What's wrong with me?

LegacyUser

The past year or so I have been struggling with my moods. I'm only 21 and I find myself often hopping between different moods. I can be perfectly happy and content with friends and then all of a sudden a feeling of complete sadness or emptiness comes over me. It's very difficult to explain this as I honestly don't understand it but it's something that is beginning to worry me.

Often it can be situations with people that strikes me off into whatever sad mood I happen to take and I will be honest in the fact that I have often had suicidal thoughts in these moments of such severe numbness. It's hard for me to feel anything but pain and sadness, if you understand, in these moments; I would not be able to eat, i'd bawl my eyes out for hours and just feel like I dont want to exist anymore. But then the next day I can go back to being perfectly content all over again.
I'm just finding it all very bizarre because it takes very little to spin me into these moods, and its the same with anger, if i get angry I can get into this almost blind rage for literally a few seconds and then snap out of it moments later when I realise i've done something wrong. I'm just wondering if this is normal? I never used to be like this, I very rarely ever got so down on myself and I hate feeling so sad and useless. I just want to know is this normal to be feeling when I don't have a huge amount to be sad about?

iguana2005

sounds like you need a little more seratonin in yer' noggin! Low moods I feel make you susceptible to your surroundings..its dull you feel low..its sunny you feel happy...you see someone fighting you feel aggressive..you see someone crying you cant stop...

very common...pop into your doctor..yer young too so might have a few issues you need dealing with(a good councellor is worth gold)? Only my point of view however..best f luck...dont feel alone...its so very very common but get help..

ladymarmalade

OP you need to chat to your GP, no this is not normal .
You are troubled, you have no self esteem but most worrying to me is that you have no sense of worth.

You are not eating, sleeping and have no will to live sounds like you are depressed ........... many people are. Please chat to someone you trust and then seek help.
I wish you well x

Sir Ophiuchus

First of all, this isn't normal, but it isn't just you, it happens to a lot of people. It can, however, be a symptom of depression. I'm not a clinical professional and neither is anyone else here, so we can't diagnose you. What I recommend is that you go talk to your GP - he won't automatically put you on anti-depressants, if that's what you're worried about - and discuss some options with him. The GP may recommend seeing a counselor, medical intervention with antidepressants, a combination, or something else. You should also think about how you would want to work on this and talk to him/her about it.

Depression is a medical condition, and, as a general rule, if you think you may be suffering from it, it's a very good idea to get medical advice.

LegacyUser

I've had this problem for about three years now, I can just swing in and out of moods, from wishing I was dead to aiming for a better attitude and power in my life. It's put me into some dangerous trains of thought very often, and I've done and written stuff that isn't really conducive to a healthy mind. However, I've come to accept it as just part of my genetic make-up at the moment, I'm convinced that taking pills or any sort of medication is just a quick-fix solution, it doesn't get to the root of the problem.

So I'm trying my best now to just be in better control of my moods, and hopefully get myself into situations where I'm happier, and more involved in life- but always remembering that it's alright to feel pain or sadness sometimes, and I'm trying to discover the best ways to get it out of my system.

Goodluck sorting out your problems.

LegacyUser

Is it possible that its certain people/situations that I should just avoid though? Like if I get rid of these things will I go back to the way I was before? I'm just curious as to whether its fixable without professional help really. I don't have a large amount of money being another issue with getting help I suppose...

LegacyUser

I would agree with similar_case, it's ok to feel sadness and lonliness

You should take peoples advice here lightly who tell you what you are feeling isn't normal. It's impossible from just a couple of lines on an anonymous site such as boards to deciphre what's going on with a person.

I am 29 and I have very often felt the way you do and lead a perfectly normal life. I know that other people around me find handling moods and stress very difficult but everyone is different. Some people don't ever admit to feeling this way.

I find being aware of it helps me control it. By controlling I mean taking yoga/learning to relax, going for runs and getting exercise helps me clear my head.

You will always be confronted with situations which may make you uneasy/sad - running away from them won't help but learning to take control and handle things will.

Take your time, you're just growing up, and don't ever be afraid to fork out €50/70 to talk to someone professional to re assure yourself that you are on the right track.