can depression make you do stupid things?

LegacyUser

Hi,i had depression growing up as a teenager which lead me shy and living a sheltered life,when i left school i was put on medication for depression and started to abuse drink and often wanted to take my own life out of desperation,in between i started to have sexual relationships with girls who were barely legal age,eventually i gave up drinking and went off meds,and got control of my life again.

Looking back on what i did,i felt like a dirty sad old man even if i was in my early 20s at the time,i don't think i was sane or in control at time what i did what i did back then,or was trying to catch up on what i missed out as a teen,i didn't expected to live long,so never had a thought about my future,my question can depression make you do stupid things?.

robman60

Of course it can. Depression makes you view the world in the bleakest way and can be very damaging to the person...

I'm glad to hear your life is back on track anyway.

pencilsharp

Of course it can, you shouldn't feel 'dirty'. Your depression probably meant that you weren't thinking straight and this lead to irrational behaviour. Glad to hear you have your life back on track now,x

Doogieboogie

Hi OP,

now that your life is back on track, it's normal to question the actions you took as a distressed youth. Okay, you were no angel, but that was then and this is now. Cut yourself a little slack, forgive yourself for what you did, and move on. We are our own harshest critics - you may feel deep shame for how you behaved, but others may only think you were a bit of a t*t but are okay now.

I'm glad things are going well for you now - use the opportunities you have worked so hard to give yourself and lead a productive, happy life. That's all you need to do. Best of luck x

sambuka41

Between the depression and the alcohol abuse what your feeling now is natural. Its natural to reflect on those times; its a testament to that fact that you have made it through to the other side. Counselling would be beneficial to explore your actions at this time and your depression.

Fair play for getting things back on track, good luck.

LegacyUser

hi all,thank you for kind words,yes i agree i was lucky to come out on other side,i think at moment along with medication i was on,i was not in the right frame of mind,i always hope to apologise sincerely to anyone in the past if i ever do meet them again.

Printemps93

short answer :Yes

With a distorted view of the world you're bound to do stupid things

LegacyUser

i close this chapter on this part of my life and try not to think about it too much,thread can be closed,thank you all for your input .