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blueguy

I'm a 18 year old guy. I've being bullied most of my life. I've haven't really being happy for over 4 years. I've being told that i'm a f*g, waste of space etc. I've being really hurt all my life. I've being kicked hurt and on one ocassion I was pi**ed on. I'm finding it really hard to keep going. When I was 14 I started to relise that I might be gay. I just tought this wad a phase and it was over what those people were saying to me at school. These feeling have never left me. I don't want to be gay. I don't want to let my family down. I want to have kids and have a happy life. I'm at a really low point in my life now. I can barely get up in the morning. I've started over-eating. I'm isolating myself from ehat friends I have and I just feel like crying the whole time. I find that I just like sitting in at night drinking. It's the only time I find my problems are gone away. Any advice?

gonnaplayrugby

ok come on dude, you're either gay or your not. theres nothing wrong with it if you are and really if you are you need to accept and embrace it-perhaps move to dublin if you're not living here as its the most open-minded place in ireland.

what kind of person are you? maby if your some emo guy you need to change your persona? hit the gym, get standard haircuts(rather than long messy hair), be more generic.

Princess Consuela Bananahammock

First things first, you need to get out of the rut. Call the friends you do have and go see a movie or something.

I'm guessing you come from a conservative and somewhat narrow-minded background and family, but there is no reason to believe that the rest of the world is like that. It sounds like you live in a very toxic environment and you need to get awat from it. Move, go to college, travel, whatever.

Regarding the gay thing, if you are gay then there is no need to be ashamed of it and certainly no need to feel that you are letting ANYONE down. If you are and the people around you can't accept that, then that is there problem not yours.

Angus Og

I'm not gay so I won't advise on that. What I will say is never drink when you're depressed, it doesn't help.

Also, gay or not, bullying can leave a scar. You will have to get help with that issue before you worry about your sexuality.

cafecolour

Nothing wrong with being gay, you can certainly have a happy life (and even kids if you wish). Your parents will adjust. Possibly look for a gay youth group in your area: http://www.belongto.org/

As per above, I'd look into counseling for the bullying. It can leave you with no self-esteem, and no self-esteem often leads to depression and self-destructive behaviors.

Jay Pentatonic

Being bullied against is a such a fu:eek:king unfair sh*te load of bollox. (talking from experience obviously):D but it does end, really I mean that. you just have to get past this man! I'm assuming you're nearly done with school, DON'T give up now!!! it's nearly over, & then all those idiotic assholes disappar.
If you're out of school, take the year off & use the time for some mental relief. It really helped me.:)

I suggest getting some exercise, take up jogging (or even just walking) it really helps, & takes a sh*t load off your mind, & you get a better sense of self worth when you realise how unbelievably amazing your body starts to look!!;)

I know it's easier said than done, but the drink has to go (or at least just tone it down). It won't do your health (or wallet) any good. just take it one day at a time.

& you'll be surprised how lucky you are, there are so many people out there who have absolutely no friends whatsoever, at least you have some peolpe to talk to.

I also recommend reading the book called "f*ck it" by John C. Parkin. it hepls you just not give a damn so much & is a real eye-opener, an easy read as well.

I can't say much about the gay thing, but I came from a very Catholic family, seems like you did as well? I'm not sure, but the main thing is if being gay is the way you are, then why fight it? it's just the way you are, & if some people aren't happy with that, then quite frankly, fu*k what they think. just do what's the most important thing, & carry on with your own life.

Hope this helped, all the best:)