Fellingdownagain

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Hi guys i am just back in college after the summer of going into my 2nd year but really this is my 3rd year in college as i dropped out due to being badly bullyed witch is sill with me 2 years later.

Ok i am basically living by myself for the 3rd year running. My 2nd 1st year in college i lived with 2 people who hated me as i kind of like to do my own things at my own time EG me washing dishes at 12 at night, Showers at 7am and watching movies. I basically lost it with the girl when day when she knocked on my door after i cam home from a exam and i needed a rest. And pin pointed out that i am living with you and your best friend whos all so your cousin and that i cant do anything in the house with out you giving out to me.
Then they moved out and a new guy moved in and well i seen him once a week no joke.

And now i am back for a week and 1/2 and i am in my apparemnt by myself again and i just find it hard to get up and do anything when i get back from college as well as my firends live miles away from and do there own things in the evenings. Which ends up with me felling down about everything and why cant i have a life.

I have all so been putting up with a large problem from my firends EX whos trying to get into my head as she has made fake profiles on facebook to try and chat me up txting me and so on. As the same girl basically f up me seeing a girl as i was txting 2 at the same time with the hope of something coming from one of them. She emailed both on facebook saying that i am only looking to ride them and i have a STI and so on and i can have have a bad record and so on. In which still eats me up as i cant get away from her i have blocked about 5 numbers shes trying to get in touch with me with claiming to be different people trying to follow me on twitter basically looking for me on any any site and trying to mail me.

The bulling part from 2 years ago ended up with me being very massed up and having a breakdown. As the said person tried to set my place on fire, Attacked me, Name calling calling me gay and the same person was dealing with being in the closet about being gay, Rummers around the class, Braking into my place and rubbing from me . I just gave up one day and broke down charting to my sister on facebook after it happening to me for nearly 3 mouths. But in the summer i seen him i was eating lunch and outside the window in the cafe across from me was him and i had a panic attack and everything came back. Like at the moment as i play video games there is 2 games coming out that i wont but i got the last parts of them when i was getting bullied and i keep thinking if i get them the same well happen to me again if i buy them.

My life is a mess and every year for the last 2 years i ended up coming across 1 person who destroyed my life. And a 2nd whos trying to mess with my head for the last 4 mouths. Not having people to live with while i see other people having great time with there housemates. While i set in bed playing pool on Facebook. What can i do to fix my problems ?

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OP your post is very hard to read and its very similar to another post that was on here not so long ago...

The first thing you need to do is seek out a councillor as you have a lot going on in your head and normally I would say write it down to get it in order but your post is so all over the place I dont think that would work for you, so with a councillor you can talk about your experiences.

You where bullied by some dude who was gay and I think you may have outted him?? by accident....and he couldnt deal with the fact he was gay so took it all out on you by robbing you (I presume rubbing you is suppose to read robbing) and trying to set your place on fire :eek: This is some f*cked up sh*t dude and if you havent spoken to someone by now about it then you need to, also did they guy cause criminal damage??

However you cannot let the past define the future, yes it moulds who we become but this should be more about life lessons than making you into a negative individual. I would have moved out too if you spoke to me like you did your housemates and when you live with people its about doing what is best for the group and not being selfish as you have been.

We all like to do out own thing and we all need space every now and again but I do feel that your attitude and behaviour is your downfall and this is what is hindering you so you need to have a hard look in the mirror.

As for you "friends" you say they like to do their own thing in the evening, well so do you so I really dont see the problem, you can not put all the blame on them for not having a social life, its up to you to create such a thing and if that means joining clubs to broadening your network then you do that, buts its up to you to do that and not blame everyone else.

As for your computer games - come on thats just (dare I say) silly....just because you played the last one and got bullied doesnt mean if you play this one its going to happen again, what if you got knocked down crossing the road does that mean your not ever going to cross a road again in case the same happens???? This is why you need to speak to someone so please go get the help, college is about sorting your future career out, maybe making a couple of friends and having lots of acquaintances that you can go drinking with but after college you really never lay eyes on each other again tbh.

Every one doesnt have numerous amounts of friends tbh most people dont, and if you end up with in later life with 5 your doing very well indeed, so chin up, get help, and realise why you are actually in college...and have a check of your attitude.

Best of luck with the rest of the year OP