and ice cream.

dMaN24

I would never ever ever piss talk about suicide.
That i the same as crying rape when your date is bad.

I'm serious.

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

I would never ever ever piss talk about suicide.
That i the same as crying rape when your date is bad.

I'm serious.

http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2056241245

Please phone one of these helplines, we cannot help you here, we can talk but we are not professionals and might say the wrong thing.
Please just take care.

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

I would never ever ever piss talk about suicide.
That i the same as crying rape when your date is bad.

I'm serious.

Well then man,I'm taking you as serious.
You need to pick up the phone and call someone, anyone.
If you have no-one(and I know how that feels for some folks)
Ring the Samaritans
Great people on the line there, non judgemental and are always happy just to chat(believe it or not, that's what they do, chat)

I wish with hind sight that my relative had called someone, anyone before they took their own life.
It's a phone call that can help save your life(even if you are only low at the minute)

dMaN24

Gotta go..

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

Gotta go..

Take care, come back tomorrow and let us know how you are please

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

Gotta go..

On a note before you go....
I'm the parent to 2 special needs kids
Its Christmas and it stresses them out(hence why I am nite duty)

I lost a family member when they were 21
I was with that person 2 days before, never suspected a thing.

Don't do something in haste because the moment is rough
I have more than enough rough moments every day to last for us all:)

Come back tomorrow, things WILL BE DIFFERENT I swear:)

Glenn Coco

Hope you're still reading this.
Didn't know if you we're serious or not either OP, so have stayed awake to follow the thread and see. See what this means? It means I care, and plenty of others do too.
I feel down a lot, especially at Christmas, so I get it. I can see you're frustrated that you're not being taken seriously, but that's Internet forums for ya.
Maybe writing all this down is helping you in a way? How about emailing jo@samaritans.org, and they will be back in touch within 24 hours, what's another 24 hours, eh?
If not ring the Samaritans directly, the number was posted earlier. They'll ring you back. Hope you're ok, PM or come back to let us know.

dMaN24

I'm shaking, shivering. "Come back tomorrow" makes me chuckle.
This isn't me. I am normally a strong person. I hate suicides. It's for the weak.
I keep thinking of my mother. Who i cherish. ****. Sorry.

This isn't me. I would never have my legs in this cold water....
Just sitting here makes it weird.


**** it. Maybe i should go home.

HondaSami

dMaN24 wrote: »

I'm shaking, shivering. "Come back tomorrow" makes me chuckle.
This isn't me. I am normally a strong person. I hate suicides. It's for the weak.
I keep thinking of my mother. Who i cherish. ****. Sorry.

This isn't me. I would never have my legs in this cold water....
Just sitting here makes it weird.


**** it. Maybe i should go home.

I think you should go home too. Im cold sitting here and can't go to bed until I know you are in bed.

Indubitable

http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?p=75955119

Smidge

dMaN24 wrote: »

I'm shaking, shivering. "Come back tomorrow" makes me chuckle.
This isn't me. I am normally a strong person. I hate suicides. It's for the weak.
I keep thinking of my mother. Who i cherish. ****. Sorry.

This isn't me. I would never have my legs in this cold water....
Just sitting here makes it weird.


**** it. Maybe i should go home.

Suicide is not for the weak.
Its for the broken, people who have found something in their lives that they think they cannot fix.
Everything can be mended, everything.

I really, really hope that you are not taking the mickey because I would not consider it trolling.
I would consider it very cruel to people who have lived through an awful thing.

Smidge

HondaSami wrote: »

I think you should go home too. Im cold sitting here and can't go to bed until I know you are in bed.

Can I go to bed now too???:o

HondaSami

Smidge wrote: »

Can I go to bed now too???:o

No one is going to bed until we know he is ok, when he posts and says he will go home and sleep on it then we will sleep.

Smidge

HondaSami wrote: »

No one is going to bed until we know he is ok, when he posts and says he will go home and sleep on it then we will sleep.

Okay:)

CianRyan

Hey man, even if I'm not in the same position as yourself I can under stand the stresses of feeling like **** and having no one to talk to.
My only advice is to find some one, anyone and just shoot the ****, tell them how you feel. If you are drinking, stop. It won't help and will likely make you feel worse.
Myself and many others have gone through tough times and I at least have come out the other side and am now very happy.
I hope you're doing alright next time you read this and I hope you look for professionally help, for me anyway, it was worth it.

As for Monday and Tuesday, I sometimes wish Christmas would just stop too.
I like the family aspect but I HATE all of this present crap, I wish it was never thought up. The stress of being unemployed and having to spend what little money I have to buy people gifts they may have no interest in, walking around any shopping centre or in town and every dick head out there just looks through up, bumps into you and heads for the next bargain. UGH!!
Then the sitting around for hours after dinner, the people who are proud of drinking before breakfast and not stopping 'till it's time to go back to work. You're not an alcoholic the rest of the year, why at Christmas?!
I'm with you, OP. **** this Christmas spirit. Let's just focus on enjoy life one day at a time.

Feel better, dude.

Smidge

There you go OP,
People you don't know are on this site CARING about you.

Surely that has to be worth something???

If a stranger/s is willing to stay up half the night to make sure you are ok, surely you can see that there is some hope??

Glenn Coco

Still here OP.

Smidge

Glenn Coco wrote: »

Still here OP.

As am I.

Little Acorn

dMaN24 wrote: »

I'm shaking, shivering. "Come back tomorrow" makes me chuckle.
This isn't me. I am normally a strong person. I hate suicides. It's for the weak.
I keep thinking of my mother. Who i cherish. ****. Sorry.

This isn't me. I would never have my legs in this cold water....
Just sitting here makes it weird.


**** it. Maybe i should go home.

Yes you should go home! You'll catch a cold in water at this time of night! Go Home Now!

In all seriousness, if you are in a dangerous place right now I really do think you should go home, dry yourself off, and pick up the phone and call somebody for help! Is your Mum alive? Could you call her if she is? If not call a professional helpline.

You CAN be that strong person you say you usually are again, but only if you continue living and fight to get that person back.

If you're gone then that part of yourself that you like is also gone forever.

Give yourself a chance to fix things and get back on track.
Anything is possible with some work and a lot of help, but you have to ask for that help from family or professionals.

Now seriously skedaddle and get home!