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I need advice

  • 06-08-2009 01:29AM
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    I am seeing my OH for almost 6 months and so far he is wonderfull, he is kind caring and would do anything for anyone.. The thing is I feel as if I am keeping a secret from him and I feel I am constantly lying to him as a result. I was physicaly abused as a child .. it started when I was five and ended when I was 18.. (I put a stop to it when my dad tried to beat me I called the police) shortly after I moved out I was also bullied very badly in school .. the affects of what happend to me are still there .. I suffer from depression and anxiety and despite being so happy around him as I have no selfestem I am always worried that he will leave me.. I am not at all possessive but he can see that i have no self confidence and he dosnt understand why.. he can see that i am very self aware and again he cant see why, when we talk about our families I always lie about mine.. i am afraid to tell him the truth as im scared he will see me as baggage and leave me but i dont want to live a lie either.. i have tried to get help but i found it hasnt worked instead i battle it myself.. what can I do ..


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