What to do???

purplepapillon

Hi Boardsies,

I don't know what to do and am in need of advice.

I'm 24, with my bf (first serious one) coming on 2 years. Over the past few weeks, I've been thinking of ending it.

I was very young (I don't mean actual age but...just a silly gal really:)) when we met. He swept me off me feet. I fell for him instantly and would have done anything for him. I know...but I was insecure, and I look back on myself as I was then, and don't recognise that girl.

A few months in, we moved in together. He was having money troubles and I was working and getting lots more hours. I know it was quick (believe me, everyone told me so) but I was quite low at the time, a lot of my friends had gone away and I was very lonely. I wanted things to go well for him, and for him to get back on his feet.

Long and short of it, I decided after 6 months that I had to move out. I had begun to resent being the "breadwinner" so to speak, paying for cinema trips and everything basically. I had begun to resent him really. I wanted to go back to college, and the only way to save would be to move back home. I do feel that his support during the time we lived together was great, I relied on him a lot.

At the start of this year he cheated. He was drunk, an excuse. I told him I would try to forgive him. I didn't see him for a while, and kissed another guy. (a kiss, nothing more, I actually began to cry and had to say sorry to the guy)I had never thought of being with someone else until this. I felt I wanted revenge at that particular moment. I told my bf the next day, because I felt wretched. He forgave me straight away, so I thought I had better try to forget his cheating.

Now a few months on, and I haven't gotten over it. I know it's completely hypocritical, given that I did cheat in kissing someone. I have thought of breaking up over the past few weeks, but have been cowardly and not done it. I worry about him. He has had a rough history. He has only recently rekindled his relationship with his family (who live in his home country). I encouraged him to do this since we first started going out, as I saw it was something which was haunting him. He doesn't have many friends. I know I am one of the only people he relies on and confides in. I know it may sound completely arrogant of me to say that. He always says that I am his family.

I don't even know how to break up with someone, if there is any good way???

Any help/advice would be appreciated!

blatantrereg

Just be honest. Cheating in a relationship is a good reason to end it. Pity is a terrible reason to stay in a relationship. Dont tell him you are still with him because of pity though - no need for him to hear that even though it sounds like it's the case. Just say that things haven't been right since he cheated. No need to talk about resenting him for not being able to contribute his share financially either. It's not the reason you're breaking up anyway.